[Y]ing [H]ui: May 2008

Saturday, May 31, 2008

Omg, i am so dead, dead that i just dun feel like blogging. Nothing much to say wad happened yesterday, basically, i have lost myself since e day sch start..

Last day of sch yesterday.. as usual went sch wif lesson, bringing my heavy brain to sch tat i cant squeeze in anything. After sch meet e rest of our last yr classmate den we go sp gg together cause they wanna play bowling.. Then we went there but e lane was full, so we went clementi bowling instead.. it is e 2nd time tat i went there, i remember e 1st time is when sozai brought mi there to play pool and gt force by him to play.. Mi and leanna did not play yesterday, went to support all of them and have fun..

Left them halfway and meet alex at bugis, brought doughnut and we took bus to cc for meeting. still finding pple to come for e camp.. patrick is e alumi of NASS, and he is planning camp for e SC and is in july so ask him to help mi tell e SC pple to come for e camp.. omg, and i agreed to be part of NASS alumi, cause he help mi so i should help him too.. more work for mi.. i really cant bear to see e camp like this.. shall continue to ask.. i thought of 1 way which i told tiffany yesterday but i must find e time..

all i do was study and study now.. i feeling so stress, stress up by my lecturer.. i am alreadi slow in learning yet i have this kind of leturer.. was talking to lay ting yesterday, told her that i cannot stand.. staying out this 3 week to study for all my 7 module. everywhere i go i carry my notes along wif mi.. wad happened to mi?? e usual mi have been lost.. nt really in e mood to laugh to joke around.. e cheerful of mi is missing.. when will i ever be back to e normal mi..

Thursday, May 29, 2008

back blogging.. Few tHings to say but some suddenly 4get le..

Went for leo club meeting, b4 tat met zheng wei at MRT station den walk to e club hse together.. so nice of him brought egg tart for all of us to eat.. actually he wan to eat also.. hahax..jk..was talking to zheng wei half way suddenly dilyse pass mi a chocolate say sozai pass one.. was so shocked tat he suddenly buy chocolate for mi.. e meeting was still ok.. but look different from e last time when patsy was there.

omg, he really take pic wif gals lor.. his 98% gals and 1.5% guys, 0.5% gays..k la.. enough of shooting him le..just like disturbing him..

omg.. today lesson was really really veri bad, made mi headache.. suddenly i cant stand lots of my leturer.. meet alex and japter at bugis.. went for dinner together den went walk walk after which alex friend came.. so all of us went walk walk.. omg.. cant stand japter... keeping making mi laugh e whole day la..really enjoyed going out wif them..

Comment on leturer:

the teacher i hate e most

Ng Su ling: i relly cant stand her way of teaching. She thought that we are as gd or as smart as her. But we re student, she ought to teach us when we dun understand. Whenever we ask her to repeat she get so frustrated, den her voice volume increase. Like today tutorial, she wan us to explain like wad she use to explain. excuse mi, we are not as gd as you. if we can explain everything like what you did y not you separate the salary with us. When we don't know how to explain, she like so angry like that. I got e feeling our MST she is going to mark so strictly.. how? i am so stress up by OSRM.. go everywhere in my mind is OSRM.. talking abt her make mi boil..

Well, my next post probably is Mrs Tan, Ho Yi Wah etc.. is fri tml again. dun wan to mention anything abt fri le..

Tuesday, May 27, 2008

It tuesday today, 3 more days to go and i will be having my 3 weeks holiday... am i waiting for e day to come?? yes, but have to study like everyday for MST, case study and formal report..

as normal had lesson in sch.. as usual i am still quite angry of her, sometime i dunno how to communicate wif her.. after sch went back, saw alot of pple wearing e gruadtion shirt.. so cool.. and so nice too.. oh, tml zheng wei going to graduate too, must take pic let mi see.. hahax.. see e nice clothing..

not working today.. came back and do my report and den dun feel like studying le.. so chat wif some pple on msn.. anyway thankx zheng wei for chatting wif mi e whole night and thankx sozai for making mi smile..

Packed day for mi tml again.. den thurs think going mindcafe wif alex they all since got nothing to do.. but i dun like this thurs, 8-6pm again..

