[Y]ing [H]ui: July 2008

Wednesday, July 30, 2008

N.E.X.T challenge reflection, SP Leo I&I

Reflection

well, have been helpers for 3 yrs of next challenge, e 1st yr help out as a station master, 2nd yr help to go round the station n distribute the food, 3rd, actually do much of the things which includes doing of clue, buying of logistics, station master, distribution of food, safety etc. wad i can say that i am doing more things as e yrs goes by. does it mean that i have grown up?

Well, although i cried, i get frustrated i start scolding pple, i am sorry pple. I cried cause of the clue that we gave wrongly, at e point, i really cried quietly. Sorry to those whom i actually scolded during e event. But i am still very happy when in e end the event actually goes on smoothly. Do you know what was my feeling when the event ended. I felt so relaxing, cause no more weight on me, i felt really really very happy although i am tired

Dunno y, mi and hyder can actually chat very well, but rezal not so. during our chat, we actually chat on lots of things. he told mi i grown up alot. But where did i grown up? there is things i always want to say out. But i dun dare to say.

hyder told me this, "i hope that you all have learnt a thing or two along the way to make us a better organisers and people". the 2nd time i cried that i have hyder and surani who is a gd person, i am happy that i know them too. thank alot. When i got the pic from kevin i actually wanted to blog about next challenge on YEC blog, i have lots of things to say.

SP Leo I&I

1 yrs has past, is another yr of I&I, is my 2nd yr. i actually remember i left early last yr I&I and went to eat dinner wif someone. so fast 1 yrs has past, but those memories i still remember and i will nv 4get. i really felt that this yr I&I is so different from last yr. i felt so much happier last yr. Not because of the committee but my life ba. although i only know most of the committee for like a few months. but they are really a nice pple. thank for actually my life more meaningful in SP beside studying. nevertheless i am still happy today. hopefully i can work with this batch of committee well.

P.S. Please do not treat me so well, cause i dun have feeling for you anymore. Sometime is gd to be missing and not appear too much time. although i may help you but dun get the wrong feeling. I have someone whom i like, i only treat you as friends from the start.

was watching a show and i cried too. how can i understand what the guys thinking. Y are you always in my mind. Y the person who get hurt is e gals. can someone tell me what the guy thinking. i really hate the feeling right now. Hate it. Y must i pretend?

Tuesday, July 29, 2008

mentally tired

Just could not concentrate on today lesson, keep on falling asleep during lesson. Had a long hr break today, initially was meeting joseph for OSRM but he msg mi say he not free only can make it on our study week. so did some qns den went to find pi teacher to ask her some qns. Den went for corrosion lesson.

After school meet kelvin den went to tampines together, we drop off at simei mrt station den we walk to cc. den went to cc to do some next challenge stuff so that i can pass everything to the respective cc. finally i finished up everything today. den after that went for meeting. today meeting was quite general. But after our meeting, we had a hot topic "cockroach". Dunno y, cockroach suddenly came in. From last week, i have been telling someone that i will put cockroach on his table.

although i am veri tired but we had fun chatting too. tml will be having I&I, so fast another yr already. yes, told myself, will be spending e rest of my days until exam is over at airport studying so free free to join me.

Just feeling mentally tired, although i did slp but dunno y so tired. really cant take it, going to slp and wake up to do my tutorial.

Monday, July 28, 2008

N.E.X.T Challenge (continue)

Just woke up not long, serious very tired and feeling quite sick now. i am feeling so giddy and backpain.

Took photo yesterday too, got bully by our yec guys. cause surani left in the morning den left mi the only gal den they bully me lor. Took pic with PLK mp and took pic with PLK yec too. Actually shu fen ask whether wan to debrief anot, all of us say not today.

Help to pack up the whole place and bring back all the things to the respective venue. Help to transport back the things to Tampines North 1st, den go back to Tampines East cc to put back all the things into yec store room.

After that follow hyder and iskadar to return the van cause hyder brother coming to fetch us back. All of us are bedok pple. Take the same van as iskadar, omg, damm funny, laughing throughout the whole trip. But seriously all of us are very tired to even keep laughing.

anyway thankx hyder for sending mi home once again. After this event i felt so close to pple like hyder and iskadar and of course some of the Yec. Still remember jacky (Pasir Ris East yec) told me that after this event we wont meet again until next yr next challenge, probably.

Not going school today, really feeling very unwell, my back still pain due to the van ba. then have to complie all the receipt so that i can pass it to tampines north den going to fax one copy to paya lebar kovan.

tml gonna have supernova meeting, but guess i have to finish up my next challenge stuff 1st. Through this next challenge, all of us have been staying up late for abt 2 weeks. like wad hyder say it time to rest after this, den i told hyder ya, but after resting awhile we still have to go back our GRC youth day but due to his preparation of wedding we actually us si jie to come in to help. den b4 GRC youth day i still have the inter-generation game to go. omg, damm tired.

