[Y]ing [H]ui: August 2008

Sunday, August 31, 2008

Fun Day

Although it might be just the 3 of us going out but still it was fun. Outing wif alezec and kelvin. We went mind cafe 1st as suggested b alezec. played for 2hrs. It was fun but i admit i was slow in everything. Then we proceed to plaza sing. and i have found my new partner, is not a human. Next time if i have unhappy or happy things i can say to my new partner, but i yet to buy my new partner. maybe it take a few months for my new partner to be very beautiful.

and plaza sing aracade is so high tech, shall go there play next time, really very very nice. after walking around, we went to airport as suggested by alezec again. We went there to eat popeye. yeah, both of us like the mashed potato there. then home sweet home. Really had a great time with them. Plaza sing let me remind of some memories.

But 2 person actually made mi so angry. Shall not mention who is it. But things is getting further and further cause i know them more and more. Sometime if you re not willing to den dun do, i will nv force pple. If it were me, if there is things i dun feel like doing, i will nv join in the first place or start doing it in the 1st place. You will only give pple more trouble and more things to do. And if you think you are rich but others re not as rich as you. Seriously this few things have actually affect my mood and i am getting so angry over it. And i just dunno how am i going to face it.

my grandma will be going for operation soon. Cant wait to go out wif the pig family on tue minus away koo jee cause she going back malaysia.

RSAF Open House

Finally, my 2 weeks of exam week has ended. The feeling of after the last paper was so nice. But after tinking so much things, i am still quite sad. I just felt so useless in studies, so wad i am good in other things. Had Palau Ubin meeting, should be more or less done. Thank jerlyn and berlinda for help. yes, alezec leaving soon which means i am supppose to help him, shall help him ba, since is his effort. after tat had a chat wif joanna 1st b4 we went back.

Today went for RSAF open house, b4 tat went early for badminton, oh no. Shi chang damm pro, was too tired to play. Soon, everyone came and we set off to paya lebar air base. Thank everyone for coming. the security system very good, a bit of metal also cannot, tat include like belt etc. Also thank si jie for being our tour guide, so nice of him to explain everything. The air force is so cool, i feel like going up but so sad si jie dunno how to drive. wad is the feeling like up in the sky?

oh, surani was talking to me in the bus and the topic once again is realtionship. She actually told me about her story wif hyder, i can understand too. and thank joanna, they actually mistaken something.

After that went back, the weather was so hot and i got sunburn now. Had a fun time chatting wif hyder, suraini and si jie. they makes my day happy again. Went cc to collect my labtop and file den went to room to study doing wad i should do. Sorry cant accompany them go eat, but i should not be the middle person. den after that went to work. Oh no, i am really damm tired, so going to slp soon.

work and daphne talk about relationship again. and this is another sad one. Haix, wad is relationship?

Anyway we going out tml, who want to go can come join us.

Thursday, August 28, 2008

Not recovered yet

My sickness is not improving, it have become worse, my voice is getting worse and worse now. N i just cant stop coughing, have been coughing until my chest pain, just now even wan to vomit. I am feeling really bad now, but i have one more paper to go got to hang on that.

No mattar how sick i am i will still endure until my paper end tml, hopefully nothing will affect my paper. I just cant wait for tml paper to end, although is not e easier paper for me. i need my sleep, i need to go out wif friends, i need to work more days to earn more $, i need to finish up my inter-generation games, grc youth day, palau ubin project. although i will be having my 6 weeks holiday i have lots of things to do.

back to study. tml at 4.10pm i am free and happy person.

1 More paper to go + really bad cough

oh no, although is the last paper tml, but i dun see the happiness in me, cause i really dunno wad to say abt my this sem test. My confidence is like onli 30%, how? I really got no more confident to take the corrosion test tml, dunno wad happened it will turn out too. Just reach home not very long ago so going to rest awhile den going out to study again.

Yesterday went for e skating meeting and si jie project meeting. b4 tat was really damm angry, my bro insisted on wanting mi to buy him a slipper, and i was coughing so badly tat i dun feel like walking too much, and he actually bring mi up and down, just to find e slipper tat he want and i got to rush for meeting too. In e end i brought him a slipper worth $20. Dunno y i am once again involved in another project, but for si jie project we gonna help abit. den had meeting wif skating assoication, den after that we went recee until 10 plus, den the we actually went to mac to discuss further and distribution of work, had a lot of fun chat. But i am so glad to know pple like hyder, suraini, joanna and si jie, thank for caring abt mi, cause throughtout e whole day i cough non stop. and joanna will always ask mi wad i wan to eat she buy, like a mother to me. all of them actually ask how is my exam and i told them die, anyway thank for the encouragement.