My new piggy bank, like this alot

Brought this for my aunt, although mickey mouse is my favourite. i also wan one mickey mouse.

Monday, May 26, 2008

There re lots of things which i wan to blog here, but considering a few factors i shall not... anyway i still have a blog which i left there for quite sometime so shall make full use of it.

Wanna thank zheng wei for accompany mi to chat yesterday, thank for everything. and also thank for willing to lend mi your shoulder, but my timetable was so packed tat i did not even have e time to relax except during lunch. so, did not lend your shoulder.. Shall see you this wed during your graduation. Remember to come for our bod meeting 1st..

School was tiring today, 8am-6pm.. anyway was quite angry of someone, dun need to ask them y i give u attitude everyday.. cause i was angry at u.. wad u talk is making mi so angry... after sch went to tampines to get e cup and went for alone shopping..

everything was cancelled, even after 2 weeks, wan this week to come faster, but in e end it was cancelled..so fast 3rd week have gone.. this 3rd week did not give mi a gd week at all.. next week going for leo forum.. and den e 4th week will be gone again.. all i can do is to wait..

Sunday, May 25, 2008

SuperSad day

before starting i dunno whether am i having e mood to blog anot..i am just crying now..

Went facial in e morning, cause my auntie ask mi to go.. while doing facial i cry and cry softly cause i was so sad after listening to wad my auntie say.. my small auntie dun wan to let my brother go her hse anymore le.. our relationship has gone further and further.. now i know y yesterday my grandma nv come home slp.. cause my auntie say she cried e whole day, she dun wan to let us know..

went to study wif yanteng in e afternoon, thankx for her accompany.. actually thought of posting up photo wad i brought today.. but i really gt no mood to.

watch abit on e si chuan charity show, was so touched and sad seeing them becoming like this and was crying while watching too...i think in total i donated $50 plus alreadi.. i always thought when i do something good, i will get something good in return, but this does not seem applying to mi..

my grandma and mother quarrel, and i am so sacred.. my mother wan to bring us to e police station and court...i dun wan to go.. y am i not 21 yrs old yet... i wan to live on my own.. i hate e place alot alot, i dun wan to go back there again..i really dunno wad to say in court.... i am going veri crazy le, one by one treat mi like this, one by one left mi...how i wish i gt someone beside mi who i can hug and cry..

my grandma keep scolding pple.. i am really feeling veri sad.. y is this happening again now.. i really really feeling veri veri xin ku now.. zhen de heng xin ku.. he alreadi left mi le..

Happy B'day Joanna

Went to my aunt office to work b4 going bugis.. Try to help her as much as i can.. omg, i dunno how to face the guy.. cause i dunno wad to talk to him lor...omg, i am so speechless, he wanted to wait for mi to end work but i told him cannot..

i felt so emotional when talking to daphane during work today.. we suddenly talk about our ''Boyfriend". think e both of us re in e same situation.. when we were talking, i nearly cry, but i told myself cannot cause i am still working.. Everything has feeling.. Like wad she say if she really break up wif e current one she dun wan to find another one, cause it had been hurt.. mi too, i do not wan to accept anyone.. cause i am hurt deeply.. i cant accept anything now.. it is making mi crazy..

was so busy tat i totally 4got abt supernova thing for a period of time, do not have time to talk to them or to find out e progress, until yesterday gt meeting den found out tat our campers is like less than 5.. so i quickly sms madam riza and madam hayati to help out.. but too bad, media camp clash on tat day so cannot come.. den madam riza intend to ask mi go for media camp, so which mean i cant go too.. but will try to visit them de.. den madam hayati will help mi ask e guides though they re having holiday.. and madam riza will help mi spread e news to other CCA, thank alot.. Then this morning, send a email to Tampines Soka HQ, hope to hear their reply soon.. currently e leaders i know re from student division, i dunno anyone from Future Division..

Msg Mr koh to ask his sch student to join cause he is e VP of e sch, but too bad, he is in other country, so he cant help mi find any..If not my kor kor will help mi find alot of pple de..

This is e 3rd yr of SuperNova camp.. Hopefully everything go smoothly.. will try to find ways to find pple to join e camp tat is y i am not sleeping yet.. i have lots of feeling for SuperNova cause i have been inside for veri long le.. Shall go find ways to get more pple..will be out in Singapore in 2 weeks time..