Sunday, July 27, 2008

N.E.X.T Challenge

yeah, everything has ended but this is only one part. damm tired now, but trying to blog, abit blur blur too. haven been sleeping for 2 days. waited for hyder on sat cause he fetching mi to cc. Den at the same time he and iskandar refill his van oil. Went off to cc to start preparing and doing those have yet to be done. was rushing out and at e same time was having headache over some stations. and after veri long we manage to understand. So, we quickly finish up everything and went to tampines north cc for all the breifing and the starting point. Yeah, the briefing etc did goes on very smoothly, except the checking of the bags things. the pple over threre did not really check properly.

Chatted wif ying ying they all b4 the event start awhile. Soon all of them set off, and we had not eaten our lunch and dinner, so we pack all the logisitcs stuff into the van den we went to the coffee shop opposite to have our dinner. den when we order our food, some station actually call and say there is a problem to the clue to the next station, so mi, surani, hyder and shu fen actually double check again, and think that we have done it correctly. Den when the food came, more station actually called that some route actually led them to PA HQ at the 3rd station but actually PA HQ was the RC1 station where all the route will be at that station. And later on more and more diaster so we actually left our food there and ran towards the van and set off to all the station. Den in the van, i keep analysing where we go wrong and later on i found out, told surani den told hyder. So we actually explain to all our own yec pple, ask iskandar to drop everyone of us into each station, to actually told them wad to do.

After awhile everything seems abit back to normal, but some grp actually not happy with it, so ya, is our fault. we actually mistaken all the route. VERY SORRY TO ALL THE TEAMS. omg, when i actually found out it our fault, dunno y i actually cried. felt so bad to some of the teams that they actually went to the wrong station or even walk a longer route.

So i went to cathay to explain and thank god they understand mi, so hyder told mi to go to PA HQ to set off, so i quickly left cathay to PA HQ. and set up together wif the help of seow ling (PAYM) den later on surani they all came to help too. yes, when some grp actually came in, some of them were unhappy over it, wad we can do is to say sorry. so we actually took out all our clue from the envelope ensure that notHing goes wrong after that. so we realise that is late when e station master of the stage B called us and ask where are we. So we quickly pass our job to the PAYM pple and quickly set off to the station.

Oh no, that van is damm bad, when iskandar drove up the hill or break i keep knocking onto the door den my hand pain. But we actually caught someone cheating la. But it is still veri difficult to catch. stage B was a disaster, i actually lost my voice cause so many grps came at one time and i keep giving them briefing. caue almost all of them actually took taxi.

Den after that we quickly went back to RC2 to help out too. den help fareez to collect the food and distribute to the station IC. I really felt someone very WEIRD. that person is not normal at all. den after that went back to RC 2 we had lunch together. and soon all of us felt asleep for awhile, cause the van is not back yet. after that we set off to the last station which is at kovan.

Manage to read some of the feedback, most of them actually dun like the fort canning part, dunno wad did the station master do too. and was suppose to find joanna at mustafa casue of all the clue mess up, we atually could not meet her.

well, i am seriously very tired now, tHink i going to sleep le. cant take it, update more abt the next challenge tml.

Saturday, July 26, 2008

NEXT challenge preparation

i will get very angry and sad when i have lots of things to do. I am simply so stress too. After this more things to do. But after this i am going to take some rest too to study for my exam 1st after that i can chiong.

After sch, went around tampines to actually look for identical chop but couldnt find it, den quickly head back to cc and started doing everything tat i am supposed to help b4 hyder they all come. yes, i am actually quite angry of some pple but wad is the use, i have a ans alerady. Gt to thank most of e cc staff who help me. Not 4getting joanna, min min and steven. Although madam pang is quite fierce but she is nice at time. when i keep sneezing she actually ask mi not to sit under the air-con and also ask mi to have my dinner.

So help steven awhile for his citizenship den rush down to continue doing everything. i simply hate pple who do halfway and pass to me to do everything. cc close at 10pm so we are suppose to leave the place, so someone actually went to talk to the mac manager to actually let us use the place. tat person is someone who is gd at this. throughout the whole preparation we laugh.

shu fen from paya lebar kovan came down to help us too. thankx. den we had to form production crew cause we have lots and lots of clue to slot into the envelope. but we still get chase out at 12am. So we decided to move out all our things and we doing it outside 1-3, took some pic. omg, is the 1st time i am doing this cant believe it ritex. But to thank those who stay up all the way until 1 plus to help. pple who help re shu fen, iskadar, shi chang, alex, hyder, surani and someone.

tat someone really made shu fen laugh like mad person, she just cant stop laughing. poor us. Once again gt to thank hyder for sending us home. Look at the timing now, i just reach home. So, i am going to have some sleep now, wake up early in the morning to glue all the clues. which is like 1000. actually hyder dun wan to let mi take cause heavy. den he say i can take only if he fetch mi tml and so i agreed.

ying hui got to be energentic tml, nothing can go wrong. will update once i am back and hopefully i still have the energy to.