Had alot of gossip, fun chat, talk abt long time ago etc and of course hyder and suraini quarreling. i actually laugh and they say i use to it le, den got no feeling. all the KAH seems missing, left si jie, verlyn and sharon, but verlyn also missing den now sharon started too. so poor si jie. cause you re e only one left. Although tml is the last paper but tat doesnt mean tat i am more free. I need to rush out the inter-generation thing b4 the next meeting, GRC youth day etc. We left until the mac closes, like 12 plus.

So i actually went airport to study overnight again, cause i already wasted my eveining. anyway once again thank joanna for sending me there. she actually ask mi to take a licience but i told her i nv think of this yet. on our way there, we actually chat on lots of things but all is relationship.

Some qns ask by Joanna,

Do you want something back?

Decision is not made by 1 person, if i want but the opp partner dun wan wad can i do still. decision has to be made by 2 persons.

Y would i choose him although he isnt a very good looking?

Cause i have feeling.

Do you know y chee meng left yec?

she told me that he actually told her that he like mi and because of something, he left. I really felt so guilty, how come until now den i know this is the reason, but in e 1st place who told him about this.

I actually told her, if i were to go into relationship now it is meaningless, cause i will only hurt the other person. Because i know wad i wan, my heart already tell me a ans. But i didnt tell her wad is it. i think it will actually took mi a long time to 4get everything. Do not have mood for anything. i am getting closer wif joanna, we can talk abt lots of things, so i told her after my exam den we chat. Suddenly i miss those few yec pple tat we ususally see each other, miss all the laughter tat we had. Let all enjoy for e RSAF open hse, cause the pple tat i miss re all going, but hyder dun overselpt.

Tuesday, August 26, 2008

Stress

At this point of time i should not be stressing myself, i study and study but i just do not have any confident to do the test. Meet in school today to study OSRM with the usual people. Study until 5pm. Went to Tampines Central for GRC youth day meeting. b4 tat went to find lay ting 1st den we went to the food court to chit chat awhile, b4 i go for the meeting.

I felt so tired during the meeting, but i went cause if i don't go hyder will be going alone and from the last meeting, i have to update a few things. later on suraini came in, and the 2 of them can quarrel happily and me sitting in the middle, den they use me. Was laughing throughout their quarrel. after each meeting, it means more things to do. Took bus back wif hyder and he told mi this "they quarrel for fun" and i start laughing again. this 2 person makes my day happy.

Cant wait for my exam to end, it seems the time pass so slowly. after tml left 1 more paper to go. and tat last paper is the most stress paper. tml going to meet si jie 1st for 1 meeting, dunnno y i am involve den after that going for skating meeting with the rest of the pple.

Going to study for awhile, den later going airport at 6am to continue studying. i just cant stop myself from studying.

Monday, August 25, 2008

Demoralise by Exam

Had 3rd paper today which is Material Science. So sad after e exam end. I got demoralise by 2 out of 3 paper. 1 was BIA and e next one was material science. Studied so hard like all the formula for caluclation, practice all the qns, and non of it actually come out for the exam. I am so stress and demoralise and i still have 2 more papers to go. can predict that the 2 more papers is not going to be simple, looking at wad kind of person our lecturer is.

I just cant wait for the exam to end, i am super tired and stress up. Just feel like going to the beack and enjoy the sea breeze. i did struggle during yr 1, and now yr 2 is even more difficult den yr 1. at least yr 1, e qns is still quite straight forward. now, i am speechless.

Work yesterday, was playing most of the time. All of us seems preparing for Christmas time already. teach siti some math qns which i learn for A. Maths. was just wondering y ITE have to teach, difficult method to understand. y i actually see her notes, tat was like so complicated. But one thing good is that the past yr paper given is similar to their exam. For ours, it will nv be the same. and a simple qns can actually earn them alot of marks, tat is one thing good.

Next paper is OSRM, going to study. tml night still need to attend GRC Youth day meeting.

Sunday, August 24, 2008

Sad Post or Happy Post?

On Friday b4 going to cc to study i went to tampines and finally found wad i want. So Happy. Went cc to study 1st, den later on went to the room to study. After tat steven send mi home. Aiyo, sick dun drive le. Don't always drive so fast.

