[Y]ing [H]ui: March 2008

Monday, March 31, 2008

Different emotions: Happy, Sad, Angry

Happy

baking day for mi today.. Cassandra and y2 came too.. yeah, someone to accompany and talk too.. bake chocolate today.. think i bake too long le, if not should be ok ba. Did i really put all my happy feeling when i am doing e cake. Nope, lesser den wad i use to bake last time. Then we got left over melted chocolate, went to buy marshmellow and dip..So nice.. chocolate, chocolate and chocolate..

After tat we went to tampines to walk walk.. oh, i think i am still in love with those nice notebook, cassandra brought 1 for her welfare things. den we went popular to buy pen. den cassandra left 1st.. den we went cs to walk walk awhile and went home too.. met ying chee too, wanted to talk to her but... nvm..

i am still feeling veri tired, my mind is tired, every part of mi is tired.

Sad and Angry

2 days have passed, yet i did not received anything. tell mi wad to do?

tears keep falling when i am alone at home in e night. Does it worth it for all those tears?

Doing so many things does it worth it?

yes, we all sad and angry at e same time. Anyway e conclusion is after all we are still not compared to her. we treat him as friends, wad do he treat us as now. Really veri disappointed. wad is e use of mi to actually an wei him, yet he treat us like... wad do u treat us now as?? tell us la.. i still remember one time when i actually talk to you, i actually say tat we re friends but you say can just dun treat mi as friends. So do you mean tat? you re actually not alone, you have us, but since u choose tat i gt nothing to say.. Boiling now.. dunno wad to do now.. Give up??

Realtionship falls apart:

- When someone you like yet that person reject you
- When you break up with someone
- When something happened that made e opposite party angry of you

Currently, i am so suay tat i falls in e 2nd and e 3rd one. oh, i think is so difficult to actually find a long lasting friends..

thinking of things which you have told mi.. and i am so stupid that i actually believe wad u say.. actually thinking back those were actually a lie from you.. nothing will actually come true. Stupid gal of mi..

Currently think too many unhappiness things i am having now.. shall go somewhere else one day when i am free to san san xin.. cry out loud.. Since crying for mi is an offence, shall go somewhere quiet where nobody knows and cry alll i wan..

How i wish there will be one medicine which will eat and 4get all my unhappiness.. and leave all e happiness left in my mind. If there is this medicine i will surely take.

Sunday, March 30, 2008

Trying to put down all e unhappy aside. No mattar wad i am going out wif pig 2 today, shall not bring my unhappy mood out.. Meet pig 2 in e Mrt, and headed off to city hall cause going to find our youngest pig at suntec convention, she is working there.. Den she ask us go take free bear too.. yeah! Went there to queue up to play e game and get our free bag. Den suddenly someone tap at my back and it was cassandra, 4got tat she is working there too..

While queueing up, many things can happen.. Just nice e auntie infront of us actually want to get all e free gift lor.. take so many things.. den later on something really really veri big happened.. the game onli qualified for pple above 15yrs old. and there is actually one family, who ask e daughter to queue up and she actually lost a few game and cannot win e bear, so she keep queueing up again. and the pple over there actually told her tat she can onli go one time and she does not want to listen. So in e end, e pple there actually very gd, let her daughter played and she actually made a fuss and shouted at e pple..omg, is damm scary.. they actually call e security and she is not even scared.

went to bugis for shopping, did not get anything that i wanted.. but we brought a cute notbook, omg.. i am in love with sticker and now notebook.. all re cheap cheap de. think i can make collection le.. after our bugis shopping we went to tampines to shop.. brought one shirt from S&K, having offer now, brought 1 shirt and pants from BHG also having offer..oh, i will onli buy cheap clothing. den after our youngest pig work end she came to find us.. yeah, had happy time today with e pig family. wanted to get a nice box to store all my things, but is quite difficult to bring it home, so didnt buy ba..

Sometime i really dunno wad to do le.. Maybe i should just leave some where far far away, and start my new life.. Leaving in this world, with unhappiness. Thought my life have really change but no. Think i should start thinking where should i go to start my new life. yes, i am leaving somewhere far far away.. Finding some world which will let mi find my own happiness.

Yes, i am veri tired. I made up my mind, i will only let some of you to read my blog onli. Can't write i wan to write. I just feel like writting, in e end i get scolded.

y2 i alreadi told you everything no use le. Not tat i don't want to do it. But you see for yourself, how am i going to do it. I am really feeling veri veri tired by this pple le.. Did my face put 'plz scold mi'. being scolded, shouted by pple always.. I am human too.. 4get it, think i should just give up everyting. I onli will get scolded for whatever things that i have done. Maybe you will see mi in IMH soon, i am really going veri mad soon.