Friday, July 25, 2008

Sick and tired

Long day today again. Yes, happy tat finally is the last practical which means exam in on the way. After practical today, receive hyder sms, straight away went to print out the updated logistics list. Lol, alex was late. den was suppose to meet them at 5pm at mrt station and we were late too. So, mi, alex, justin and kevin head to TM popular to get all the stuff. woo, 1st time i am spending like $100 there. den we head over to NTUC to get some stuff too. den bring everything back to cc. den head over to tampines mart to get other necessary things.

glad that i am able to buy everything, except a few going to get it tml. Lol, kevin went awhile and left. so left mi, alex and justin. Seriously i hate someone who keep calling and disturbing mi when i have something to do, i get so frustrated, when especially we do not have much time left.

after finish buying quickly head back to tecc, to check everything and put them into stations. was so rush tat i gt no time to eat dinner and totally 4get abt it. i think hyder and surani know i am stress too, so they actually ask mi to relax. with their present, it seems that i am alone doing everything.

after cc close we continued to have our meeting at mac, all left except e usual us again, so hyder brief mi on wad to do tml. cause they will be coming down after their work so ya, help them as much as i can. i dun care whether e rest coming to help anot. Going to help to collect all the receipt, cause we need to hand in everything by this sun, so guess after blogging i going to continue.

my email is like flooded with GRC youth day and Next challenge. i simply just put GRC youth day aside. and only open the next challenge folder, going to look through those email after Next challenge is over. Tml must have a good night slp. if not we will be damm tired for the 2 days.

Congrat that we have 66teams altogether. Dun be suprised if u see mi like a dead person tml, so better not let mi angry if not i will get veri veri angry.

For the rest of the days this week, i will be damm tired and busy. So only can make mi happy but not sad. Dun wish to mention here wad is actually bothering mi right now. but e major is definetely not my family. Someone keep mentioning something and i felt so frustrated tat i really dunno wad to do to keep everything together.

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

Tired

Feeling not very well, like gt fever like that, feeling very cold without even the fan on. guess i am really sick.

Skip sch for the 1st lesson cause need to pay my school fees. Haix, $ again. After that went sch for practical and lesson. After that went to cc to do Next challenge stuff. Reach there, study awhile, while waiting for hyder to come and brief us. talk to joanna on some personal stuff awhile. Yes, i know what i wan, but?? had dinner with steven. hyder was once again late, hyder go through the logistics stuff that we need to buy.

Initially thought of going tml to buy, but i am working and i think some not free too, so we going shopping on thurs, lots of things to buy. who wan to join us? their is still lots of things not finished yet. Is like we need to camp at cc in order to finish everything. we finish discussing around 10 plus, den hyder send surani home 1st den send mi home. Thank again.

i told hyder tat e GRC youth day will take care of it, he shall take a rest after this event, cause he still need to prepare his wedding, so i told him to go ahead and finish up all his wedding stuff 1st. i also told him tat i will help him to get verlyn more involved now.

spending the rest of the days in cc. feeling sick and tired now.

Monday, July 21, 2008

Sad Post

I feel that someone dun understand me, do i understand him well, at least i know that i understand him more den he do. Hate to repeat what i am going to say. How i wish i can talk to you too, but do you know what is stopping mi anot?

Talk to min min awhile and thank, e way she talk to me is soft, i felt more comfortable talking to pple in this way. Thought of going meeting, but my mood is not suitable for meeting so did not went. But i sat there while waiting for her, feel like talking to someone. waited until 11, so dun wish to disturb her so i walk home myself.

When will someone actually understand me? What is 4getting everything?

Saturday, July 19, 2008

Getting tired and tired
N.E.X.T Challenge Briefing

went cc, around 8 plus in e morning, early ritex, started packing e yec stuff and meet hyder later. Thought of studying abit in e bus but i felt asleep, seriously i find myself getting more and more tired. Dunno wad happened. Alex told mi something, and i told him 4get it already, i already lose hope on that already. It seems getting worse and worse.

Thank joanna, i think she know tat i didnt eat anything she brought mi sometHing from Mr Bean. Actually the more i see them the more i am more angry. Have been going up and down doing lots of things and now my leg hurts. Play with ying ying brother, how wish i am like him, nothing to worry about. and during the official meeting i was fell alseep. Cant take it.

Our was e last to brief, cause paya lebar kovan and our was the overall in-charge. so we got lots and lots of things to do. Guess, after the meeting my whole week next week is fully packed, really very packed. After wad hyder told us tat we have to do. we are meeting next week, everyday and all e way to sat. then help with the tampines north side on the admin too.