On sat, went to cc to help in citizenship ceremony. Could not wake up, but i endure and took panadol b4 i go cc mac to study awhile. Met Jessica (Tampines North YEC), chatted wif her awhile while she is having her breakfast. Omg, shi chang b'day present is food, the riddle tat he gave mi is food la. I will give him lots of chicken wing next time, and some pple say my chicken wing is black de, lol. I make sure i like you all eat is something nice. My leg is giving mi problem again and made mi fall once again. I am like use to it le, although is pain. Is someone b'day too, was ask to sing b'day song but was abit reluctant but i was even more reluctant to eat e cake. I am so SORRY. After tat went cc and had some fun chat, den we went to mac and study den we went to reading room to study. In e end i left after kelvin left, cause i keep coughing non-stop until now. Ate medicine but guess is off no use. And i cough until my chest pain. Den went to outside mac to study.

Oh ya, we went to book a court just now, going to play badmiton on the 30th aug @ 9am. Shi chang seems very mad about this, so shall accompany him. After tat we will be going for RSAF open house.

Is my auntie b'day, b4 tat i actually thought of giving her some special cake. Due to not enough time i did not make a cake myself. Actually i wanted to order her a cake but she told me tat she don't have the mood to celebrate, is it because of us? Someone i always felt so guilty when the problems lies on us. As the yrs goes, everybody has no more mood for something. So, will i have the mood to celebrate my b'day too? i think last yr is the only yr where i enjoy my b'day. Seriously this yr i realise tat i do not even celebrate any b'day for my family pple. My grandma don't want to celebrate and now my auntie. So, i won't be asking them to celebrate my b'day too.

really dunno wad has e world becoming, i am somehow left alone in the family. My grandma is not coming back tonight. I wonder, becoming a christian must stay overnight somemore in a hotel? now everyone has become christian except mi. It seems tat there is no more communication. they enjoy talking to themself and i only have a wall to talk too. Worse still my auntie call and ask mi whether should she become christian also? and in e end she told mi she was just kidding. I am really very sick of all this things. Joke? Do you know tat when she told mi this i really break down and cry softly, if she 1 day become 1, i think i really dun have anyone le. I am like alone in my own world. The things tat actually made mi happy now is friends.

But somehow is so difficult to judge a person. Like how, it seems that i dunno some of you. Last time i know you but now it become a stranger. Does the problem lies wif mi again?

Went pass a bakery shop and they ask mi buy mooncake, so knowing tat my siblings and grandma like durian mooncake i brought 1 for them to try, at 1st my bro told mi not bad. den when my sis come back she say she dun like den my bro start to say nt nice. just now i went to the toilet and my bro actually off the light, and he say this to me "Very fun ritex?" although i am e eldest my none of my siblings actually treat mi as one. they will only scold and bully mi. and now my grandma nt at home e more they bully me. as usual i cried. Someone ask mi this in the afternoon, he ask y i dun wan to stay at home to study. My ans is, my hse is nv a heaven to me, i just wish tat i dun come back home, e moment i step into my hse is full of sadness. tat is y i am spending like my whole day outside.

What should i do? and i am really feeling very sick now, cannot breathe properly, it seems getting worse.

Friday, August 22, 2008

3 More paper left, 2 down

So happy, 1 more paper down. 3 more paper next week and tat is my holiday. Finally i am having like holiday. Had PI paper today, e paper should b ok ba. Sometime i can do but doesn't mean tat i can get the correct ans.

Cough throughout the whole test, 4got to buy sweet to stop mi from coughing. Cant wait to go out with the pig family, is a long time since we last went out. Not to 4get my guides pple too, is a long time since we went out together. I also wont 4get media pple.

Still feeling very sick, cook porridge to eat just now and my voice is bad. Gosh, kelvin finished his exam already. So, will be studying wif justin le. might be studying wif him later, but he need to beg his father.

Coming up next is Material Science paper. Going to start mugging again. JIAYOU!

Thursday, August 21, 2008

SICK

Not going to blog in details, feeling veri sick now. Yesterday was Wei Li b'day, gave her a card. After work went to airport to study overnight, sleep over there for an hr plus. reach home around 7am, slept until 12pm.

After tat went to study wif kelvin at long john. was feeling very sick, throat very pain and feeling very hot and uncomfortable inside. Really feeling very sick le and got PI paper tml. I am just going to endure for tat 2hr 10 min paper tml.

took medicine but it didnt seem working very well, ate the medicine which joanna pass mi long time ago also did not really work.

Tuesday, August 19, 2008

BIA SEM EXAM

Speechless for a moment. Mind not clear, feeling sleepy. Seriously cant think of anything now. Finally 1 paper is down, 4 more to go. Look into some PA website just now and found some cooking & baking course which sound interesting. Feeling like joining.