Saturday, March 29, 2008

yes, i am still tired, finally i can slp earlier tonight. went to work as usual, den went wif my auntie to tampines, went shopping together. Since e weather is like so hot, so i am gonna to get cheap tank tops. Not those expensive one, do not have lots of $.

check with tiffany early in e morning, dun b sad k, i understand how u feel too. yeah, we planned to go kheng chiu to help out, shall call or email madam soh.. someone actually told mi tat she is so stress by everything tat she wan to go IMH, yes, i have this thinking last time too. I got so many things to do, i am really veri stress and at this point of them i wish i have less stress but my stress is increasing. you all know y??? i also told tiffany tat we re alike in one ways, which is e both of us re easily cry person. Is it gd or a bad thing?

came back and chatted with y2, omg, she actually got cheated, dun worry y2, hopefully nothing happend. Anyway who got cheated too, but share wif mi.. hahax=) yes, she is coming my hse on mon to do something.. secret, cannot say out yet until tat 1 day is over. den wed we might be going to KTV (i don't really sing alot) den tue shall go work ba..

oh ya, i actually told xin ying to join supernova, she is veri gd.. ya, she is much more clever and better den mi.. and she might be coming..

yesterday, i actually cant slp cause of 2 persons(guys) and i cried e whole night cause of e 2 persons. i am stress up by e 2 persons too. Shall not say who is e person. If you know that you re e person, can u plz tell mi wad to do.. i really dunno wad to do le. PLEASE TELL MI! hopefully, the 2 of you will just get rid of my mind and let mi have a gd rest. even now i am crying..

* just ignore everything i ritex, i just wan to put down my feelings.

i can told everything tat i wan to say to y2 and cassandra but i just cant say it to someone. y2 encourage mi to do that i have also told her y i rather keep it to myself den saying out. thankx for your help in advance 1st.

yes, keeping myself busy and busy. YING HUI, you better stop thinking all those thing, not worth it you know. That person must be so much happier den you.

Really want to thankx y2 and cassandra for being by my side when i need them e most. i am really glad to have friends like you all who is willing to listen to mi and i felt so much easier to talk to you gals..gt something for you all..

I am veri tired uploading all this pic, feel like sleeping. But until now, I still hate someone alot.. Sorry to those who i actually loose my temper on.. cause i am really veri veri angry.. I just hate tat someone. onli some of them know who is e someone.

As usual went work today, den went for meeting in e evening. Oh, i actually slept in e bus again, and nearly 4get to get down. I know i am going to get down, but tat little nap i also wan. went for Supernova meeting in e evening. Cause was suppose to meet someone for dinner, so went wif y2 and shi chang too.. yeah, share lots of things wif y2, she say i am fierce too, yeah, i am fierce, cause i am angry just cant cool down myself. thanks y2 for her listening ears and cassandra too. SN gals, left e 3 of us like tat.

After meeting went for supper, but i am not eating. yeah, was so crazy playing e bomberman in psp. At 1st was mi, y2 and michael battle.. den later on, lend desmond psp den 4 pple play.. so fun. Actually i did something, i actually take e person as someone i hate and eventually i wan to bomb him until tat someone die. Felt more happy.

Told y2, i dun care whether e person who is happy is mi anot, as long as e pple around mi re happy. Maybe this is how i am going to get on wif my life ba.

* the someone can be e same person or can be a different person
* treating someone as stranger, using sms to actually talk to each other

was so angry tat i just dun feel like writing or i dunno wad to write le.

Pig Jie Jie (does she look like 20yrs old), when promote must treat us hor

Pig which we brought for her. "oink"

the other gal is our 2nd pig

Our last pig

Thursday, March 27, 2008

Back home, tired tired tired.. yeah, as usual went to work today, think i am really too tired tat i actually fell asleep in e bus, almost 4got to get down. today uncle johnny not free to go lunch wif us, so i went with my auntie.. Lol.. we actually go all e way to compass point to eat cause my auntie want it. Den we took like 2hr to and fro plus shopping there. working time and we actually went shopping. After tat came back to work again.

oh, see something different today. i actually see lots of motorist, with e no tag on their clothing, and a word 'test'. So cool, so many motorist is actually taking their test, they re all in a straight line..

Meet e pig family at tampines, i was included in e pig family but out of e 4 of us onli 2 re really pig. Our eldest pig is turning 20 yrs old this coming 30th, so we celebrate for her earlier. meet e other of my 2 pig sis at 6pm at tampines, went this fashion i got myself one clothing, cause now 30% is e gd time to buy. So we went walk walk, thinking wad to buy for her. Mini toons got alot of veri cute things, actually gt chocolate bar pencil case, mirror, etc.. so cute, love all of them. den we actually brought him a piggy bank(pig shape), den went u put in e coin, actually got e pig 'oink' sound. So cute la..

Went pizza hut for dinner as our youngest pig wan to eat there. enjoy my day wif them cause is a long time since we actually went out together. Took some photo, will upload ba, provided i am not tired.

work tml again.. quite happy tat i am in e same class as faizah, leanna and chu zen, e rest not sure yet. i actually can fell asleep everywhere i go, in e bus standing i also can. is e 1st time tat i am feeling so tired.

later going to play viwawa wif 2nd pig.

oh ya, went compass point, so decided to drop by famous amos, and jenny is inside, so she actually ask mi go in. Guess wad she told mi? She told mi tat i am suppose to work on e 10th April, 1st day where bugis famous amos outlet open. oh, tat fast. and i am working e day b4 my sch start too..

Wednesday, March 26, 2008

CHEMICAL PROCESS TECHNOLOGY - INDUSTRIAL CHEMISTRY (2A27)

Question in my mind:

Everyday whenever i go my auntie office, i will pass by e comfort learning centre(learn car de), den everywhere got e 'L' plate on their car and 'Warm up' plate.. den some car re from comfort but some re jux e normal car.

So,

- Why some of e car from comfort and some re just e normal car when all of them are actually learning how to drive? Is it different price? or how re they different?