When i was talking to Joanna, i nearly cry but i make a excuses tat i got things to do, trying to avoid, cause she ask mi something, and i told her, 4get it, i shall do it myself, no mattar wad i will do it, i wont leave everything hanging. I told her i really hate them alot alot.

Went for dinner after we finish everything, was too tired to even eat. But we had alot of fun talking. talking about hyder engagement. and he say he will be going to countdown on e 31 dec, for pple is a new yr but for him it means no freedom etc. cause he will be married the next day.

after tat hyder say he give mi a leave home. and i was so blur, i thought y he wan to give mi a Lift. oh no, got say by them. once again, thank for sending mi home.

Monday
GRC youth day meeting

Tue
doing N.E.X.T challenge stuff

Wed
no choice but have to go to work cause i tue cannot work already

Thurs - Fri
Finished up all the N.E.X.T challenge stuff, den have to help steven in citizenship thing

Sat - Sun
N.E.X.T challenge
worse of the worse. Meet early in tecc 1st settle everything, including e goodie bag, den set off to tampines north cc for last briefing etc. den soon the race is starting, lots of things to do in between. and e race ended all the way to Sun afternoon. guess, after tat i will be dead tired

*Hyder will be doing up e logistics list and each of us were task to buy certain stuff. When can i find a time to buy. trying to help hyder as much as i can too.

My leg hurts, tml still need to work, guess i am going to slp, really cant take it, den wake up early in the morning to rush my report b4 work.

Seriously, wad is "S", i cry over this, cause of them. Sily of me. I am so disappointed when no one actually lend you a helping hand. I have been asking myself, have i really did something wrong?

Thursday, July 17, 2008

Stress

Shall spend a few time blogging after which going to finish up my material science and OSRM report by this week. Sch started quite late today, love even week. But when sch early to see our practical result. today lesson was ok, but abit tired. Whenever i reach OSRM, i felt so stress, guess cause of the teacher.

After sch, mi, faizah and chu zen went to airport to eat sweensen student meal for our lunch cum dinner. Decided today one. everyone of us was so eager to eat, so we quickly head towards airport. Reach there and happily order our meals.

Chu zen espically cant wait for e food to come. The food is so nice. after eating, we decided to eat ice-cream, den we order student meal too. e 3 of us share two ice-cream. the ice-cream was nice too. e 3 of us re like mad person, no.. onli faizah and chu zen. took some pic. after tat chu zen left for her meeting while mi and faizah went t3 to study. thank faizah for teaching me. understand better already

tml going cc to pack yec store room. den maybe going early in e morning to continue again.

Wanted to show jackson this, Curry. His favourite.

Faizah food

Mine

Chu Zen food

Ice-cream

Thank Joseph Chan

Tutorial day today, both lesson ended quite early cause we finished our tutorial, after tat went for gems had a little bit of lecture and den tutorial, ended quite early too. Went to work after tat, did some qns since i reach there early.

thank joseph chan for giving mi e OSRM slide. He say must go home read his slide hor. Yea, i will listen to you de, will be reading your slide, i wont let your slide gone to waste. really thank alot. Luckily i have a teacher like you. Although u re onli my practical teacher but u help us alot.

tired, studying everyday. tml after sch might be going down to airport to study. Received one letter and i dun understand, shall ask joanna for help, since she is e one around now.

Wednesday, July 16, 2008

Tiring

opps, going 1am already, yes, i am sleepy, going to sleep soon. School was not too bad accept for 1 person tat i just dun feel like talking to. The most fun lesson for today is OSRM practical. Really have to thank joseph chan for actually cheering me up, making e practical lesson a happy one. i will defintely miss him cause today is our last practical, miss e way he disturb us, miss e laughter etc. want to thank him too for helping in my OSRM. cause i am a slow learner and i really cant understand wad tat ng and tan talking about. asking him to go through e chapter wif mi for the 2nd quiz.

went to work today, this few weeks we have been talking about guys cause of daphne who break up wif his bf after 3 yrs. the both of us re from e same horoscope, and true, we really look similar in many many ways.

reach home, and my email is full of email from GRC youth day, it appeared almost all from joanna. Spend sometime to read through but haven reply yet, hopefully i can reply all those email tml morning and also tons of things for me to do. Suddenly i began to hate opening my email.

After reading through my email, i went to send all my lecturer email on e past yr paper, cause i onli got PI and 2 sets of OSRM. waiting for their reply too.

Very tired le, going to slp and wake up early tml to settle my GRC youth day stuff.

Monday, July 14, 2008

Long and tiring day

Hate monday e most cause lesson from 8am-6pm. Nothing really much happened in sch, just feeling veri tired. But we releases early today cause we almost going to complete our BIA already. Oh no, our end sem exam is coming and b4 tat still got quiz to go.

