2nd paper down
Had my LM paper on the Friday and is another evening paper. After that went queenway to help wei lang to change his shirt den went back home.
I once told rezal that due to my exam I don't wish to help out in any of the events. So, he ask me why am I helping out for Chingay, my reply to him was if I don't help who is helping. Maybe I still find myself quite stupid maybe I was soft hearted. People give the reason of having exam and they don't need to come but I gave the same reason also but I was there. There is about 30 YEC member now, everything I msg them when I need their help badly, half of them will reply that they couldn't make it and the rest don't even bother to reply. Sometime I feel tired inside too. At the same time I felt more love from other committee. It seems like other committee are giving me more warmth and love but in YEC they give me more stress and work.
But still the same wanted to thank those few who really help me out when I ask them too. Although I was only helping out in Chingay but I felt unhappy, actually I did raise up my voice on belinda on that moment. I think I was with them for very long so I know the elderly better. There are also many volunteer helping out in the event also and I know I am a volunteer too. That is why they don't listen to me at all, really so angry that I really scolded them.
Sometime I really felt all the volunteer are so horrible, some kueh was meant to give to the elderly for them to bring home and I ask one of my side volunteer to take a look, she is new. Once of the RC member actually told my helper that she need to bring back and she take over. When I was back there, I was so angry about it, I know I can't blame her cause she is new. But I really can't believe that even a RC member did that too.
Sometime I really wish I can cut up myself into many parts so that I can be there in all areas. I really felt tiring in doing all this things.
Anyway got 2 buck up for my remaining 2 more papers. JIAYOU Ying Hui.
CNY 2010 @ Mr Mah House
I love this alot, look at the clear blue colour water. Just wish I could jump down.
Taken with Shi Chang (So nice to put our leg in the swimming pool)
Taken with favien our new YEC Member
Taken in the bus on the way back to CC.
Taken in the bus on the way back to CC.
Taken in the bus on the way back to CC.
1 Module down, 3 more to go
1st module was ICP and I think I sort of screw up the paper, dun think I can do very well but should be able to pass. CS Lim is here to kill us, the qns was not really very easy and 2hr was not enough to complete the paper, do not have any spare time to think at all.
Went swimming with yt and lt and we had so much fun chatting in the pool and took some pics. I want to go swimming again, maybe this saturday morning before supernova meeting.
Study in the afternoon, after that went Lt house to help her do something, den in the end we had to go down to the singtel shop to do it. Pass her a book to read just now also, my message I want to pass to her was, no mattar how many problems she is facing now, I believe that It can be solved, I am not asking her to join the religion yet. I will be there to help you to solve whenever I can if not I won't be doing so much things even though I am having my exam.
Suddenly, I was so relax studying LM all thank to teacher tips. Hopefully I can do well tml, cause I want to score at least a B if not a B+. Tml paper is 4pm again, sure hungry after exam de.
Had alot of bad dream this few nights, after someone told me something about another person.
Going back to do revision now.
I really regret everything that I have done today
Wasn't at home from morning until now, just came back not long ago. In the morning, went to Mr Mah house for CNY but before that went to mac to study 1st. After that took the bus to Mr Mah house. There was lots of problem for the transport thing so we have to quickly solve it, luckily it was somehow solve by abit. After that went back to cc to study 1st before the CNY dinner. But could not absorb much too, as in between start to discussing YEC things, SuperNova things etc.
before the dinner start went down to kheng chiu to bring the elderly over, luckily i really got all the guys help, really appreciate it. During the dinner, couldn't just settle down to have dinner, 1 reason is to help the elderly with the food, e other reason was I was feeling very weird in my heart. After dinner, actually waited for the bus to come but I was totally not in the mood already, so is also my 1st time that I did not follow them back. I am so sorry.
After that went to take bus home, but my heart was feeling even weird, so i took a cab home and really something happened at home. I really regret for all the things that I have done. I am simply not a gd daughter, gd sister, gd grandaughter etc. I really failed. Can someone just tell me what to do. Why is there always something happening during the period where is my exam period.