Tags Repiled:

Janet: Hahax...thank for your encouragement... one day i will make your ear burst from all my feelings..

Zwei: wa, you really think tat i got love letter for you ah?? but i am not free on Mon, sch end so late.. entertain mi lor.. if nt i will be veri veri sad..

Friday, May 23, 2008

Disappointed and Sad Friday

School start at 8am today again.. had 2hr of pure physics lesson after which wif a short tutorial. then had a lesson after e break which my class pple call him doraemon.. Lol.. i dun even understand wad he teaching think i am going to fail tat module.. after tat went to compass point to work..

had a nich chat wif some of them, cause is a long time since i last saw them..

I am seriously veri disappointed today... i made e effort to plann my timing well but wad happpened after tat.. was so sad, although i am suppose to go cc after tat but i find it useless going there so early.. so i went to walk walk alone.. wanted to buy something but got no mood to buy.. keep walking round and round..

promise is nv a promise to mi anyone.. i wont believe anymore, cause this promises have been broken many many times.. am i easily bully by pple, y it seems tat so many pple is bullying mi..

tell mi wad do i get in return?? sadness, disappointment etc.. i am really too sad to even continue blogging about this.. Maybe tat someone can tell mi wad should i do.. i am back to write in my book of some feeling which i am having now..

anyway, felt sad for e pple in sichuan, i am trying my best to help as much as i can, by donation etc.. cause they veri poor thing.. glad tat i am born in Singapore..

dunno wad happened to them, so enthu in going to mind cafe next thurs, shoud i go wif them.. Not confirm yet..

anyway not working this sun, anyone wan to go out to study wif mi???

Tags Repiled:

Sammy: Okie, take note.

Janet: hahax..mad is e same as siao lor.. gt difference meh?? anyway u may see that i am strong but i am not at all.. i am a weak Ying Hui.. anyway thankx for lending mi your listening ears, i will make full use of it de=)

jm: Sorry who are you?? Do i know you??

zwei: ya lor, e love letter for you de.. hahax.. wa, wan my jelly ah, come back find us la, den maybe i make for you.. good anot?? y suspicious??? U so bad lor, dun wan mi..

Thursday, May 22, 2008

so happy after i reach home today, cause finally i can relax.. was so much happier after handing up today formal report.. cause of this formal report i actually spend like 1 week plus to do..

Recalling back, didnt play games for so long le, and dont think i ever have e chance to play game too.. my MST is straight after june holiday and during tat holiday i have 2 formal report and 2 case study to do, 1 of which need to present.. and at e same time i need to study for my 7 modules.. and is onli 3 weeks holiday and i gt so much things to do.. cant even enjoy this holiday..

relax for 1 day and will be back to stress again le.. went to paya lebar alone today, saw some clothing which i like but did not buy any cause not in e mood to buy..

omg, i wan to go out and enjoy myself, but whenever i go out i bring all my work out too.. made jelly just now for someone and of course my friends too..

i think i am feeling sick soon, feeling hot inside my body.. finally tml is fri le, will my days be happy tml, it all depends on..

where is my blue mushroom, cannot find lei, veri sad now.

still quite angry of my brother

Leo club camp t-shirt

Cute? by breaktalk

Given by suat hoon.

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

Just finished my formal report and my data sheet for tml prac.. just dun feel like continuing, think my report will get rejected by tat c.s. lim ba..

my hand gt burnt by e tray on mon until now not ok yet. Fri going to work at compass point to take over tasha cause all of them going to send their friends off..

had alot of laughter in sch today, thankx to my class pple.. laugh almost e whole day.. den went to watch movie today wif hui shuen, jackson, leanna and faizah, is a last min thing, we just decide today in class onli.. went to bugis to watch and is my 1st time there..

watch 9pm show just now and i cried, omg, i cry easily.. cause there is a reason behind it.. although i may do lots of thing but i think maybe e person will know when tat person have passed away.. if not they will take things for granted..i dunno whether is it true..

still feeling quite sad.. maybe going out alone tml after sch wan to buy some clothing after giving my clothing out alreadi..

was thinking whether should i blog or just carry on writting my formal report.. but i just cant think of wad to write and cant concentrate, so might as well blog all my unhappiness things..

at this period of time i am so busy tat i got lots of report, tutorial to do.. and yet things happened at this time.. i told ying ying tat sometime i really dunno whether to listen or not to listen wad my bro say.. i cant slp on sun cause i guess something is going to happen again.. so received a msg from my aunt this afternoon, and i totally break down in sch.. wad i told ying ying is true..