- Why some of e car got e 'L' plate and e 'warm up' plate? wad does warm up means? just started driving?

So,

Who can ans my qns??

Actually see them learning driving, quite fun, but think if i learn, e examiner will sure get heart attacker, cause i will just scream like stupid person. So fun seeing them going up and down e slope.

it took mi a long time to blog cause was actually chatting to my girlfriend while blogging.. yeah, some gd news to announce, i actually gt into Industrial Chem wif my GPA like shit.. lol.. is quite a surprise for mi, cause i will nv thought tat i will actually enter tat option. And so far, i know tat i am in e same class with leanna and chu zen, luckily i am not in e same class as him, e one tat we dun like.

Tired,
Tired,
Tired,
with like average of 2hrs of slp per day... all because of NIGHTMARE.. HATE YOU!

Was quite stress wif e work today, my auntie colleagues was like doing her work anyhow de, den made mi do for 2hrs den i finish tat one whole stack.. ANGRY!!!

Met someone in e evening who does not ___ ____ ___ . actually share alot of my feeling with cassandra. Sometime it is so much easier to share our feeling with pple of e same sex as us rather den e guys. Guys re jux... but not all guys, maybe 1 out of e 10 guys re e gd one ba..

thinking,
thinking,
thinking,
My gems appointment is out, and e module tat i am studying is out, e real timetable not out yet.. wad should i take for my next gems.

My Modules:

BASIC INSTRUMENTAL ANALYSIS
ENVIRONMENTAL STUDIES A
PROCESS INSTRUMENTATION
MATERIALS SCIENCE CORROSION SCIENCE
ORGANIC SYNTHESIS AND REACTION MECHANISM

back to work at my auntie office again.. well, might be going out wif yan teng in e afternoon, den dunno whether lay ting free at night anot, help her celebrate her 20th b'day.. yeah, is a long time since i going out with them. and my e other outing with my guides pple on e 12 April..

Oh ya, someone actually told mi in msn tat he will be away in Singapore and ask mi to wait for him to come back. Lol.. you guys re gd in talking all this things..

Tired, came back not long ago. As usual went my auntie there in e morning. den today we went to kovan for lunch den went heartland mall to walk walk awhile, den my aunt brought pyjamas, she want to buy for mi but i gt enough le. something must congrat all of them, out of so many yrs they received 2.5months of bonus. nice.. must be cause i go there work so they got e bonus. Left at 3.30pm.

had some fun talking too.. actually was quite bored during weekend not so many pple de.. den really feel like falling asleep.. yeah, will be getting pay this sat. heard that famous amos going to change uniform..all of us ate sushi today, cause e auntie veri nice. Always give us offer, den we will buy and share. School going to reopen in 2 weeks time. Am i waiting for e day to come?

Someone actually scolded mi most of the time that i actually made them angry. So, i really dun wish to make them angry le. But at e same time i dunno wad to do also. i have tried my best. Really dunno wad to say, cause there is something i cannot blog it here de.

*sorry, if i blog e wrong thing.

Monday, March 24, 2008

Some questions that i have been asking myself:

- Did i make a correct choice?
- Did i really did something wrong?
- Is the Sacrifice that i made worth it?

set my alarm clock at 7am but woke up at 8am instead, quickly wake up and change while waiting for my auntie to come, cause my uncle not so early going to work so fetch us to work 1st. yes, i was actually angry in e morning, did cried. When lunch with my auntie and uncle johnny, we went parkway.. den went giant 1st cause they wan to buy something. 2hrs lunch again. den left at 3pm..

den went for work, slept there for like half an hr, cause was too tired le. had alot of fun time chatting. One of the hot topic is about the bugis outlet, cause we was naming everyone who re going to bugis and tat includes mi.. So, they say that bugis outlet got no door to lock and is like onli bugis outlet cannot b lock. Omg, that we start thinking veri far.. den if cannot lock, den all our tins etc will get stolen by pple, how can. den we start thinking thinking thinking. E shop will be open around 10 April, which means i will be staying in compass point for another 2 weeks onli, miss e pple there.

ah, should not have tell him where i working, so angry, my mission failed again. actually i am half way through or not even.. damm angry of myself. he came and in e end i went back home but not him.. ahhh.. my mission is to ask him go home and slp... dun want to talk to you anymore..

such a bad day for mi, i am alreadi tired but pple still made mi angry.. In e morning, afternoon and in e evening.. my bro actually took all e $ tat we gave him to pay school fees etc to spend on other thing. How am i going to teach. I failed my mission, failed as a sister to teach him, failed to be e person that someone wants.

*Sorry, if i blog something wrong again. i really dun feel like quarreling wif you cause of my blog.

Sunday, March 23, 2008

Words to describe mi now, Super tired, useless etc.. This coming monday and tuesday gOing to run marathon, cause will be working in my aunt office from 9am-3pm, den after tat going to work at famous amos from 4.30-10.30pm. den e rest of e days just go my aunt office work from 9am-6pm ba. ah, should i do this for this coming 2 days or should i take one day rest, i am really super tired le.