Oh ya, celebrate faizah b'day in sch, once again Happy B'day!

Tml gonna study in sch in e morning, den work in e afternoon cause is wei li b'day and they going for celebration so help them. den overnight study at airport. anyone wan to join, free free to come along.

Jiayou. Wish me luck people. Seriously i think after this exam i going IMH soon. brain is like so heavy can i ever upsize my brain. Receive a guidance by mail for this august, but it was send my janice. Thank.

the guidance for today is:

Buddhism is wisdom. As long as we have wisdom, we can put all things in the directions of happiness.

Start of Sem Exam

Went out studying wif kelvin today. Went long john to study den chat wif ah ma 1st den gosh, michael still working there la, e last time i went there he nt working le la. Elmer left already but gt 1 new manager, omg, they really look alike, ah ma also say tat. the way they talk also look alike, make mi think of how elmer treat mi last time. He really treat me very good, suddenly miss him alot. But i think this manager is nt so fierce as elmer.

Study from 10-4.30pm den decided to went cc reading room to study. B4 tat went to buy some cake for auntie and ah ma they all to eat, cause is like after so long den i go visit them. talk to joanna awhile, and 1 more meeting is coming up again. my mind is like so full of things la.

went cc room to study, den we sat at the table where the pple actually left their things there. The one tat shake head wif a smile actually so called motivate me, cause the thing was smiling, should i get that for him so that he wont stress up by his work too? den there is one person who put her soft bear there. shall i bring my soft animal there too?

Study until 8.30pm, den went TM popular to get somethings. and i brought something cute too, will upload those pic other day. Mickey mouse and Minnie mouse, my favourite. Like my 2 mushroom tat i am having now. They are happy being together and they will nv be separated.

Will i get my happiness? if yes, when will i be able to have my happiness? Am i really truly happy now? Have i really forgotten everything? Should i start everything afresh? Have been asking this stupid qns myself like everyday.

I got a feeling for something, but do not know whether my feeling tat i have now is the correct one.

Well, tml e start of my 1st paper which is BIA, wish me good luck then. Wishes everyone good luck too. Let all study hard.

Cant wait for it to end and rest, do whatever things i want to do.

Sunday, August 17, 2008

Last day of study week

omg, when i open my eyes tml is the start of exam week already, that is very scary. 5 modules to go. went to different places to study. 1st i went to the food court to study den at 12 plus in e morning i went to popeye to study. den i left at 2am cause they re closing den i went to the waterfall there to study until 4am. den i went walk walk for like 15min den went to coffee beaan to study. den study until like 5am, took a short nap until 5.45am, den went to take train and back home. Something did go into my brain while studying. I feel that the feeling of studying at night is very nice, that y so many pple is doing that too. e 1st thing i reach coffee beam was alot pple felt asleep while studying. is a nice place to slp too. So whoever wan to study midnight this 2 weeks tell me.

Chiong my BIA, doing all the calculations, den maybe back to OSRM den tml going through all the theory part. Gonna study wif kelvin tml at bedok long john at e same time visit those auntil, cause someone who keep smsing me told me tat the auntie miss me.

did not really watch the national day show on the actual day cause was feeling quite tired, but i watch just now, and i saw some of my soka friends, very proud of you guys. can see some of you very worried like wad we use to be. our cheorographer always told us to count in our heart, but sometime we get too nervous tat we actually count in out. cause we want no mistakes. there is a urge of wanting to join next yr, but i got to see my time.

read some horoscope and they say that i will get weaker this coming month which i find it true, dunno wad happened i just feeling very weak and weaker as the days go back. lots of health problem is coming out.

Some photos:

My new Minnie Mouse labtop skin, cheap one

Gosh, i know is closing time, but i cant see those dirty things still on the table, cant they just clear

Waterfall, but at that time it is not operating

At Airport (after studying):

From crystal jade, mi and yan teng actually try this and it looks cute

At Swensens:

At MRT Platform:

Studying @ Airport

My tittle is obvious ritex, i am at airport now. Resting, cause tired already. Went lots of places today. In the afternoon went White Sands 1st to study for awhile den went to bugis to do something. Den after that went to Orchard to meet someone to collect my things, den went back to simei to pass friend something. den went to cc to find kelvin and study together.

But on my way there something happened la. Was late and then i took e wrong bus lor. was studying at e bus stop den thought i saw was bus no 9 and in e end i took bus 38. Lol. Blur me. Den we went reading room to study together. But we did something la, den i was laughing throughout, but i manage to finish 2 topics. Omg, realise something, the pple using the reading room actually treat them as their own hse already. Leaving their property there. same as kelvin ong. think is their 2nd hse to them ba.