As a sister, i really dunno wad to do.. crying alone at home, feeling so sad.. my aunt call mi just now, she cried too.. i hate to make decision i really dunno who i want.. in order to avoid all this decision how i wish i was 21yrs old now, i can live on my own, do things which i like..

i need some of my father information but where e hell is him.. wanted to apply something but cant even find him how am i going to apply.. mother no more and father now equal to no more.. u know how sad i am right now, wanted to apply something but no one..

had prac in e afternoon and i am so glad tat i have joesph chan who is our OSRM prac teacher.. at least someone who can joke wif, laugh wif not like ng su ling.. thankx for making mi tat hr full of laughter.. going to consult him during holiday and ask him teach us OSRM..

went to work after e make up by ng su ling.. e guy told mi something, 3 letter word.. omg.. i am sorry but i just dun like you.. keep asking mi to call him.. i really dunno wad to do.. feel so stress, actually he wanted to wait for mi to end work..

I am feeling so sad and down now.. i still hope something, but where is it.. Gaps has gone further and further away instead of going nearer.. is just like earthquake happening..

Sunday, May 18, 2008

feeling dizzy

shall not really update.. actually everything went veri smoothly for mi today except e evening time. went out wif yanteng and koo jee in e afternoon, went queentown 1st, den after went to bugis with yanteng to sim lim square to get something and went for dinner together.. den koo jee was so blur tat she thought she got meeting today but in e end not today..

something happened.. but dunno how to say it out.. is like always gt something happened i can call him and tell.. but after somethings happened i cant call le.. so shall keep it to myself den..

dunno wad happened to mi feeling so dizzy, ate panadol also no use.. after awhile i found myself lieing on e floor.. no one at home except my sis who is sleeping.. even i am seeing things now which made mi veri dizzy.. but cant slp yet, cause dl something..

really hope tat tat things will disappear from mi now.. i no longer and call and talk wad happened..

~TireD~TireD~

Went work early in e morning, help my auntie wif her work stuff.. Left at 3 plus, wait for my uncle to come fetch us to bugis.. i went to work while they went walk walk..

tiring, one after another.. working was fun, chat alot.. den in e evening time daphne and roseless came down cause all of them going out cause 1 of e ex staff going to leave for work for 1 yr.. but i dunno tat person..

oh, i did something gd yesterday and i will always do something gd.. went to breadtalk to buy e bread which is donation for e 'Sichuan'. Did not bring much $ wif mi, so onli donated $10.. my auntie going to temple today to donate, cause their is 1 temple where pple can donate.. den later i going to pack some clothing for maymar.. find them veri poor thing den mi, so i am going to help them as much as i can..

cannot blog much, cause need to finish up all my report, tutorial.. later going out wif yanteng and koo jee.. must have happy time wif them..

Getting to hate my OSRM leturer, one class suffer not enough, drag all e classes down..

Saturday, May 17, 2008

Mentally and Physically tired

Yes, i am getting tired on lots of things, tired tat there is something which i feel like saying it out but i did not say, cause i am tired of arguing or pehaps quarreling so i choose to keep quiet..

let talk abit about sch today.. 8am again.. slept in e MRT again.. 1st lesson was pure pure physics.. did not really pay attention to every fri last lesson period, dunno y too, just feeling i cant take it anymore.. but e teacher was damm funny, we ask him to use a mouse to point yet he use his microphone..omg, he dunno wad is a mouse??