Is like having nightmare everyday, yesterday was not so bad, 'she' is much better, 'she' treat of us so gd, like suddenly but nv know she might be planning something behind it, so i will nv trust tat.

was trying very hard to actually make him sleep but from morning still i left for work, i still failed to make him sleep.. useless of mi.. actually was trying to think during my work time how to make him sleep but i was too tired to think.. hopefully he is back to himself again.. he help mi b4, is time to really help him too..

talk to y2 just now on things that i actually intending to do, plan alreadi but i find it so difficult to say it out or how am i going to face this things alone. I am so scared. sometimes i am too tired to listen to all your nonsense.

Wrote this msg myself, just putting all my feelings in this msg,

I will never let you go,
because of 1 reason,
I love you.
Maybe that not the truth,
or maybe,
you don't like mi.
But i just want to let you know,
what i am doing now,
is all because of you.
I am now waiting there,
for you.
My love for you will,
never change.

All i ever ask for was your love,
My heart was made for yours,
I love you more than you ever know

I don't care who you are?
Where are you from?
What you did?
As long as i love you.

too tired to really think wad i wan to write so shall stop here 1st ba. hopefully that person will not keep going out in e night, and he will slp ba.. if not i will not slp and accompany u to walk at night.

Saturday, March 22, 2008

As usual, went to my aunt office to work again. Having Nightmare, Nightmare and Nightmare this few days, and is from e same person. was really tired, tat i fall asleep for like 15min b4 i actually wake up to do my things. after work went home 1st after tat meet y2. after tat we head off to singapore expo to look for cassandra, cause promise her tat we will look for her. went walk walk awhile b4 we actually left expo. den y2 accompany mi to eastpoint, cause my sis call and say she need $, so i transfer her my $, i transfer everything to her which i still have. had a great day with y2 today.

my auntie actually told her office pple that 'other pple are gold, but i am just a grass', know wad it means? had so called a quarrel in e afternoon wif e nonsense pple(my parents). If you all wan to do until all this things.. dun worry, i will ownself go and look for e mp and tell them tat i dun have all of you, ask them to give mi some place and some $ for mi, my sis and bro to survive. I am really veri angry, please stop. I am going mad soon if u all continue like this. I have alreadi lost him, yet now i still dun even know how to say it. I am such a coward person.

yes, i dunno how to cheer a person up when i myself re not veri happy either. I am speechless and i am useless.

yes, this person is important to mi and my heart may be still full of him but wad is e use.. i actually read back some stupid thing b4 i really post this entry..

yes, i am sad after doing this stupid things.. Some words which have been say but is not true, you lie to mi. it will nv come true. Really dunno how to continue anymore, it will make mi even more sad onli. waiting for your ___, waiting for your ____.. it seems so difficult.

will upload those photo which cassandra send mi when i am not so tired ba.. received a suprise call from yong lin, he told mi tat he is NS now and is in bedok camp, he wanted to date mi out den can have lunch or dinner together since e both of us re in bedok. he is actually a veri nice guy, wish u gd luck in NS now. Den will be having a guides outing soon, n shu chun say tat xin ying bf is giving her some surprise on her b'day.. omg so sweet.. i am jealous..

Friday, March 21, 2008

Places we went:
- Bedok Inter
- Parkway Parade
- Tampines Mall
- TECC Mac

Mi and michael meet the rest at bedok inter, kelvin, cassandra, alex and clinton. Yeah, finally alex is free cause he is no longer working at laser flair le. Michael suddenly become like so free, always ask him out he sure free le. getting to see him often. After tat we all took bus to parkway parade den cassandra wanted to eat long john so y2 came and find us. oh, saw that manger which i dun like although i am not under him at all but i just dun like his character.

After eating, cassandra left to meet her friends den e rest of us continue walking around. Went to arcade to play, yeah, we play e basketball game and was so tired after playing.. after tat we went to Tampines Mall, den michael left us.. Den alex get down at bedok inter. left e 4 of us. When we reach Tampines, clinton left us. Poor thing left 3. So we walk around, steven(small) is also working in famous amos. hehe.. but we re working in different outlet.

After that accompany y2 home, she went to print something den on e way met camilia, so e 3 of us went to tecc 1st.. meet the rest of e program pple, was chatting while waiting for y2 to come. left her wif some of the program thing. Oh, vionna is my junior, she is also in chemical process, wish her gd luck..

was so tired, and was feeling not quite gd in bus, was having headache den like want to vomit like that and when i reach home i really vomit.. actually was not feeling quite gd when i wake up in e morning, got e urge of not waking up. Den when i wake up was having headache so went back to my bed and lie, took some medicine den felt ok after that so went out.

As usual going my aunt office to work, half day. Maybe later in e night meeting y2 to find cass in expo.

yesterday y2 ask mi 'will i wait', my ans most likely will be a yes. Anyway nobody can replace the person in my heart now or maybe forever. kelvin and joel was talking abt wad cca to join since they re also in SP. well, thinking of that i had cca but what happened? Don't wish to really say it anyway i am sorry to all of you.

Anyway really have fun working in my auntie office, those pple treat mi veri nice. my auntie nv go out for lunch for veri long le, since i went there to help her, she not so many work, so yesterday my auntie feel like going to shopping to walk walk awhile. Uncle johnny actually drive us to hougang mall for lunch, after lunch we went walk walk together. yeah, we spent 2hr having lunch and shopping, after tat went back to work. Den uncle patrick say wan to treat mi eat kfc, next week ba. Everybody is like taking turn.

was chatting in msn wif y2 and told her tat i am really like a kid, playing all these game, this is some of e game tat i actually play, promise her tat i put it up. hahax=)she actually say her bro play, so shall play wif her bro next time.