Just finish doing environmental studies tutorial, more to go and going to study and study. Went tampines mall after sch, brought a pair of shoes cause my shoes spoil le, but buy e cheapest among. den went to popular to buy things wich i need den went home. half way doing through my corrosion science i almost fell asleep.

Reach home and i got so angry. What for finding tat stupid guy, i long dun treat him as a existing person. Seriously i am going mad, real mad. msg someone but stop halfway. I just feel tat no use continuing anymore.

Feeling uncomfortable

Finished up and checked my corrosion report b4 sending to amos goh, after tat start abit on my material science. watch the show "the prince turn into the frog" and i cried, yes i cried easily. Went to work in e afternoon, fatin is back. long long see her one time, cause onli when her sch in malaysia is having holiday den she come back work. Had happy time talking and we talk about relationship, fatin and daphne actually say how they treat their bf. they haven patch back and daphne plan something for his b'day. actually i wanted to do tat during his b'day too, but is quite expensive so did not do it.

my heart is like bleeding, e time where i need someone beside me is no longer. Y treat me like this, taking everything away from mi. Tat person can be so gd and can be so bad to you. tat person actually break e promise, promise tat we have made. tat person seems getting further and further away and yet i care and help. tat person seems so fierce, wanted to talk to him scared i might just get a scolding from him. when can e person actually treat me good. when can we go out? this blog seems like a place to pour out everything, but it do not know how to reply back or tell me wad should i do.

if tat person is reading my blog, plz give me a ans. I seriously dunno wad happened? it look like i am someone who do not exist, you can happily do something and break the promises. Did u 4get or u purposely did it. In front of you i smile, cause i dun wan to argue wif you. Cause i will always be e loser when i am correct. So angry of myself.

feeling sick all over me, dunno wad happened also.

Saturday, July 12, 2008

OSIM: Triathlon

Slept around 2 plus in e morning yesterday and wake up like 3.45am. slept onli like an hr. cause was supposed to reach East Coast at 5am. Reach there and mui hoon went to find her sis, cause her sis is part of the organizing committee. After tat went to register, took our t-shirt. Oh know, i actually change my shirt without going to the toilet, cause i expert. After tat went to deposit our bag and took our breakfast.

Me, si jing and leanna do the prize presentation part while nuan qin and mui hoon do the drink stations, so we went to our respective station. Our prize presentation manager is Jack, e 1st look i see him, know who he looks like, he look like Joseph. Omg. but some of his character is different. quite slack b4 the race start. when e race start e 3 of us went to the finishing line to take note of who comes 1st etc. damm messy and even jack also dunno wad is it, so we trying to figure out which cateogry re they. They start from e youngest onwards. they have to actually go through 3 stations. They went swimming 1st, after tat cycling and then running. If my leg got no problem i will go and try, it looks fun.

Many countries actually came to participate, country like china, hong kong, Australia, India etc. Half way through, about to e end of e race it started raining, but they still continue running. and we went to the prize presentation side to help shift the trophy and present. the present looks nice, cause was sponsored by OSIM. The lunch was not too bad too. Didnt took much photo cause busy.

Seriously, jack really very blur, he dun even know wad is he doing. luckily joseph not like tat de. so jack better dun get blur tml again, well, we onli volunteer for one day. After e whole race ended we went back to report. Omg, they actually gave us $20 each. Is like they provide us t-shirts, breakfast, lunch, water. After tat all of us walk out and wanted to wait for bus 401, e timing tat we see is sunday one after like 20mins, den later on we realise tat we see e wrong day, so we went to see e sat den we saw e timing and is like we re already there but y no bus, so later on nuan qin saw e road closure for bus. Omg, no choice we walk out. den being e nice person of mi, i told e rest of e pple who re at e bus stop tat there is no bus, they like dun believe mi like tat, they continue sitting there.

So, we continue walk out, nuan qin and mui hoon went bugis while e 3 of us went parkway for awhile. After tat we took e bus and went back home. was thinking whether to go cc to continue packing yec store room, after awhile i realise tat if i were to go, i got e feeling i might fell asleep there, so going to continue this coming fri and sat perhaps.

told leanna by e time we reach home, we will be facing e computer for e whole day and yes, since i came back, i have been staring into the computer doing my reports. No ending of reports, haven finish even 1 e other one is coming. finally i finish my corrosion science reports already going to check tml. Got a shock when qi ming actually told mi tat DCP 2B25 pple, handing in their reports like 52 pages. Omg, damm stress la. mine is like max 20 pages only.

Some photos:

Our Tag

Full of Bicycle

Mui Hoon is missing. Cause we took turns.