YING HUI is feeling so stress now, can anyone tell mi how am i going to relieve stress.. i really cant take it.. my mind is so full now tat there re lots of things i dun wish to think.. like tonight dinner, i cant even think wad i wan to eat, i eat anything..

sometime i really cant take it tat i really feel like dropping sch.. i am slow in learning.. i always love fri alot cause thinking tat sat and sun gt no sch i am so happy.. but sometime i really hope tat i can be a happy person on fri yet there is something always pull my mood down.. dunno y there is also something where i cant achieve wad i wan.. it is so difficult?? there is something which i cant put down still, maybe is just a mattar of time..

my tears as nv stop.. i really cherish wad i have during e past and i will always remember e happy times..

dunno wad happen to my com gt virus.. i am sick so does my com..

anyway i felt sad for e pple in sichuan, my auntie company going to donate clothing to them.. so shall pack all my clothing out early in e morning and give them, cause they need it more den i do..

tml going to work in my auntie office follow by famous amos, will be damm tired.. but gt force by my auntie.. hopefully my com is getting better..

been telling myself to go out after sch for a walk to distress but i cant find anytime..

Thursday, May 15, 2008

Back pain

oh, 1st time i am so early..so shall blog when i am still awake.. going to slp early today..and 1st time in this week i am having my dinner at home. Sch start as early as 8am in e morning and till 6pm.. tired, tired.. 2 practical today and it took 6hr.. dun like odd week.. as usual i hate OSRM alot, e teacher like cannot stop awhile like tat de, i dun even understand at all la.. always give mi so much headache, hate e leturer and e module.

After prac when to find si jing their class, cause wanna go see e 8yr old boy.. omg, e boy got attitude lor, give us face.. but e mother look so young look like his sis.. but e mother veri friendly say bye bye to us.. but he gave lots of trouble during e experiment.

Well, having a bad day in sch almost everyday, cause was so angry of someone, has lots of things to complain.. and not onli mi who re angry wif e person.. other pple and lecturer also dun like.. how am i going to survive for nearly 2yrs more.. so shall keep quiet in case i talk to her i will quarrel wif her..

oh yeah, my back suddenly so pain this 2 days, dunno wad happened, but veri painful.. was so tired tat i wanted to slp in MRT but cause my back so pain tat i cant slp..

oh, guess wad am i going to do next?? all my report and tutorial.. 6 reports.. cause 6 module wif 6 practical.. going to finish everything by this week.. chiong..

Process Instrumentation Report
Corrosion Science Report
Material Science Report
Environmental Studies Formal Report
BIA report
OSRM report
BIA tutorial

Feeling stress

I am still feeling very stress since e start of e sch.. seriously i am not e onli one who re stress, leanna, chu zen, etc is also feeling stress too..

Tutorial day today, after tat went for our gems.. as predicited our gems end early again.. After gems took e same MRT as leanna.. and in e mrt, all we talk abt was studies.. was talking on which report have to hand it when, wad must we do or study etc.. talking abt this everyone of us feel stress le...

b4 work when to walk walk awhile 1st, manage to find a big cup but no cover, trying to find still.. find to work wif a tired face cause i am tired.. didnt even one to see tat guy and luckily i am busy too.. 5plus gt pple order 58 gift box den 20 silver box.. lol.. den keep dropping everything.. den help to pack tat we gt no time to finish some of e things..

Gonna chiong alot of my hw this coming week le.. my target is to finish up everything this week.. can i??

Misses something. the something is _____.

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

Just finished finding some of my info for my tutorial tml..

Went to sch as usual, still feeling physically and mentally tired.. BIA is e most earliest prac tat we end of all.. After sch went to work.. feeling so tired, but as long as their is pple to talk to i am ok wif it..

gosh, e guy gave mi his no, and i throw it away, and tml i am working, how am i going to face him.. did closing today again.. keep practicing on my closing.. just realised tat roslee stay near mi..

tired of blogging.. was chatting wif jason just now. omg, i thought i can have e 3 weeks break look like i cant even have e break.. everyday i have to spend my time on studying.. full 3 weeks of study which mean, if i go out to play, i have to stay overnight to study..

Hate sch for giving mi so many stress..

Tuesday, May 13, 2008

Well, i am back to continue where i stop yesterday, thought of finishing up but seriously i was too tired to do it.

Sat:

After all e games and discussion on some issue wif neil, we had supper, after tat help to clean up everything. den went back to our sleeping area, den help tricia wif e distribution of our camp t-shirt. gosh, e size is so big, took S but still big. had a prize presentation for e winning team and at e same time forfit for those losing team. And took a grp photo wif our camp shirt. After tat went to had a bath wif tricia and xin ying at FC 5 there. So dark and scary. After bath, wanted to go to club hse to take something, but did not bring e key along, so on e way met zheng kang den just nice he got key.