After that took bus 34 to airport. think tHis is my 1st time studying overnight. cause last time i wanted to study but someone dun let me. reach here like gOing 11pm and so many pple still, until now is like still got alot of pple, this pple like dun need to slp like tat de. maybe later like 4 plus going explore the airport. see whether gt aeroplane anot. at least not so quiet cause there is still pple in the airport.

Study week is ending. dunno y i seem to get very very worried for my exam. it took me a very hard way to get where i am now. What i ask for was just a pass, no other expectations. Cause i know how well i can perform, how well is my studies.

blog some pictures tml ba. going to rest awhile 1st b4 going back to study. my 2 weeks of exam war is coming, hopefully during this period of time, nothing made mi upset cause it might just affect my mood, so pple must make mi happy.

Justin is talking to me now, well can see tat he is worried for his N lvl ba. that is wad i did last time too. Just wanna wish him gd luck for his N lvl. You definetly can do it de. On top of this i also just realise that i began to get closer to pple which i don't, pple like justin, iskadar, surani, hyder. So happy, Iskadar is going to help me in the skating, will laugh like mad person.

Joanna keep emphaising me on something, i understand wad she meant too, she tHink tat i am overloaded now. Sometime i will try to explain to her, i dun like to see something which is left there for like so long and den when the date come nearer everyone panick. i told her wadever i can help i try to do, but of course if there is something which i dunno wad to do i will seek for help too. Ya, she is asking me to pull some pple in, but if they dun wish too, i cant force them too. I have learnt a lesson, i wont force pple things which they don't like, the more upset i will get, i might as well do it myself. She cant wait to change committee but i dunno wad she want too, she is telling mi that she want pple to vote and she told me that she is going to have e bgm at march, tat fast. thank joanna for understanding me.

Alezec also told mi about judith, she is still nt very happy wif us, someone 1 more thing happened. Like wad someone say, we cant afford to loose her too for our future SD project. so no choice, will try to hold on to this coming project even though no one is able to do it. knowing that alezec is also very worried for this project, mi too. He will be leaving for NS soon, and he cant find someone who can really help him in SD side. he told mi tat judith ask me to replace him, but i got a post in yec already. i will help him maybe with the help of some other pple, hopefully.

yes, pple ask how many yec member we have, we got alot. but where are the pple, joanna did ask mi to call ee sheer back but i going to let someone do this, cause tat person closer to her. den asking me whether can call esther, oh, is a long time since i last saw her too and many other more.

it seems like all my emotional abt yec is out, i will feel sad when something happened in yec and supernova, although my stay in yec is lesser den supernova but i do get sad sometime, cause this is me. well update maybe later in the night wif some pics. back to studying.

Friday, August 15, 2008

5th day of study week

Omg, left 2 more days to end of study week and that is fast and really very fast. went airport today and study with leanna, cause she say her hse very noisy today so accompany her since i wan to study too.

study until 4 plus, den meet alezec at tampines mall cause wanna go there get something also. den went his hse cause he 4got to take something den went to cc together. before tat was talking to joanna on lots of things, but something have to do private.

actually nothing much to say, people give me 14 more days den i will help you all. for now even though is my exam i still have lots of things to do. just realise that tHis coming holiday is then my holiday, next yr after sem exam den have to go for attachment, after which sch reopen which means no holiday for me. saded.

wad am i thinking? my mind is in a mess now? I am sick now, feeling very giddy, vommitted just now, having flu too. lots of things i wan to say out, but nt everybody can actually know wad i wan to say, only a few, tat y i am still keeping it to myself.

Anyboday can help me solve this riddle:

tHis tHing that everyone will need it.
when i want it, i dun need it.
when i need it , i may not want it

Thursday, August 14, 2008

4th day of study week

Time flies, my 1 week study week soon gone. But during this study week, i only can study few module. Went to work yesterday, b4 tat had gems test in the afternoon. Omg, feeling so cold even during the hot weather. and e whole night keep coughing, i am really falling sick, but tat doesnt mean that i dun need to study, i will still study.

The only module that i can study this week is PI, OSRM and maybe Material Science. Corrosion and BIA is those very theory de and i will 4get easily. Going to form FYP grp but who to find? going to try study OSRM and Material Science.

oh ya, this sat and sun there is a outing with the Japan leo, omg, Japan. This sat they going to sentosa then sun doing community service work. i might be going but not going to stay for so long.