Someone today is my bad day, shouldn't do something, shouldn't see something etc.
Upset
Something keep bothering me and the thing which bother me is my brother. My brother is already sec 3 already, but he behavior is getting worse, until now I still don't know how to teach him. He talk to his friend yesterday until almost 1am, ask him to put down the phone, he scolded me, push me. the worse thing is he ask me not to stay in this house, he is chasing me away. I was so hurt when I heard this and I couldn't sleep cause I was crying.
Today after school stay back with some of my classmates to study ICP, after that went to Suntec city den to 313 Somerset. Don't really want to go home, so went out walk walk so that I won't feel upset when I am at home.
Anyway i should put all this things aside and really concentrate the few more days for my exam. 1 module is down, 4 more to go.
Happy Chinese New Year & Valentine Day
Every year new year was just simple for me, we are able to do house visiting quite fast. Is the 1st year we went out to eat for reunion dinner. The restaurant was nice but it is quite expensive. On the 1st day, I just have to stay at home 1st, cause all my auntie and uncle coming to our house 1st, cause my grandma is here. After that went to my grandma brother house den to my auntie house. So we started to play card but I wasn't playing every year. In the end my cousin, terry wanted to play so I just sat there and help him. All the way he was winning except one of it he loose, after that he angry don't want to play le. So I went to ask him, he say it is unfair, den he say he want to earn $1000 so he can fill up his piggy bank. He is only primary 1 this year and yet he is saying all this, he is quite smart.
In the late afternoon, we went 313 somerset to walk walk den send my sister to work 1st den we head towards T3 for our dinner, there was so much people there so we queue for about 30min before we can eat.
2nd day went to my grandma sister house den head to my mum place for steamboat lunch. After that went to my auntie house and we play wii game. we could play happily cause terry was not around he went Malaysia with his dad. After playing we went to sepang bedok for our dinner.
today stay at home until in the afternoon I went to my uncle house. After that came back to study.
So tiring, everywhere I go I brought my notes along. There is a test this coming thurs and really got to study very hard, it is 50% of the whole paper. In 16 days time, i won't be going to school already. Which mean, during this 16 days I will be very very busy studying for exam. Is the last time that I am taking the exam and I must pass all the module.
Let me recap what have i done for the last 1 week.
Last Saturday spent my whole day in the CC, study in the morning all the way to evening, den pack YEC storeroom, cause they need to paint the room. Had so much fun packing the storeroom, we ask rezal to take a number of item so that he can bring back to his school, also lesser our YEC things. We managed to finish packing in one day and with the help from kelvin ong, rezal, desmond and jinguang. Thanks for coming down.
Last Sunday went for my district Leader basic training from 12.30-6pm. It is a super long hour, but I managed to stay awake throughout the whole training and know new friends too. After that meet suat hoon at tea dot to study until 10pm.
Monday, went to school just for ICP test after that went to work. On tuesday, full day of lecture and went home to study for PCCC test. Wednesday, lesson as usual, after that went to work and is also my last day work at bugis, kind of miss there. I have been working there since the shop open which is like 642 days. Thursday, lesson as usual, wear formal to school cause got interview is part of our module. Overall was not too bad. After school stay back and study with Janet for the next day AOC test. study until 5.30 den went to meet my SPSD friends.
We had a farewell party for Willam and party for our newly appointed CIC and IIC. It is a potluck dinner and we were all so full, so much food to eat. Had alot of fun chatting with them, and we played like 3 games before we go home. Not to 4get we also lao yu sheng and is the first time I am doing this with my SPSD friends.
Friday, just went back for AOC test, although I have study but I still failed. so sad. After that had a celebration for cheng wai whose b'day is today. It was suppose to be a surprise, we drag and drag in school before heading to cathay to eat anstons. Cause janet went home 1st and went to collect the cake. So poor thing of me, all the guys bully me cause I am the only gal at that time. Anyway this grp of my poly friends has bring me lots of joy and laughter that I will never forget them. After that headed home cause was feeling tired although i was supposed to do something.
