On Friday b4 going to cc to study i went to tampines and finally found wad i want. So Happy. Went cc to study 1st, den later on went to the room to study. After tat steven send mi home. Aiyo, sick dun drive le. Don't always drive so fast.
On sat, went to cc to help in citizenship ceremony. Could not wake up, but i endure and took panadol b4 i go cc mac to study awhile. Met Jessica (Tampines North YEC), chatted wif her awhile while she is having her breakfast. Omg, shi chang b'day present is food, the riddle tat he gave mi is food la. I will give him lots of chicken wing next time, and some pple say my chicken wing is black de, lol. I make sure i like you all eat is something nice. My leg is giving mi problem again and made mi fall once again. I am like use to it le, although is pain. Is someone b'day too, was ask to sing b'day song but was abit reluctant but i was even more reluctant to eat e cake. I am so SORRY. After tat went cc and had some fun chat, den we went to mac and study den we went to reading room to study. In e end i left after kelvin left, cause i keep coughing non-stop until now. Ate medicine but guess is off no use. And i cough until my chest pain. Den went to outside mac to study.
Oh ya, we went to book a court just now, going to play badmiton on the 30th aug @ 9am. Shi chang seems very mad about this, so shall accompany him. After tat we will be going for RSAF open house.
Is my auntie b'day, b4 tat i actually thought of giving her some special cake. Due to not enough time i did not make a cake myself. Actually i wanted to order her a cake but she told me tat she don't have the mood to celebrate, is it because of us? Someone i always felt so guilty when the problems lies on us. As the yrs goes, everybody has no more mood for something. So, will i have the mood to celebrate my b'day too? i think last yr is the only yr where i enjoy my b'day. Seriously this yr i realise tat i do not even celebrate any b'day for my family pple. My grandma don't want to celebrate and now my auntie. So, i won't be asking them to celebrate my b'day too.
really dunno wad has e world becoming, i am somehow left alone in the family. My grandma is not coming back tonight. I wonder, becoming a christian must stay overnight somemore in a hotel? now everyone has become christian except mi. It seems tat there is no more communication. they enjoy talking to themself and i only have a wall to talk too. Worse still my auntie call and ask mi whether should she become christian also? and in e end she told mi she was just kidding. I am really very sick of all this things. Joke? Do you know tat when she told mi this i really break down and cry softly, if she 1 day become 1, i think i really dun have anyone le. I am like alone in my own world. The things tat actually made mi happy now is friends.
But somehow is so difficult to judge a person. Like how, it seems that i dunno some of you. Last time i know you but now it become a stranger. Does the problem lies wif mi again?
Went pass a bakery shop and they ask mi buy mooncake, so knowing tat my siblings and grandma like durian mooncake i brought 1 for them to try, at 1st my bro told mi not bad. den when my sis come back she say she dun like den my bro start to say nt nice. just now i went to the toilet and my bro actually off the light, and he say this to me "Very fun ritex?" although i am e eldest my none of my siblings actually treat mi as one. they will only scold and bully mi. and now my grandma nt at home e more they bully me. as usual i cried. Someone ask mi this in the afternoon, he ask y i dun wan to stay at home to study. My ans is, my hse is nv a heaven to me, i just wish tat i dun come back home, e moment i step into my hse is full of sadness. tat is y i am spending like my whole day outside.
What should i do? and i am really feeling very sick now, cannot breathe properly, it seems getting worse.
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