Camp Photos:

Installation & Inductions photo:

Wednesday, August 13, 2008

N.E.X.T Challenge De-brief

Basically nothing much actually happened but feeling quite tired now. Working was fun, had lots of chatting, we can just talk anything. But today the civil defence pple actually came in, and they so call failed on our renovation part due to some oven over there too dangerous. So ya, if really failed that have to renovate abit more. And vitenam is going to have new outlet, and most likely they coming to our store for training. and alot of us thought of going there to work too.

after work meet alezec and kelvin at mrt station, den we went to kovan cc together. guess i had a fruitful journey there. oh ya, my email keep flodding, will nv stop. In the mrt station i actually lend kelvin labtop to check my email, a few email. and now i reach home, more email.

Had pizza for dinner, did not eat much, appetite not very good, as usual, shu fen laugh until like nobody business. but had a good de-breif today, lots of things to laugh about too. Wan to know what is the joke about? Ask me. Received call from joanna and we chat for awhile on the GRC Stuff. After talking to joanna have to pass down the message to hyder.

Hyder send all of us home. and the journey down to tampines, i actually tell him wad is the situation now for grc youth day. and really thank iskandar for helping in the design. den the journey from tampines to bedok, the 3 of us actually talk on some other things, and really thank hyder for telling mi wad to do 1st. the 3 of us agreed, suddenly project coming one after another, nv a ending. Told hyder too, i am also very tired, and tat is y i am going to have a very good rest after the grc youth day. As for the supernova camp, will help to oversee, that is all i can do and maybe help them abit if they need help.

Tuesday, August 12, 2008

Study Week

Its the start of my study week, which means exam is getting nearer and nearer. Went sch for extra lesson yesterday, is like normal lesson. Then after tat rush all e way down tampines to meet min min. Thank benny (think should be the correct spelling) for helping me to type out the letter. shall not elaborate the thing further.

Could not sleep yesterday night, keep turning left and right. Only felt asleep at 3am, where i went to bed 1 plus. During the time where i cant slp, i actually think back of those happy things.

And i am going out soon, going bugis to study 1st b4 working. Sorry, cause of working i cant study with you all today, shall study wif u guys this thurs. After work going to meet the rest and go paya lebar kovan together. Got N.E.X.T challenge de-brief in the evening. will see shu fen laughter again. Anyway thank hyder, he actually wan to give me a ride there and ask mi to meet him at PA HQ after work.

Although i know that how hard i study but i still get the same result. despite knowing that i am slow in learning. I shall have the determination to study, i am happy as long as i pass. I wont ask for anything more. Got to study hard for the remaining 6 module which includes gems.

Monday, August 11, 2008

Tired

Woke up early in the morning to study abit. den went to work in the afternoon. Work today was not too bad, had alot of fun playing and slacking all the way. lol.. all of us haven even reach the age 20. So we actually ask pple buy more den lesser cookie to keep and also dun need to weight so much cookie.

Den daphe is back to her topic again. Which is guys? hope she can get back wif andrew. omg, when i actually talk to her i actually feeling quite sad too la. i can tell her so much things but i myself cant accept it. she actually told me wad she planned for andrew.. omg, she is spending so much $ on him.

oh, daphne scared me with a small cockroach today. Continue tml, who body damm weak now.

Saturday, August 09, 2008

Happy Birthday Singapore!

Today is the only day after so long that i am resting my mind, but cannot rest too much, need to study abit too. Stay at home the whole day cause was too tired, although i told yt tat i wan to go study today.

Change my blogskins to Mickey Mouse, one of my favourite. Added in 3 songs too, my favourite song after watching the show. I think almost all the show tat i have watched actually made me cry. to be the truth i am still feeling quite weak.

Actually got lots of things to do and settle but guess wad i cant do anything yet when they haven send mi all e neccessary things. I have yet to read alezec proposal, going to read later and give him my comment. But i will start helping him when my exam end and tat is when he going NS already.

But this year National Day parade wasnt nice one, find it quite boring. and now i agrees with some of my friends who went for the preview. Alot pple ask me why i only take part in Chingay but not NDP. I told them NDP must have more committment than Chingay. But i will participate one of the year. Next year or the following year? I have already participate in 2 years Chingay, will i be participating again this coming year?

was damm angry of 1 particular things.

20 more days to go.....

Happy Day

Wow, is the eve of National Day today, do i feel that tml is National Day, actually nope. Such a nice date today 08.08.08 but have to spend the whole day studying cause gt environmental studies exam.

After PI lesson went to airport alone to study. I hate studying theory dunno y, i study and yet, i cant remember even 50% of it. So went for exam and guess wad, my head is so heavy no confident doing the paper. how? will i pass overall?

