[Y]ing [H]ui

Alot people might think today is a special day cause is a four years once, actually i am looking forward to this day but i am short of something. actually i did not really care abt this special day, but ying ying say she wanna watch e "leap years", although not really in e mood to watch but i still watch wif them, dun really wan to disappoint her.

i think e song is my blog best describe my feeling now. have been listening to it over and over again. maybe 100 times a day or more den that. And my father actually took my hard earned $, such a father i have. Which means next time my wallet can onli put $5 tat is y got no $ to see doc. keep thinking where my $ had gone too, den i realise tat he is at home yesterday.

So, today meeting is cancelled, mi, ying ying, tiffany, kelvin, desmond, kevin and hayden went for e movie together.. Not alot pple ba..but i still enjoyed my days today i think it will be happier if i am not short of that something.. feeling veri weird when watching movie without the something. actually e show was nice, it was touching to mi too.. they say that when a gal proposed to a guy on the 29 feb, the guy would agree. does it apply to all? i don't think it will apply back to me, if i say. maybe is just a mattar of time for mi ba..was quite sad when watching e show cause of some reasons ba.. anyway got to thank them for giving mi some happy time.

As usual, went to alezec shop to find him, it did remind mi of something, but i have to try to forget it. den went to have dinner, did not eat there cause quite expensive, so decide to go to my hse downstairs coffee shop to eat. Ying ying accompany mi home and accompany me eat dinner. thankx alot ying ying.. on e way home chatted happily wif her, at least i got someone to lend mi a listening ear and talk to mi.

dunno really whether am i awake or whether i am asleep.. coming came into mind, i think i rather choose a simple life, is actually quite sad when u set your goals but it did not come true, when your dream does not come true.. So i think it is best that i do not have a goal or a dream, so i wont be so upset. Like some of them ask mi whether am i helping or whether am i going, i just take it as i know all those things but actually i didnt know maybe if i go and help onli will bring him more burden so i think is best tat i dun do anything. was quite sad that so fast everything will come to a full stop. i really need pple who can lend mi their listening ears can keep mi accompany..

posted by [Y][I][N][G] [H][U][I] @ 11:38 PM

Started working, have been working for 1 week alreadi, everything was ok, having fun working there.. the people there were nice.. having headache and sleepless night this whole week, ate panandol but no use.. So i think panandol is useless to me..

There is something i yet to come with my decision.. i still haven think of wad i wan to b for e supernova camp.. did talk to ying ying in e msn too.. i jux dunno y, i am a person who think and get sad alot.. No life? have fun talking to ying ying..

Ying ying say she wanted to escort me to work and she is giving mi suprises.. Luckily she did not come alone or else i think she will really lost her way.. she thought i work in causeway point but instead i was working in compass point.. was actually feeling quite down but thank to all their laughter and their accompany.. while waiting for mi to knock off, they went to do something which mostly small kid do one.. but even pple like us can do too, onli not much.. they did batman, donald duck and hello kitty.. so if i were to do, i think i will choose either minnie mouse, mickey mouse or winnie e pooh.. if i got e time, i still prefer to see pple doing it den i doing it myself.. thank for coming.. thank ying ying for the e-card, thankx for your encouragement.

yesterday afternoon lao gong came my hse 1st, den was helping my auntie on something 1st.. den went to visit my another auntie who is still in hospital, after tat den we went out together.. thankx lao gong for helping wif my auntie problem, at least i am not so worried now..

If i think i win, i will win.. but if i think i lose, i will lose.. there is something which i win, but from my feeling i am not winning at all, i think i have lose in someways which i dunno wad it is too.. $ keep appearing in mind..

have been doing supernova port foilo this few days, think he is veri busy to do ba.. so i shall help him to do, if not next time more headache..

posted by [Y][I][N][G] [H][U][I] @ 9:33 AM

Suddenly i feel that i have lots to say.. feeling like saying out.. but i dunno where to start 1st.. there is a few things which i am sad abt recently..

Somehow, i feel tat i am veri useless.. i am very thankful that i have friends who help mi when i am in a mad mood, when i have trouble etc. They may give mi a veri long lecture, may nag at me but i will still listen to them cause i am so happy to have friends like them. Sometime, i may take their words, sometime i might ignore wad they have say but i appreciate everything that have been done. Like wad i talk to ying ying today, we were staring e computer yesterday, staring and staring at it.. but i jux dunno how to start it..you have been a great help, listening to all my problems, listening to all e negative things i have said.. I wan to repay back, how can i help u?? Why is it so difficult to comfort a person. so i think they also have difficulty talking to me..

i have a friend who i know e longest in SuperNova, i think he must be tired of talking to me for 3 yrs le.. sometime i may still think of e negative things or keep thinking.. but i feel that i really cannot jux put down everything and pretend that i don't know anything. i am a person who have feeling and i am a person who can get sad easily, yes, a person who can cry easily too.. when i have problem, i don't know whether to let u know or tell u.. i know wad u wan to say but sometime i just find veri difficult to put down everything and everything..

Recently my uncle side having problem, i dunno how to really help them.. my knowledge is veri low.. thank to lao gong for helping mi to talk to e HDB pple etc, without him i think i really dunno wad to do le.. y is everyone of my family suffering, everyone of us is not having a gd life...all my auntie and uncles are all having problem even mi myself.. Why? i know, you all will ask mi not to think of negative things, i have been trying hard not to think.. i wan to help them, i dun wan them to be homeless but how can i help? i might be homeless too 1 day..

while i am typing this, a phone call made mi felt sad, my auntie is in hospital, was saying abt not having a gd life, and another news hurt mi even more.. my auntie is jux like my own mother i treat her like my own mother.. of course i dun wan anything to happen to her.. i thought i wan to have a gd night after so many days but cause of this guess i can't slp once again.

