Do I feel Happier when I am 21st?
Yesterday had my advance 21st birthday celebration, I was happy to see all my friend, happy to chit chat with them, happy to receive their lovely present. I love all the presents given by them. Want to thank everyone for coming down, my poly friends, janet, jaclyn, xiang rui, wei lang, yu rong, jackson, cheng wai, poh siah, chu zen, faizah, nuan qin, mui hoon, nicholas, si jing, qi ming. My famous amos friends, an qi, lysiel and feeqah. My secondary school friends, yan teng, lay ting, koo jee. My Yec friends, belinda, bernice, veryln, jinguang, ying ying, cassandra, jia jin, alezec, andrew, hyder, choo kim, shi chang, kelvin, si jie & gf, alvin & gf and last but not least tsai ting. Thanks everyone for turning up.
Was so busy entertaining all my friends that I don not have the time to eat.
Well, i am turning 21 this coming tue, do i feel happy? Last time I use to think that i wan to be 21st cause it means freedom, i can do whatever things I like. I really want to be happy this special days, but there is always my family problem that i don't feel happy at all. I really thought of shifting out and start afresh my new life. I want to start from the bottom, you think I can. Somehow I really have no more confidence in guy.
Anyway thanks hyder for sending me home. Bernice send jinguang and kelvin back. Choo Kim and Hyder actually bully me while fetching me home. They want to throw me at the haunted house there, then after that they bring me to the changi prison there, so scary de. Then somemore want to bring me to dunno where. At least they send me home safely, and also help me to bring up all my present.
I think my work load has increase, more and more things to learn, more and more difficult things to handle. Somewhere i really can't absorb or take in. But will still try very very hard.
Yesterday try to finish my work early and reach home early but in the end i left at 3pm. Reach home almost 5pm, rest for awhile and quickly change my clothing cause got to attend a wedding dinner. Didn't intend to go but in the end was force to go.
It was actually my cousin wedding but is 1 year meet once during CNY but we didn't talk also de. It was held at Intercontinental and it was a very small wedding with only 10 tables cause the wife is from shanghai and they did once there already.
Today went for a short shopping with my sis after like so so so so long. Brought a dress for myself and also brought a shirt for my sis too. Before that my sis went with my aunt to get all the stuff for my birthday.
I am so touch they did so many things for me. Will I cry on that day.
Omg, I actually cry yesterday. I seriously dunno whether that person treat me as friend anot. It have been a few years but i dun feel that we are friends although this is what it has been say out from that person mouth. I am seriously upset over this.
Too many weakness
Recently, just started to know this person. I don't know if it is good to mix around with him/her. Sometime that person really made me upset, made me angry but I have been telling myself to 4get everything. It has been years, can i really put down everything? I am still trying everyday until this moment. When this person need a listener I lend him/her but in my mind i can't believe that person totally. People surrounding me ask me not be so close to her/him. But I really don't know how. Until now, i still have some chat with that person.
You made me upset, made me cry. I have sleepless night all because of you.
Shall talk about my work place since i have work there for almost 6 months....
Anyway my work task is increasing and the stress level is also increasing. Because I do not have any background in biology therefore I am starting afresh. Trying to absorb as many as I can. Anyway I work well with my colleagues, sometime we do joke around and when it comes to work we can be very serious. When company is growing we have to grow as well. We have just started renovating the chemistry lab. Our new chemist is here, he is really a funny guy dunno why whenever he start talking I will laugh.
Guess my work load is increasing therefore have been going home late everyday, even sat i can go home at 4plus 5 even though i can knock off at 1pm. Therefore has not been feeling well all this while, every night my nose is bleeding, but now lesser already.
Everyone say I have grown up, going to celebrate my 21st Birthday soon. Don't really intend to celebrate, but my sis and family has put in alot of effort, therefore I should play my part and be happy on that day. It also nice to ask all my friends to come, it seems like a good gathering where I can see different groups of friends.
I Miss you Joseph Lim
My dearest teacher left this world on 5th October 2010, leaving his wife and 2 kids. When I got this news I was terribly sad and could not accept the fact. I thought it was someone who are playing with me.
After that I started to think back in the past during my Secondary schools day. Although, i have not been going back have not been seeing him this past 4 years, but memories remains in my heart. Still remember how we use to laugh and fun together. He will always want sweets from me, but everytime i refuse to give to him.
Although he may be quite fierce at times, but he is really a nice teacher. He has been so healthy since i know him, how could such things happened to him. I remember, he is like rezal, everyday cycle to school.
On 5th October, he had a sudden heart attack in school in the morning. He is only 40 this year, I bet he still has lots of things not finished yet. Please leave peacefully. His kids is still very young, but I believe they are very strong.
Went to his wake on the 7th October after work with lay ting and some of her friends. I saw many teacher and his past to current students. I felt really touched, from here we can see how many of them loves him. I really feeling like crying, but I manage to control.
Manage to saw some of my friends and teacher too.
Mr Lim, we will always remember you.
I am one that treat friendship seriously. Like what I told Belinda, when Joanna did not stay YEC, I really cried infront of her. I got the feeling I will cry on that day and I guess I could not control. Really want to do something that she will remember us forever. If belinda one day would leave YEC, i will do the same thing too. I am so glad that not only I can do voluntarism but also it is a place where I can share my happiness and unhappiness.
10.10.10
Today is a special day, a day where i should be happy, but it don't turn out to be. 10 is actually my favourite number cause when I am young in my dream this 10 word will also appear.
This morning I actually went to have a short meet up with the SLC teacher, after that rush home and get myself dress up nicely, with make-up etc. After that rush out of my house to meet Chris, cause we are going there early to have briefing and also recee. After that we had our lunch at popeye. But I only ate 1/4 of the mashed potato, cause I also dunno why today dun have the appetite to it.
After that went back to help run the event, so we actually had to ursher the 5 married couples up on the capsule turn by turn. After that we actually went to the holding area for the MP for a rest 1st since there is air-con there. Also took min min to recee the whole place. After that we actually went up to the gather the couples and want them to queue up so that I can bring them now to the holding area but in the end it was a mess, they dun even want to listen to us.
When they went down, another thing happened again, so it e end I had read out the couples name, but I was so touched that Adeline came out to help me, and even people who i don't know. Thanks for helping.
After that received calls from min min and many many calls, the whole thing went wrong again. After the whole thing i was not happy at all, but thanks to some of them for their comfort. Did not had my dinner, cause no appetite again, so actually ate fruits for my dinner. Thanks for some of their concern keep asking me to eat, cause they scared i will faint.
But seriously when I was giving out the hearts, i was feeling giddy and almost black out, but I told myself I can't cause I have a important task. After the whole thing ended took the bus back to cc. On the way had a good talk with Joanna, after many many months. Had also a short talk with Min Min.
Thank You Min Min, Joanna and Belinda. 3 of you are the best that I have known you in cc. I got the feeling I will cry again because of you. I will miss you alot alot!
After that went to have a drink before going home. Thanks Kellie for sending me home.