Seriously dunno wad happened to me this few days. i cant walk properly to MRT station, when in e MRT station, there re so many pple, feel like vomitting. Was suppose to get down at tampines but could not make it, alight at Simei and i vommitted but still i went to cc for meeting. Some of them ask mi wad happened dunno y i am feeling so weak nowadays.

my head is like sinking, so heavy tat i cant stand properly. But know y am i so happy, cant say it out here lei. who wan to know can ask me. Although i may be unhappy for some reason. But something actually make me happy and put aside all the side stuff. Cause i have been waiting for this day very long already. Thank.

will try to take a break tml b4 i actually chiong my remaining module. 1 down, 6 more to go. Sometime they treat mi gd, sometime use me, i really dunno re they consider as my real friends. Had some discussion just now, but secret, is between the few of us.

Friday, August 08, 2008

Busy Month

Altough i have lots of things to do but do you know y am i blogging cause i really wan to take a rest. Have been asking lots of pple wad should i drink to actually keep me awake.

Wednesday

Went sch for gems tutorial, after tat went to help out for poly 50 (SPSD), leanna went wif mi too cause she dun feel like going home. well, went to help out and manage to talk to some pple which i haven meet and see them for quite a long time. Help out in 1 of e stations for awhile cause i have to go to work. this is e 2nd yr i am helping out. if nt cause i cannot run too long i would have join. Maybe i can try one of e year. SPSD alumi actually came back and 2 teams somemore. Poly 50 is one of our SP grand event where it involve everyone.

Thursday

Had OSRM quiz, when to tampines mall mac like 8am in e morning, study and den went to sch. Drank a new drink call 'red bull' which lay ting ask mi to drink, glad tat it keep mi awake for e whole day. no confident for today quiz although i really study very hard but still i 4got. what happened to me? after tat went home to actually print out some info for e GRC youth day meeting. went to find lay ting at cheers, cause she is working at e cheers beside tampines central cc, went to meeting lik 9pm cause i really need some rest but sharon was there.

After today meeting lots of things to actually settle by this month, y they didnt want to tell us earlier, this month is like my exam month. Someone told me to put all this aside 1st but how can i. Rezal is so busy with his sseayp. Hyder and surani is busy wif their wedding preparation, didnt wan to see them quarrel, they will be a loving couple. Justin, busy with his O lvl stuff. So left me and sharon. Si jie will be busy too.

After meeting, si jie actually call me and we talk until i reach bedok inter. that is long. Guess wad tml is my major exam, and i am going to chiong, luckily is at 5pm.

Dunno wad happened to me, get very giddy this few days. took mrt home, suddenly really feel like fainting when i actually wan to walk to e end of the platform, everything was so blur so i actually stop den after awhile try to walk again but i still feel so giddy. even i walk home i really feel like fainting but i try to hang on there.

Cause of all this stress i have been doing things which i dun do. Suddenly when i felt so tired studying i will walk to some quiet place, sit down and sleep for awhile, den when i am tired i will start to walk around to see something which i like.

ying hui, 21 more days to go, hang on there. dun faint at during this period. if you want to faint, faint after 21 days.

How i wish someone is there to help me, to encourage me, to support me and someone to brighten my days.

Tuesday, August 05, 2008

Still Energentic

Sunday

Went to cc mac to study like 8am in e morning den went to kheng chiu after that for the national day celebration which silver connect pple call me for help. opps, i am the youngest over there. Felt so weird. then they keep calling me angel, they say rarely see so young pple do so many community work, i just like doing this from young. But they are veri nice pple, then gt 1 person bring e son there, so i play wif e son too. yes, i like children too. so called that i am scared of madam pang, cause sometime she like very fierce like that, but she is nice person too. She keep asking me to eat and must eat more and somemore pour drinks for me. She really like my mother taking care of me. Everything go on smoothly and end early too.

Really had a nice chat with e silver connect pple. 1 of them which i am closer wif actually told mi that she wan to introduce her friend son to me but i rejected. they even ask me to join with them and learn dancing. after that went to work.

Monday

Had PI and BIA quiz. 50 qns of MCQ actually give me headache, hate doing so many mcq. Actually nothing much happened, just feeling that i am getting more and more tired as e days go by. After sch went to bugis to study cause gt to pass my working friends something. Had a chat wif them b4 i went home. Really cannot take it tat i fall asleep infront of the computer.

