What happened to me again? trying to keep myself busy by not thinking so much things. Went with steven to some place in e afternoon, was so shocked and yet lost after hearing. i really dunno what to do. i am breaking down. after tat walk e whole interchange, my home is no longer a home to me, like wad joanna say it is onli a place for me to sleep and to use my computer.
i am feeling so uncomfortable inside me. Went to cc in e evening to update on some of e grc youth day staff. my purpose for today was to have inter-generation games b4 packing of yec store room but i am just feeling so upset. onli a few reply my sms and my email. in e end i did not even wan to do it. Guess, everything seems over i shall do it myself for e inter generation games.
did some packing for yec store room. disappointed. and from now on i seriously dunno wad to do. msg joanna and told her tat i will do it myself. she offer her help, but i reject her help, i cant expect a youth staff to help me. shall do abit everyday.
told someone this just now i always thought tat i will be more happiner in 'S' but now is 'Y'. at first, i dun really dare to talk to rezal and hyder but after this few meetings with them, they re really a nice person. truthfully i had happy time talking to hyder and surani.
so many things seem happening on me.. after few months, promises have been break and when will e promises be back. what is promises?
i always wan to find a place where i can be happy, initially i found tat place, but somehow e place is getting worse and is like gone. i really dunno whether are we still very good friends. Maybe i just dun understand you. you can be totally 2 different person or am i just interfering your life, if tat e case i will leave.
Living in this world is so meaninless to me, how i wish i can just live this world. cause i am seriously very tired by everything. i listen to someone in order to repay them back something, i will do as much things as i can.
i am so tired and sad to continue blogging.
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