Cant wait for sch reopen to open, den when i am back to study i cant wait for e holiday to come. Haix=)Oh, dream of something yesterday again, dunno whether is it a nightmare, what i can say is i do not have enough slp cause of all these nightmare and dreams.

Slap the Nerd

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this game is so cute, so am i a nerd too? cause i wear spec?

Sandwich Cooking Game

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Mikey's Crazy Cafeteria

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Quick Burger

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[H]appy and [S]ad day

- was working happily in my aunt office but it changes my mood after my auntie told mi something.
- The words is so hurtful but the person who say it is not my aunt of course
- The person who made mi so upset is someone who i have been trying to make her happy, doing things that she like.
- I actually cried in e office today while sorting all e document, luckily i was in a room, nobody know.
- What has the world become, everybody seems to be angry of mi, seems to ignore mi, do not appreciate things that i have done for them.
- Think alot of things have show that i am really very stupid, i should not have done so much things.
- E things that i have done have all gone to a waste.
- It really hurts mi alot, every words tat all of u say is in my mind, i cant just put it aside cause the words is hurtful to mi.
- Since you want, i give u everything.
- Can someone just let mi stay at your hse, i really dun feel like staying at home anymore.

Anyway meet y2 after my work, went pasar malam, brought some clothing, and my lovely sticker. i have lots of sticker now, i onli go pasar malam buy cause is like cheaper, and i keep collecting until i have lots of stickers now.

was intending to go cc to find cassandra and y2 wanted to pass e video to joanna, but joanna left for meeting and cassandra went home le, so mi and y2 went to playground to chit chat. Yeah, had a long chat, is so much easier to talk to gals cause we think alike. we actually can share lots of secrets.

went home wif michael, chat with him while on e way home. Is still the same, had NIGHTMARE yesterday. Hopefully no for today.

Going to meet kelvin, alex and clinton tml den gonna meet y2 after her work, den go window shopping b4 we go back to cc. i am just going to enjoy myself tml, please i dun wan anything that will made mi sad to happen tml.

Wednesday, March 19, 2008

work at my auntie office for 5hr today, hopefully i done nothing wrong. Cause was feeling very tired, thought of resting at home but didnt know tat my auntie want mi to go to her office to help her. I actually drag myself down cause of e $, dun care how tired i am i went. Most of them i still can recognise them except some. Lol, they actually wan to introduce their son to mi. No thankx. Going to work as much as i can. So e timing quite flexible, what i wan 2 go and go back up to mi. So tml gonna work from 9am-7pm. I nearly fell asleep with e comfortable table and chair with e aircon in a room.

Were suppose to have dinner with steven at bedok, den cassandra ask whether wan 2 watch movie anot and since he dun need to go back so early, so we went with them. oh no, e movie they wan to watch is a scary movie. to me, e movie is scary but to other maybe not ba..I actually saw a ghost b4, at that point was having campfire at damai sec. yeah, it is inside e gals toilet, it is damm scary..

Somehow i felt so speechless now, cause there is something which i wan to say but i jux cant say it out..sigh.. After movie we actually went to take pic, was too tired.

I really hate those nightmare on mi, i just cant stop thinking about it. The nightmare have made mi even more upset, worried, scared. Why is this nightmare on mi? cause.....?

HOPEFULLY NO NIGHTMARE FOR MI TONIGHT!

18March08

I am veri tired today, thought of sleeping longer when i slept quite late e day b4 but in e end i could not.. my bro sch teacher call mi and ask why my brother did not go sch yesterday and today, and i told her tat yesterday my bro sick but today he went to sch. and is like e time she call mi is when she is marking e attendance. what happened if e person is late? Make mi so worried that i actually quickly went to bath and want to look for my bro. Call back e sch around 8 plus den realise tat my bro is in sch, but he is having ava duty and e teacher 4got abt it.. ah.

so went to work in quite a sleepy look, anyway still have fun chatting. after work, meet kelvin yeo for dinner den after tat went for yec meeting. Oh, is a nightmare to mi, dun wish to say.. den after meeting went to bedok sempan for supper, share wif bernice.. den i went back wif michael, since e both of us stay at bedok. reach home around 1am in e morning..

den i woke up quite early in e morning. Had 2 nightmare.. ah.. den my aunt call mi ask mi gO her office work, so will be gOing to her office soon..tired.. chatting with joanna on msn now and she actually ask mi to go for the award ceremony. Still thinking.

sometime i am thinking whether should i trust a guy. I really hate guys who re two timer.. Sometimes i dunno what guys are thinking too.

Monday, March 17, 2008

I was awake like 7am in e morning, and i felt so tired that i wanted to go back to slp. Yes i did, but i woke up like every 15min. Trying to put everything down, and dun think of those things that i am quite unhappy with. omg, i am now not in love with maple but other games. Think playing maple, make mi quite sian for e moment. So started to play new games like www.viwawa.com and www.y8.com. Had fun playing.

since i am not working today so decided to accompany cassandra to pasir ris sec to find out e canteen vendor quotation for her welfare. y2 will be late and cassandra dunno how to go there so i meet her at e bus stop and walk there wif her. y2 told us to go in 1st, so we actually lie to e security tat we re from ex pasir ris, and yes i am not veri gd in lieing. So actually we pass and suddenly one of e teacher pop infront of us and say that "do we know him?" and "you re not from pasir ris sec".. omg, so we so called got scolded by him and we went out. Think he is e discipline master cause everyone who is from that sch sure know him. then, tried calling tiffany see whether is she in sch but nope, so ask kelvin for help. Thought y2 will reach quite late. So in e end kelvin and y2 went in.