Leanna is missing

I am missing

Nuan Qin is missing

Si Jing is missing

During our way to school

In the MRT

Yan teng b'daY present

Feeling so stress and Mentally tired

What happened to me again? trying to keep myself busy by not thinking so much things. Went with steven to some place in e afternoon, was so shocked and yet lost after hearing. i really dunno what to do. i am breaking down. after tat walk e whole interchange, my home is no longer a home to me, like wad joanna say it is onli a place for me to sleep and to use my computer.

i am feeling so uncomfortable inside me. Went to cc in e evening to update on some of e grc youth day staff. my purpose for today was to have inter-generation games b4 packing of yec store room but i am just feeling so upset. onli a few reply my sms and my email. in e end i did not even wan to do it. Guess, everything seems over i shall do it myself for e inter generation games.

did some packing for yec store room. disappointed. and from now on i seriously dunno wad to do. msg joanna and told her tat i will do it myself. she offer her help, but i reject her help, i cant expect a youth staff to help me. shall do abit everyday.

told someone this just now i always thought tat i will be more happiner in 'S' but now is 'Y'. at first, i dun really dare to talk to rezal and hyder but after this few meetings with them, they re really a nice person. truthfully i had happy time talking to hyder and surani.

so many things seem happening on me.. after few months, promises have been break and when will e promises be back. what is promises?

i always wan to find a place where i can be happy, initially i found tat place, but somehow e place is getting worse and is like gone. i really dunno whether are we still very good friends. Maybe i just dun understand you. you can be totally 2 different person or am i just interfering your life, if tat e case i will leave.

Living in this world is so meaninless to me, how i wish i can just live this world. cause i am seriously very tired by everything. i listen to someone in order to repay them back something, i will do as much things as i can.

i am so tired and sad to continue blogging.

Thursday, July 10, 2008

Busy Busy Busy, Tired Tired Tired

Lesson today from 8-6pm.. Had two practical, did enjoy myself in practical lesson but not leture. yes, i pass BIA.. OSRM leture will always make mi felt asleep in class. oh no, now is week 13, next week is week 14 le, guess wad most of my 2nd quiz is held on e 16 week, which mean i left with 2 weeks to study.. die le. and soon i will be taking my end semester exam.

Going to work extra hard. I wanted too, but my teacher seems so impatient wan to look for them also scared. i seriously felt so stress right now.

anyway today is zheng wei turn, and yes, i will miss you. Hahax. will find some time to upload e pic so when she come back can see. going back to do my material science case study.

Tml going to clean and stock take YEC store room. Shall not hope tat there will be pple coming down to help me, so shall do as much as i can. SMS and email them, onli a few reply. Think tat somehow SuperNova is getting worse and worse le.

Wednesday, July 09, 2008

Went to the wrong Meeting

Yeah, finally i got michael present after walking in bugis and after tat went white sands. Play arcade together too. Den went off to tampines central cc for e GRC youth day. went there in e end e minutes on the table was GRC minutes not given e youth day meeting. dunno which person told joanna tat today is e grc youth day meeting, somemore so many of us went. got mi, si jie, sharon, surani. den e actually GRC youth day meeting was like 2 weeks after.

At the carpark i saw 1 familiar car, i thought was desmond, but after awhile, desmond is in NS how can he be driving. so, it was his sis who is driving.

After meeting, went to surani hse 1st, cause hyder need to help choose e tile, cause their hse under renovation. i actually sort of crying when i see them discussing on the colour. in my heart, i gave them my blessings. i am sure that they will b a gd couple and a everlasting couple too and also a happy family. When am i able to get a proper family next time. This has been my wish all this while, how i wish that i can find my own family like hyder and surani. i felt happy for them. what i can say that hyder is a gd guy.

thankx hyder for sending mi home once again. on our way back, we have been talking alot in e car. Busy month. Trying to help hyder as much as i can too.

Upcoming Events

11 July : Spring clean and stock taking YEC store room
12 july : Osim: thrialon
19 July : N.E.X.T Challenge briefing
21 July : GRC Youth Day meeting
26 & 27 July : N.E.X.T Challenge
2 August : Spring Cleaning at Kheng Chiu
9 November : Inter-generation Games
30 November : GRC Youth Day

Happy BirtHday Yan teNg (pig 2)

Sick, went to see doc yesterday morning, lots of medicine to be taken, still feel like vomitting. Did not attend e environmental studies, went for BIA practical, e practical was fast, finish in an hr time. Waited for e rest to finish, took train together wif leanna and went for work.

I realise this few times of work, we kept talking about guys. Sharing our experience, but yesterday i was feeling really really very tired. So i am still on MC today, but going for gems test later.

After gems test going to meet alezec at bugis again, now bugis is my home. Cause we yet to buy michael present, really very busy, trying to queeze some of time out too. But seriously dunno wad to get for him although i know him for 3 yrs.

then, tonight going to tampines central for GRC youth day meeting. Skip e morning part, cause joanna will be going and she ask me dun need to go. Tonight going to show them tat we got more pple too, cause sharon, poh suan, surani, hyder and myself re going down.

