Having sleepless night, have been thinking lots and lots of things. I can't stop crying too.
I serious I don't know what I am doing, I agreed to something which I don't have it now. I really treasure all my friends and I know this is not good for me. It means i got more things to worry, I will have more headache, I will upset even more. This friend of mine I have been helping now, i really treasure this friendship, I will not let go. We have known each other since last few months of 2005, we have gone through alot alot until now. Seriously, back then I am not what I am now, I have grown up, this growing up process is because I have many many friends supporting me. They are like my families. This friend of mine treat me very good. And I am so glad that he finally woke up, at least he decided to take a step ahead. Therefore, I would try my all means to help him. Cause I dun wan anybody to follow my footsteps.
Anyway I am also going to set my resolution and I am working towards it. For this coming months, will spend my weekends working at famous amos. If I am ok with it, maybe I will continue.
My tears are flowing, I need a hug now. Hopefully I made the correct decision.
No mattar what happened, I am determined to change my friends life. Please don't stop me from what I am doing.
Recently I have a friend met into trouble. He is my best friends, know him for about 5 years. He has never fail to concern and take care of me. I feel that it is time for me to do the same to him too. Have been thinking of solution, it really upset me when i can't think of it. I have come out with a solution but will he accept it?
I have another friend but it seems to be further and further, when can i pull him back into the circles. I think I am a very weak person, I don't wish to loose my friends. When my friends got trouble I will cry, I will upset.
Bowling
The previous weekend, there was a bowling competition and fun bowl organise by CSC. At first, did not feel like going cause was feeling so tired, since everyone ask me to go so i go lor. Meet some of them for breakfast early in the morning. Reach there, they have 3 games of fun bowl 1st, enjoy cheering them and chatting. After the fun bowl, was ask to be the emcee for the later part. Omg, is so sudden, don't know how to reject it. This is totally not YEC events.
So, went through with siti the details, chatted awhile too. Get bully by Ken and Candice. Firstly ken ask me to play with him, i take the odd he take the even round. I rejected. In the end Candice say i take the even she take the odd. I rejected too. So, i quickly ran away. Maybe next time when it is not competition den play with them.
Seriously was so angry, it seems like the yec is doing the things, emcee, giving out of prizes, lucky draw. So where is the organiser?? After that, went to soka to subscribe the CL den we went to Tampines west cc for the cat show. Omg, all of them so bad, trying to scare me with the cat. But really had a fun day with them.
Last Sat, after work went out with Janet, had a very nice day with her. Laugh alot.
Last Sun, woke up early in the morning cause was suppose to meet li qi to discuss the Kenshu. Xue yun took cab and fetch all of us to SYC. Thanks Liqi for the nice breakfast. We discuss all the way from 9am to about 1 pm, den went down to bugis to meet jg. Accompany him to the chinese temple to get something. After that we had our lunch first before we head to the cc. It was raining heavily, therefore the tchoukball competition was cancelled last min and postponed to next week. Had a really fun talk, but unfortunately someone was meeting moody.
After that we went to have some drink and had lots of fun chatting. Great chat with Belinda, jg, hyder and kevin. After that jg accompany me home. Had a good chat with him in bus and also at my house void deck. I also realise that although we have been friends for so many years there is still lots of things I don't know. I am feeling really really upset. I cired, tell me how should I help. Yesterday I really can't slp, thinking thinking and thinking of solution.
I am really very tired.
Can't wait to have a outing with Belinda and Joanna. I miss you Joanna, I am really feeling very sad that you have left cc, i scared I can't control myself.
Thanks everyone of you for the birthday wishes, I am 1 year older again.
The day before my birthday received a surprise call from desmond while having my dinner with jg. Thanks desmond for the long distance birthday wish. We chatted for almost half an hour, i think his phone bill will explode. In the end while talking jg already finished his dinner.
Did not took leave so work during my birthday. But was not totally happy, cause the admin side do it anyhow de, in the end I had to help them clear. Like what eunice say, i think the lab people can also do admin and accounts. Really had so much fun working with the lab people.
Anyway we visited the chemistry lab too, really make me think back those are the things that I have used in the past during my poly days. Yesterday roselle wasn't around so when the chemistry things came I actually help to check. By the looking at the list I already know what is it. And really miss those days in poly doing lab work. Was happy to see the chemistry is almost ready which mean very soon we can do all the things ourself already.
Yesterday work until about 9pm, to finish up the plate we need to read on Friday. Then, Sat we are going at 8am to finish up reading sat plate and also do set up. Cause the miro lab people are leaving at 1pm, den we are all going to play bowling to practice our competition in Dec during our company dinner. Lol, I don't even know how to play. We have actually 3 teams. But only the micro side secretly went to practice.
Later going for Soka meeting, den after that meeting Belinda for shopping. Jg might join us later.
I am still very tired, not fully awake.