Why everything involve $, does it mean that $ is e most important one.. yes, without $ it is veri difficult to survive.. y must all e sad thing come at 1 time..

i am not feeling veri well too.. my leg isnt tat gd, run abit will fall down, walk also can walk too long le.. my whole body is so heaty, drinks lots of water cant help, have been going out drinking lots of different kind of water, see which one will help mi bring down my heat in my body.. After drinking so many kind, nothing help mi yet..

i jux find it veri difficult to really continue anymore.. but i am really veri sorry that i cannot help you.. i dun know how too.. i dunno whether you re really sick or you re sad? thanks to all my friends and lao gong for supporting mi that is y i am still alive now..

posted by [Y][I][N][G] [H][U][I] @ 10:45 PM

Tue:

Went out with my SuperNova friends to buy bernice b'day present. Yeah! Hello kitty things are not that cheap, imagine a shirt cost $100 plus. After which we went to TM to watch Ah Long Pte Ltd. Then went with ying ying and cassandra to buy something. The show was funny. After the show went to have dinner together after went to NTUC to buy something and back home.

Wed:

Shall not say much, but i had a fun and enjoyable day on that day.. play until 4get all about the time.

Thurs:

Its Valentine Day, woke up early in e morning and went with some of my SuperNova friends to help gao yang buy flowers tat he wanted to give to a gals. yeah, after that went to cc to discuss about our SuperNova camp etc. After that went to Orchard with lao gong.

Fri and Sat:

busier day for me. Had my Chingay preview on Fri and the actual on Sat. reach TBSC around 12pm for our make up and chanting and left TBSC around 4plus and head towards City Hall. Had our dinner there and chatted b4 the preview start. Omg, the Preview was a worse day for me, was having a veri bad headache cause of the delay and e Japanese Assoication Singapore song on so loud. Not only mi, many of us have headache too.. they keep playing e song non-stop and we have been hearing e song for 2hrs...omg.. e preview rating was bad, cause of PA fault is some ways and e OBS float. after tat went back early cause have to reach TBSC early e following day.. alot of us could not reach in time, brought lunch for some of my Chingay friends. den went for make up and chanting den had lunch wif some of my friends.

Thankx Mr Koh for coming to support me, do not have alot of time to actually chat with him. left TBSC earlier, reach there had dinner 1st.. den all of us started to take photo, play games etc.. had lots of fun.. at least no headache for us, cause they finally stop playing e song.. yeah!! and i was thinking whether is nicholas under tat item, cause he told mi he is under japanese de. everything went on smoothly and all of us were busy giving ang bao to e pple watching there..

After tat went back home, did not went for city Jam cause of some reason. But i guess i will be too tired to really party ba.. Overall, i still like Chingay.. was ask to go for the Heartlands next sat.. look out for all e nice float around bishan and tao payoh. I love to see all the floats cause they re nice.

Sun:

woke up in e morning with my back pain, could not really wake up. lao gong came to find mi in e afternoon for awhile, and i was so tired tat i really fell asleep.. den almost late cause i have to go kheng chiu 1st.. ken being so nice, went there with mi.. den went wif ken to cc. Actually don't really feel like going for e dinner cause something happened on tat day, i drag myself there.. and having blocked nose.. nice chatting with si jie.. i agree with him, at least i have someone to lie on when i want to cry and friends who help and support mi.. i really did not regret joining SuperNova and YEC cause i got friends who care for mi.

Some Photos, will put up when i got e rest of the photo

posted by [Y][I][N][G] [H][U][I] @ 11:44 AM

It is a long time since i blog, many people ask mi blog also ask mi why i did not blog. Reason i shall not say out in case there is conflict again. why i blog again, cause i miss this blog of mine who have been with me for so long, after thinking like 2 months, i should not really abandon because of something.. But once again, i am not really going to blog as often as what i did last time. Maybe i shall say that this will be my weekly blog..

I have so called 'Learnt' my lesson, my blog will nv be a detailed one but a brief one. A detailed one will cause a alot of trouble. Maybe is just my bad luck ba, dun seem that other of my friends re having this problem. I did tell some of my closest friend why i did not blog.

I may be angry, upset for this 2 months but i realised that is not my fault after all, i just like to write my own diary, write about what i did, write about how happy or how sad i am but beside this i also dun wan to cause any trouble cause of my blog. Beside family, friends are important to me, of course i don't want to cause any trouble to my gd friend.

Sometime i really feel that some people like to read pple blog and tell the whole world, as if the whole world need to know what is my life.. Although we are friends since we are very small as small as when i am in kindergarden until sec 4s, i may tolerate your bad behaviour, the way you just take pple things home, the way u beat pple although is for fun etc. i tolerate until sec 4s, i left you cause i really cant stand you anymore and cause of this you read my blog and tell everybody that i have bf, telling my mother and in e end i get scolded. doing all this useless thing won't do you any gd. I rather you spend more time on your studies and see what you get now. Since that time on, your name is cancelled from my list. i don't mind loosing this friendship, at least i have alot of friends 100x, 1000x, better den u.

I like this website shirt, they all very nice, esp the couple t-shirt. Sometimes they are selling in our schools. Some of the shirts are hand painted de.
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posted by [Y][I][N][G] [H][U][I] @ 8:27 PM