Guess, will be all e way tired until august where my sem exam end. cant wait for e 6 weeks holiday to come, cause e 3 weeks holiday tat have just passed, is seriously not a holiday to us at all.

Oh, today is also the day where Desmond went to tekong. Well, take care. Tml zheng wei is going to tekong too, so funny he show me his botak photo. as promised will missed you. in fact, everybody is missed.

Just remember something, i have already done 2, 4 more to go.

Tuesday, July 08, 2008

Going to see doctor, need to rush

Yesterday after school went tampines mall to get our pig 2 b'day present (yan teng). Finally got something very nice and useful for her after a few rounds. finally got what i want too. the people in TM is making mi veri giddy, so many pple. Will post wad i brought after i give her e present.

Reach home and started to vomit, guess due to my back. my back is still pain, dunno y also. like wad rezal say, i am old. Guess, due to some of the running during e next challenge recee my leg hurts again.

was really veri tiring, rushing my reports which i have to hand in on thurs. Later going to see doc b4 i rush off to sch for practical. And work for mi tonight.

oh know, yet to get something for michael, going to buy wif alezec together. After thinking back i have know him for 3 yrs le, he is also a person who will nv stop making you laugh.

Admit that this week is really a busy week for me again.

Monday, July 07, 2008

Blogging at this late hour, well Happy B'day to Michael once again. did my corrosion report in the morning and do some of e YEC stuff.

Went to Michael B'day party, not many pple actually went. ask desmond whether is he going, and at e same time i reminded him too. Walk to michael hse 1st, while waiting for desmond and ying ying to come. although i slept yesterday, i am still feeling so tired everywhere and my back is still pain. Desmond magic, he so pro.

Hyder was busy helping surani to paint her hse, so he came late. and later on alezec came after his work at escape. so, mi, hyder and alezec had a short chat at michael hse while watching tv. we left micheal hse around 10 plus to 11. thankx hyder for sending mi home. so, we walk back to my hse, on e way back we chat on lots of things. and we even stop at my hse downstairs and start talking, our chat seems no ending. chat until 12 plus den we realise tat it is so late.

i find that i can talk more things and better to hyder and rezal, i dunno y, sort of afraid to talk to rezal but for hyder e feeling is totally different, i can chat alot of things to him, it seems like no ending of talk. yeah, after this next challenge, he can spend more time on his wedding le. Happy for him and congrat to him. for mi??

tml after sch going to tampines mall to get something and at e same time back to arcade again. So sorry michael, tml going to get him his present too. thinking back, we know each other for 3 yrs and is my 1st time giving him a present.

Sunday, July 06, 2008

Super tired, although i slept like 1 day.

Friday had to go for Inter-generation games meeting, in-line skating meeting and next challeng recee all in one day. Received hyder msg to slp at home 1st. But by e time i reach home no time le, have to go to cc, so didnt slp. Went cc to clear some doubt, den they went for dinner 1st, den brought something for e next day cc open house. Went for inter-generation games meeting and e date is brought backwards, after tat went for in-line skating meeting while waiting for rezal and hyder to fetch mi.

Agree to help hyder to be e participants too. so mi, alezec and jacky(pasir ris east) together in one team, den fareez was with us. did some stations. but e stations and places shall not discolsed here if not everybody know le. But it was really veri tiring. we walk for 8hr. and e places is not veri near to each other. basically we have to walk e whole singpaore. But e games was still ok, except we think tat one of e station is too dangerous. hyder drove us to kallang to eat mac at 4 plus. omg, is e 1st time i am eating at such a weird timing. After e last station, rezal and hyder ask us for our feeback. after tat went to collect our bag in hyder car, den e paya lebar kovan pple send us to aljunied MRT station and took back to have a quick bath before going to meet my leo pple.

Met alezec after we have bath, den we walk to tampines mrt station to meet e leo pple, well, thank for helping. Didnt really talk to them, cause was veri tired and at e same time, my back veri pain, dunno wad happened.

But it was fun working with them. when i see pple doing, i cant help but help too. Although many pple ask mi not too. Anyway lots of things to do this coming week. As promised, i help everything as long as i can.

Until i still cannot understand someone, sometime tat person can treat u so gd, sometime e person can just dun care. After wad joanna and min min say to mi, have i really make a wrong choice from e start. they say mi cause of e wrong person i choose.

Busy days:

Coming tue - meet joanna to discuss further on in-line skating but cannot make it, so sharon and surani going ba
Coming wed - GRC youth day meeting
Coming thurs - if not working, might be going down to cc to pack yec store room
Coming Friday - packed yec store room
Coming Sat - OSIM event: triathlon

As requested, and what i have thought, going to plan one day to kheng chiu for spring cleaning.

It have been a few months since we go out, since we eat as promised. so angry of myself.