Actually was feeling quite stressed up that I dun have the mood for chinese new year. Have been crying when I was studying, so stressed with the module that I am studying. All I ask for is I am able to pass all my module and graduate.
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE!
My Fellow Singapore Poly Student Division (SPSD)
I really had a wonderful time on the 30th and 31st Jan. At first I was so scared about the exam scared i couldn't write anything down. But what I realise that the exam wasn't a main thing, I was glad that I am able to spend with my SPSD for 2D1N. Throughout this kenshu kai I have also learn alot of thing from anyone who has went to this Kenshu kai. They has brought alot of laughter and I will miss them cause will be my last month in SD already. I had also reflected myself, why did I only spend my time in SD in Year 3. Where am I in Year 1 and year 2? Was so regretted that I did not join them for the 1st 2 year. But everything is isn't too late. At least I have woken up in Year 3.
Thanks so much SPSD!
Monday & Tuesday, went to school as usual and after school went to work. Wednesday, school end early and after that went Orchard shopping with Janet. Finally brought some New Year clothing. Was quite surprise that Forever 21 shirt isn't expensive. After that went cc to study with jg. In the reading room met 2 stupid guy who doesn't listen to us. Almost all the staff went up to scold them but they don't listen. After that went to east point to check whether they got the straw we want cause we want to break record, but couldn't find the one. Then we went for our dinner and at the same time also brainstorm for more ideas. Yesterday sch ended early and had LM test too. But I was so careless that I use the wrong formula for 1 of the question, so angry. After that went to TM to meet lay ting, have lunch together and have a very good talk with her. Then went to cc to study, b4 that join jg and chris for dinner 1st while he went to play bb and I went back to study.
Got to spend lots and lots of time studying. 1 more month to go. Have been so tired that my tears keep dripping.
Going to meet xue yun later to do new year card for my YWD members, chant at TBSC, meet wan qing and go hort park to recee for PLE outing, going for dinner den to HQ ICA for Ikeda Kayo-Kai Meeting. After that got to rush back for YEC meeting. A very pack pack day for me.
Back from SD Kenshu Kai 2010
On the 30th-31st Jan is our SD Kenshu Kai 2010. Meet chu zen 11.20am at senja after that we proceed to senja soka centre. We practice for our 80sec frame performance. After that we went to register and get our new SD t-shirt. In awhile later, we got to prepare for our exam. Although the exam is open book I can't finish the question and I dunno how to do. From here actually i can see where I stand, I really got to study more. After the exam all the programmed start. On the 1st day is really very tiring, is all the lecture. Can't believe that we had our lecture until 12 midnight.
I did sign up for the Personal Guidance to talk one to one to any of our SD chief, but due to the late timing, they will visit me in 2 weeks time. I got alot of things to say and I know that they will be the one that will listen to me, the one who will tell me to do and give me encouragement.
We sleep at 2 plus and I woke up at 4am cause the air-con was too cold that i can't sleep. And all of us were suppose to wake up at 5.45am. So I just stay awake throughout. we did our morning gongyo at 6 plus and can see that alot people is feeling tired including me wanted to fall asleep.
We at our morning activities outside cause at 8am there is morning gonygo open to everyone. We had breakfast, morning exercise and games at the field. We had so much laughter playing the games. After that we went back to soka centre for our last part of our program. We had encouragement from our ex SD chief and our youth chief.
All of us went to have lunch after that at bukit panjang plaza, then took MRT back with nicholas, victoria and wei wen since all of us stay in the East side.
Reach home put down my bag, check my things awhile 1st then went to cc to study with jg.
I studied while he do his CSC account, I fell asleep while studying. I think he see me very tired, so he ask me to go home and rest while he accompany belinda. Cause there was a event that end late yesterday and left belinda in the office only.