Was so happy today, know y? cause i actually play wif y2 brother. yes, i am in love wif small kids, i like playing with them. Maybe can try going to childcare centre to look after them. well, if one day i decided not to give birth or not 2 get married, think i will adopt those children and see them growing up. Actually, i did not even have a childhood, did not get to play wif lots of childhood games.

my brother was sick and did not go 2 sch, so is like, if we still have medicine to eat we wont visit e doc, so my brother msg mi 2 ask mi 2 write for him letter. And i thought veri long how to write. Should i write "My brother" or "My son". Saying this, i once remember tat my pri sch teacher actually ask us to bring our family photo and talk abt it. Guess wad, i did not even have a family photo wif my parents at all, so i cut out e pic and paste them together 2 make a family photo. I still remember my pri school mates actually laugh at mi, cause is like i am actually having a pasting class, jux cut out e pic and paste it.

Was quite sad that i did not attend e soka 3.16 at singapore expo yesterday, i kind of 4get e date, den when my IC actually remind mi, is too late to change my working day. So, i did not go. Was quite sad la. cause is actually quite a grant event. And i sort of pity e Soka pple from Japan university, they have lots of sad story behind them, is too long to actually post it here.

On the way to meet cassandra, saw a car accident, e car did not knock into any of e car, think e car has some problem and it hit onto a pole and onto e grass patch. actually, i dun wish to have a car, cause i think is abit too dangerous, esp when u met into those inconsiderate driver. and when it rain, u will see lots of accident, u dunno when you gonna to die. think i am a person who cant drive, cause when there is pple who suddenly cut my lane etc, i will get a shocked and dunno wad to do. And if i were to drive think i will drive slowly and in e end i might get honk by pple. Is best tat i take bus everywhere i go.

This morning i den remember tat tml there is a YEC meeting and oh no, i working at night, so quickly call them and change wif jennifer. So in e end i work in e morning. So forgetful of mi.. My thumb still hurts.

To my friends:

Tiffany thankx alot, i have also done alot of stupid things to someone who i like.
Bamboo, i think i am so much stupid den you, you re not stupid, you are smart. yeah, i did mention that i am really veri stupid.
Cassandra, i agree but sometime when i actually did it, i felt so regret and upset of doing so many things, yet..(you should understand what i mean)
y2, yeah, sometime i really think too much, but whenever i see " ", i start to think wad has happened and yupx, is not e 1st time. And there is actually one thing tat i saw and made mi upset. Shall tell u e next time i see u.

Sunday, March 16, 2008

Didn't slp well yesterday, maybe i think too much alreadi ba.. but i am a person who get sad easily, get affected by wad pple say.. i am a person who jux cant simply ignore it.. can say until now i am still feeling quite upset.. Maybe i shall think carefully 1st b4 i do anything..

No mattar how sad i am i still have to go to work.. yupx, i enjoy myself, at least there re pple to talk too and can laugh together.. had dinner wif cassandra and her partner (eugene)... we ate korean food and we share.. cassandra and her friend brought some cookies and gave them 20% off.. woo.. that is actually a full time staff discount.. omg, when i was opening e guava can drink, i cut my thumb, lost alot of blood and now my thumb is so numb.. how can i not be so careful

might be going down pasir ris sec tml... hopefully i can slp well tonight, i wish i wont think of those sad things again..

Saturday, March 15, 2008

well.. had 3 mood for today.. morning was tired.. afternoon was happy... evening was quite of angry and sad..

in e morning was tired cause of my throat pain cant slp e whole night, did not want to go to cc, but no choice got to go and help clinton.. so in e end michael went too.. cause was talking on e phone wif him in e morning.. and today den i realise tat yec got 3 storeroom, but actually not all e 3 is ours but there is our things inside.. actually we meet 10am but everything drag until 11 plus, cause e cc staff is veri busy, lots of pple keeping coming in still must queue up.. so we waited until when there is no much pple den borrow e yec storeroom key from them.. later on desmond came..

after packing went for lunch, but i cant eat, my throat damm painful... ahhh.. den after lunch dunno where to go so was talking to desmond.. den call y2 to chit chat.. well, shall not say further much le cause it was like haix..

den in e evening i was so call angry, sad, stupid.. i really dunno how to phrase in order not to hurt anybody, or think that is their fault.. think after so many incident, i think i am really a stupid person ba.. i think next time i shall ask 1st, i dun wan 2 be a stupid person again.. i dun wan 2 be a stupid person anymore.. since, i dun think everyone ______ it... those who really _____ it i am veri thankful.. dun feel like continuing le since i am really very stupid..

In conclusion. "YING HUI IS A STUPID PERSON"

Happy Birthday to my beloved cousin Terry

Nothing really special happen yesterday, did not celebrate for my cousin cause we alreadi celebrate for him last week, did not buy anything for him too cause he like everything also got.. omg, my cousin can play wii game so well and i am like??? but glad that he is having fun playing.