Oh ya, i began to talk alot to cc staff already, think e cloest now is joanna and min min. e way e both of them talk alike, no wonder they so gd.

Friday, July 04, 2008

woo, think this is e 1st time i am blogging so early. Lots and lots of things to do, and i am working veri less days for this months due to lots of things to do. had YEC meeting yesterday instead of today. After sch, went TM to walk walk 1st, and now e arcade there gt my favourite game which i always see pple play, so happy, i teach 2 auntie how to play, cause they wanted to get the thing for their grandaughter and e grandaughter so cute, i play wif her. after that went to cc to look for joanna to show her e registration form. cause scared off by Hyder, cause he call and told mi tat there is GRC youth day meeting n he also call cc to confirm wif it. so he ask mi go for e meeting 1st, so i double check wif joanna again, and she say not today. everybody is so confused, and finally e truth is out rezal gt e wrong things is actually e racial harmony day thing.

Everywhere surani and hyder go they sure quarrel wif each other de, den sometime pull mi in also, they veri cute, e way they say each other. After yesterday meeting, more and more things is coming up, which means i need to mark my calender and keep myself free on tat day, some of them even clashes. so i have to make a decision which one to go. Since everyone is not free shall den separate myself into 2, shall go to e silver connect meeting 1st den e in-line skating since i got e help from joanna and verlyn 1st. And when going home, hyder ask for help in e Next Challenge recee so going to help. so i think i will be dead tired tml. and i am meeting my leo pple cause they dunno how to go cc, which means i cannot go home and slp 1st.

Since someone told mi tat if i think tat i owe them something, i help them, so tat i dun owe them anything. So i am going to help as much as i can. but at e same time i am not going to neglect my studies too. I am actually quite contented tat i can still come to poly. Serious speaking wad teacher teach in e class for tat hr, although i do take notes etc, i onli can understand half of e lesson. i understand things quite slow, it take mi like how many time longer den other pple. but actually seeing my own result, i am quite sad.

i went to photocopy past yr paper yesterday and some of them say y so early start doing le. actually cause i am a slow learner tat y i need more time. and i wanted to ask joseph whether is he a patient guy to teach mi OSRM anot. cause this module is very chemistry. qi ming told mi ask mi how is my marks, i told him i failed and he also know tat i failed OSRM. cause he too understand mi le, like last yr AP chem and IO chem. but really thank him alot for teaching mi last yr, but too bad he cant teach mi this yr.

and i really felt so happy when i understand something, cause it took mi a long path to understand wad thing. and sometime i am stuck in my report for so long, cause even understanding e qns took mi sometime. like my MST, i read e qns and i dunno wad it mean, but when later on i found out e ans, i actually know e ans, but i just dunno tat tat is e ans, so i left it blank.

Since i have choosen my path to study chemical process, so i told myself tat i have to love CHEMISTRY no mattar wad. Although i am feeling so stress but i still have to do it.

Going to settle my work 1st den going to pack my bag and going to cc.

Thursday, July 03, 2008

Did not blog for like 2 weeks le, omg, i cant really find a time to blog. Luckily today lesson start late cause our experiment finish le, if not i will be in sch already.

Will talk about my 1 week MST e next time. Feeling really really very stress, my head seems to get heavier and heavier, lots and lots of things is on mi. No ending of work, still have a few more formal report to go, 1 after another, gosh, material science case study to go. and in a few weeks time my end yr exam is coming, no time for so many things. wanted to finish up my Grc youth days things and pass to joanna but i seriously got no time. sleeping like 4 hr a day.

So angry of samatha, yes, i dare to put down her name.. everything also dun do, expect pple to wait for you, wanted to finished everything on time and where are you? happily go out and say lots of nonsense.. expect e whole grp to help you do things. still dare to ask pple why i angry of you. still dare to say y i show attitude to you. Go and reflect yourself la, talk to you will onli made mi so angry. i wonder how am i and my grp pple going to survive wif u for another 1 and a half yr. Think 1st before you say anything. Because of u, we gt more things to do, keep delaying lots of things.

Someone i am really feeling so tired on lots of things, even typing i also can fell asleep, cant imagine ritex.. I promised someone to listen to them, promised someone to go 1 place next fri. after sch going cc to study and try to finish up my youth day things, cant think of wad to say during yec meeting for e youth day things. tml going for in-line skating meeting.

Sat, got cc open house, but really thank to some of my leo pple to come and help out although they stay so far away, cause kelvin ong stressing mi on e manpower, den i also stress myself.. supernova pple onli a few can come. and kevin was supposed to do this job, dunno where has he gone too.

lots and lots of things to say during e past few days. Well, got scolding from lots of pple on lots of things, i know they say for my own grp i am not blaming them nor i am angry of them too. Wish to say thank you to those who help mi alot alot, listen to mi when i have problem. But i just dunno how am i going to say out. Going to do something to thank all of you.

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