Tuesday

Guess today is the most happiest day. stay back for OSRM extra lesson cause tml got to help out in poly 50 so couldnt stay back tml. whenever i study OSRM it makes mi headache and i hate it. After sch meet steven and yes is like finally. It have been like dunno how many months since we actually go out together. Accompany him go and see his car things, his favourite. Use to it already. he can buy anything for his car, his car is like his new wife. After that went to tampines mall, he brought a red shirt cause he need it after tat had dinner. Den he send mi to airport cause i wanna study den he went to fetch his sis who is feeling unwell. Although i mention some sad things, but i admit tat i am happy today

know y am i not tired cause i actually try drinking coffee see whether can keep mi awake. it tast awful and bitter. but after i drank i am so called quite awake now. i am counting down now, 24 day to go

August

7 August - OSRM quiz + GRC Youth Day meeting
8 August - Environmental studies exam + SuperNova meeting
10 August - Working
12 August - Studying at National library + working
13 August - GEMS test + working
14 August - Studying at National library
19 August - BIA test
20 August - working
22 August - PI test
25 August - Material Science test
27 August - OSRM test
29 August - Corrosion Science test + Post National Day Rally
30 August - RSAF outing

Sunday, August 03, 2008

Nothing makes my day happy

Had yec meeting yesterday, only 11 person turn up and after listening to some thing i am totally disappointed. rezal actually ask mi to sseayp thing when i graduate. i actually told him that i will reconsider. we only mention abt the chingrai trip, actually some of us re interested, but wont mention who is e person. we might be planning together with the help of rezal, i find that this is a gd opportunity, i only went once to chiangmai to help out too. I actually told someone this although he/she is younger but he/she is so much mature by e others.

Was quite sad or totally sad today. Wake up early in e morning and left hse early, went to airport to study, study from t3 to t1, after which kelvin came to find mi, den after awhile we left, went walk walk awhile and met ying chee, so chatted wif her awhile den later on chatted wif andrew abt leo club things. den they went off to movie den we went for the national day thing too. we actually walk around. den i actually ask my auntie along too. but so sorry, did not know that they so late den start, so actually they did not eat and e whole place is making mi so headache cause too many pple. meet ken and ken was funny at times.

while walking can see lots of angry pple but mostly is those auntie or the old pple. ya, i understand, some old pple cannot stand long and also sorry for those misunderstanding that no one actually help. there was 1 guy think he is from CSC cause he is wearing the shirt. He actually wanted to take his goodie bag, but everyone told him to go here and there until he was so frustrated to walk. den he actually ask mi where to collect the goodie bag, i told him at e front, from his angry face, i actually went forward to help him take, at least he is ok.

Den after awhile i came across a old guy his ticket is yellow, he actually approach to some of the helper who is wearing e t-shirt where is e food, but no one actually wanted to help him and ask him go and find. so i actually took e effort and bring him there although i am not any helpers or wad. at this point was already so angry no one actually wanted to help.

After awhile, there is actually one old auntie who do not know that they have to follow e ticket colour to queue for their food, so she actually queue wrongly. but in e end she is nt given a food, i am really very angry at tat moment, so i actually bring her 2 e correct place and help her.

So, actually i went round to see if any old pple need my help. sometime i dunno y they do this, eventually they will get old, if i were to treat them like this next time, do they like it? yes, i am a person who is emotionally, so seeing no one helping them i actually did cried. at e same time was so angry, i know there re lots and lots of pple around, i cant possible help every single person, wad i can do is to try my best.

But something happened later on, dun wish to say. knowing is my fault for some reason, i actually say sorry to someone for e absence of someone. had almost a 1hr chat wif alezec, something is nt very gd to actually post it here. Whatever is it, e both of us know what is going on and hopefully know wad we going to do. I told him earlier what i see now and what i see b4.

Friday, August 01, 2008

N.E.X.T Challenge pictures

Yesterday went sch for OSRM lesson, after this lesson, my head was so pain, it is so difficult to absorb in all the reaction, mechansim etc. After lesson went to airport to study awhile, after which went to cc to meet hyder to tidy up the receipt den we went over to tampines north to pass to them and fax 1 copy to shu fen.

Dunno what happened to me, i am getting more and more tired, both physically and mentally tired. Slept quite late yesterday, was studying and doing some stuff. still have abit of OSRM report to go, finishing by this week, hope to finish up all my data sheet by this week, after that going to do revision for exam already.

But next week got BIA, OSRM, PI quiz to go and environmental studies exam. study study study.

went sch for PI lesson, woke up late. Had presentation just now, finally is over. anyway here re some of the next challenge photos, will put up I&I photo some other day.

Before N.E.X.T Challenge