As usual, we have SuperNova meeting in the night. Decided to help clinton wif his logistics, i dun mind cause i really need to occupy myself wif lots and lots of things.. i just dun wan to have that free time to think of things.. Well, school going to reopen in a months time, and i will try to keep myself busy too..After meeting, we actually chat outside for awhile b4 we went home. Omg, i still wan to see e magic, but onli can see 1 for a day.

ahhh, my throat, when will it be ok, it getting painful, yesterday had difficulty to actually eat e food and at night when i reach home i actually had difficulty drinking water. And worse of all i can't slp cause of the pain. When will my throat be ok? How am i going to survive my day today. In awhile going to bath and going to cc to do logistics thing.. half way typing through my logistics.

oh yeah, just remember that i have to work tml, and tml there is a briefing on e security thing.. which mean that tml onwards, if anyone want to come my hse you actually have to use a card, if not call b4 you enter.. if not e last way is to wait for some pple wif a card and u just follow them in.. which mean, i have to actually bring one more card out wif mi..

Thursday, March 13, 2008

had a fruitful trip at tampines mall and century square wif ying ying yesterday.. yeah, we got wad we wanted, very happy, lucky we did not brought e one tat we plan earlier.. must agree that ying ying has lots of creativity, she has lots of idea, she can suddenly think of anything de.. but i am not=)

omg, my throat is veri pain, got 1 thing inside my throat, but eng dunno wad is it. ah, cant really eat much, onli can eat abit and i eat veri slowly, cause very pain. meet steven today for dinner and he brought mi a lozenges for my throat, thankx. after tat meet the rest of e pple at tm mac to do something.. secret.. lol.. thankx michael for sending mi home.. ah.. plz stop saying his name le, dun feel like hearing his name.. i will nv like him..

guess you must be veri tired ba, having reservists now. somemore this few days keep raining and e weather is cold. take care ba.

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

work on Mon and tue morning... intending to try out e cake on mon, but was too tired to try out so decide to try on tue.. slept early on that day.. den yesterday went to work wif cassadra, yeah.. cause jux nice she got road show at compass point and jux nice at basement too.. jux nice infront of famous amos.. cause she dunno where to alight, so took bus 27 wif her there..

had luch wif her and her partner, went to burger king.. during lunch time was helping y2 wif her enrolment thing, she is so blur that she dunno wad to do.. den went back to work, after work went to find cassandra and accompany her until 8.30pm den we took bus to bedok inter cause she have to pass e eye relax to 1 of e customer.. e 3 of us had alot of fun chatting abt lots of things.. is a gals thing ba, e guys will nv understand, onli e gals will understand.. guys are like... no mattar how much i have done, it seems like no one knows it.. Sometime i really dunno wad to do.. why must all this things that making us so 'fan'..

so, did try out e cake until 1am and i fail.. omg.. was so angry.. so went to slp and try again, early in e morning.

so wake up at 7am to do.. yeah, i pass... think my cake will be a better one.. but my cake is so white.. ah.. cause no colour.. den made cheese cake too which y2 wants.. and do a durian cake for my grandma.. so gonna meet y2 later to buy something..

oh yeah, had alot of fun actually to do e decoration and playing around wif e whipped cream... gy came my hse to pass my sis something, so yupx, had alot of fun today.. so happy..

Sunday, March 09, 2008

went to work yesterday... had fun yesterday chatting wif jennifer and li ting.. den jennifer ask mi some bakery stuff.. cause she also going to bake a cake for her friend too..

today, was so call a usual sun, and from now onwards it will remain too.. have to find my own program for every sun le.. 4get it, shall not say more, if not someone will get angry of mi.. was so called a bad day for mi.. everybody seem to be angry of mi, scolding mi.. my grandma, my sis, my bro.. 4get it, since they like to scold mi den scold lor, as long as i did nothing wrong..

thankx goodness, last min got a program.. my small aunt came to my hse den we went to her hse to celebrate terry b'day which is this coming fri but we celebrate early.. den my cousin was so happily playing e wii, my aunt also brought.. omg.. he is so much smarter den mi, i dun even know how to play.. den after tat went to changi to eat dinner.. celebrate my grandma b'day which is coming thurs.. thankx to my small aunt for lending mi her cookery book... going to try out doing e cake tml or tue.. quite difficult, cause tml and tue i working in e morning.. do at night ba.. den ying ying say she wan to do her cheese cake, so maybe someday this week she will come my hse ba.. beside tat got to do another cake..

still thinking wad to buy for my grandma, but dun have much $ to buy, i am left with like???

ya, starting playing new game which is "viwawa", this game was introduce by my famous amos pple.. cause they say nice to play, so i started to play too.. at least got 1 more new game to play.. think will miss them, cause in a month time got to go bugis le.. den got to know new pple..

Friday, March 07, 2008

was quite happy today but i am still not really tat happy.. make butter cake today, after tat meet e gals (ying ying and cassandra) den meet kelvin last min cause he say someone will be late so in e end he join us 1st.. well, we went to bugis to buy bags, ying ying wanna get her tank top and suppose to buy something too.. well kelvin left us half way and meet another person.. so we gals carry on wif our shopping..

Den we went in e zinc shop and ask how much e bag was.. den in e end we was talking to guy non-stop, keep on bargain and had alot of fun chat wif e guy, keep disturbing him.. but he really give us a veri nice price.. and he actually give us a member card for free and he give us 15% if we go there to buy.. so nice of you.. actually did not intend to buy, but i love it when i saw it.. since i have been buying lots of things for pple and did not buy something for myself, so decide to buy a bag for myself.

den went back to tecc and meet joanna to update her some of e GRC youth day thing.. den after tat went for dinner together.. den back to tecc for meeting.. after meeting went up to meet joanna for the GRC youth day thing.. den went back home..

omg.. desmond veri gd in magic.. how he did it?? i pick a card, he did not even see it.. den i jux grab tight onto his hand and e no of e card actually appear on his hand.. omg.. tat is so cool.. i wan to see again..

today is my bro b'day, didnt have e mood to think wad to buy for him.. i am so sorry.. there is something which i can onli keep to myself and share wif e gals.. cause they will understand.. there is one things that i wanna say,

I am veri sorry to you, i really cant accept you not that i don't like you.. I am still waiting for him.. hopefully i can get a ans soon..

Went to work yesterday, as usual, have fun working.. enjoy myself there.. yesterday jenny told mi that she want mi to go over to bugis to help out.. and e shop will be open during mid-april which means i start sch le.. so i say i try to help her.. yesterday start to make new product, and is veri nice but onli fri-sun den have.. haix.. this 2 days when i walk also will get veri dizzy but no mattar what i still went to cc yesterday to help him.. so i scared cannot finish, den ask ying ying and cassandra along.. thankx for coming..

well.. yesterday chatted wif supernova gals(ying ying & cassandra) e whole night.. we had a nice chat is our gals chat.. there is something tat i wan to say but i just cannot say.. i always think i am stupid enough to do stupid stuff..

Cassandra says: when you really like someone, you will do silly things just for him.
Cassandra says: realise how silly those stuffs u can do for a guy and sometimes u really wish to hate urself for so crazy over him

i agree to wad cassandra have say.. tat is wad i am doing now.. actually i told them e truth yesterday which at first wad i say was not the truth.. thankx gals, really had a nice chat wif u all.. we re all gals, we understand each other feelings.. there is still a difference between guys and gals.. shall not say abt guys feeling cause i am not them.. thankx gals for understanding how i feel.. it is really nice to share all my feeling wif u gals..

Chingay photo:

Wednesday, March 05, 2008

Didnt blog the last few days cause was thinking to change my URL due to some reason.. yeah.. actually wanna change to "mysecretblog" but cannot, so added in my name in front.. was a tiring day for me, juz realise something, i spend lots of $ on my bus fare now, ah, bus fare is getting expensive.

went to work in e morning, everything was still ok, actually my work pple are all veri nice, they treat mi veri nice too.. nice working here..but one of my wish still haven come true yet, which is something releated to my work, but i guess is impossible le.. after working went back home, have my dinner and rush to tampines central cc for meeting.. damm tiring, almost lost my way there.. was so scared to go into e meeting room waiting for someone i know to come.. den realise tat hayder is not coming and rezal will b late, so got no choice i went in.. and i just sat there to listen..

I was even more scared when they ask mi abt e flea market and e in-line skating, luckily rezal step in in time, i was so relived at that point... if not i really dunno wad to do le.. cause i dun even know anything. Somehow i am still scared of e meeting although the pple re actually nice.. but they look fierce during meeting.. and later on e tampines central minister came, even worse, he look damm fierce, even rezal also dun like him.. ah.. anybody can help mi?? i am so scared la.. den jux realise tat so many pple in our yec is inside but onli mi and rezal went.. dont wish e next meeting to come so fast..

going to work tml morning again, den after work going to look for joanna to update her everything.. guess my day tml will be tiring again..

Sunday, March 02, 2008

actually thought of blogging yesterday but no mood to blog, that is onli a few words tat i can blog it out.. yesterday was my Chingay Post Celebration. In e morning meet liang yue and koo jee, went to vivo city kopitam to do e photo album which we have done for our trainers, later on hong fu and wee kiong came.. yeah, had a enjoyable time doing, i may be laughing but i am not that happy.. after tat went to TBSC, met e Japan soka university.. yeah, the sharing by them was veri touching. I didnt know how e life was over there, now i know their life there re worse den us. had alot of fun meeting my chingay mates and my trainers

After tat we went to take our souvenir and cca letter and collect our Chingay t-shirt too.. after that had some refreshment.. den mi, shu li, liang yue together wif our trainer shi jia went to eat together.. we went to haagen daz to eat e fondue, omg, is the 1st time i am eating it.. thankx shi jia for treating us.. after i took mrt and i ended up in punggol, i dunno y i ended up there, den after tat i end up in tecc.. haix..i dunno y too..

had a nice chat wif ying ying yesterday night for 3hr, we share alot of things.. now i know your secret and you know mine too.. i also agree totally to cassandra wad she write in her blog.. there is something that i had tried my best...although i might be unhappy to some stuff but i did not complain at all.. but i still hope tat i can continue in this relationship..

I am sorry if i really trouble u all, i wont trouble you all anymore le.. So plz dun get angry. Sorry.

Saturday, March 01, 2008

MY HEART IS VERY VERY PAIN, I HAVE TRIED MY BEST BUT I STILL CANNOT. THIS IS THE FIRST TIME IN ALL MY LIFE THAT MY HEART IS SO PAIN, CAUSE I TREAT IT SERIOUSLY

PLEASE GIVE MI A CHANCE.

[Y]ing [H]ui