Den we went back to our classroom and chatted together sort of bonding with each other. Had lots of time talking. pple involve re xin ying, tricia, han hong(funniest guy), zheng kang and vivy..

Sun:

was involved in e station master for SP race. after breakfast went to our respective station.. and i was so tired tat i slept on e chair while waiting. after SP race, went to clear all our stuff and had a debrief 1st. took a few grp photos.. shall wait for vivy for those photo 1st.

After everything, we went to jurong entainment centre to eat jap food, pple went re tricia, dilyse, xin ying , zheng kang and visha. had alot of fun chatting and having our lunch. after tat went to work, took e same train as zheng kang cause e both of us stay in e east. had lots of fun chatting in e MRT too..

Overall, really nice to know my new committee member and some of u re nice pple..looking forward to working wif all of u in e future. a fun committee to work wif together.

yesterday work was veri tired, all of them thought wad happened to mi, just tat i did not sleep. omg, e guy gave mi something again, den he brought cookie, den just nice got 1 customer buy gift box, so i told juli tat i pack e box.. ask juli to go.. den daphne told mi tat he quite sad..

oh, yesterday was also Mother Day, but did not have e time to get anything for them.. Sorry... give mi some time..

Today:

felt veri tired in school due to e 1 day did not sleep.and i always hate Mon alot alot.. Some unhappiness things happened in sch, cause i was unhappy of something.. after sch, went to tampines central for GRC meeting.. den met ken, so went in wif ken, den realise tat so many pple come for e meeting.. but no comment for e meeting cause all of them were so fierce.. e way they say e way they look.. after tat went for supper at tecc mac.. pple went re joanna, min min, steven and their boss.. cause all of them went for e meeting..

do i look old, their boss ask mi whether am i working tml.. omg.. i still studying lor.. yawning now, sleeping soon..

still feeling veri stress, pple around mi giving mi pressure..

sometime i really dunno wad to say, i am speechless, having been asking myself is tat e real name. cause suddenly i dunno who am i..

Monday, May 12, 2008

Just finished my practical report, veri dead now. Didn't slp yesterday night.

Yesterday went to Leo camp after my work. Felt so weird when going there, cause there is some of e committee member which i dun know, cause i MIA for veri long le. the person i know was onli neil, tricia, vivy, xin ying.

but as e camp goes by i know all e committee member le, some of them can be nice but there is still some, haix.. Andrew came at night, well, he still looks e same, esp his character. had performance in e evening, so andrew as usual see gals again la, den he ask mi and neil togther wif him sit on e chair infront see who is pretty. den pple thought mi and andrew together cause we seems close.. LOL..

had games, such as candle war, gosh, e wax hit onto mi and was so painful. den neil did ask mi how i find e new batch of committee..

omg, i realise tat when i type this i really fall asleep, i think i should go slp now, shall continue tml den.. tml busy day for mi once again. after sch going to tampines central cc for youth day meeting.

Saturday, May 10, 2008

today is fri, and is also e last day of e week for sch, i always want to b happy on e fri, cause next day dun need to go sch. But sometime when i wan to be happy something will pull down my mood.

Thank faizah for accompany mi to hand up my LOA and to e club hse to put something. Was so mad playing e hp game in sch. Thank to my classmate who will always bring some joy and laughter.

Den my auntie requested a big cup, she claim tat e one i gave her last yr was not big enough, so went alot of place, searching up and down and cant find a big cup. Anyone saw it?? was so tired searching but i still went cc for meeting. Today meeting was ok, had some fun chat too.. den went over to talk to patrick they all too.. alex brought his friends down too.. but too bad xin ying cant come down today. Finally i gt to see cassandra and y2, thought of having fun wif them, but in e end i cant... So sorry..

What i can say now is, i am getting to hate alot alot of driver. They think is nice to play on e road, have they ever think that wad happened if they knock into someone? i have seen lots of bad driver, they onli think is fun to play. I seriously hate pple who play on e road. Maybe i am just not a human being, pple ignoring wad i say, dun listen to mi. have learnt my lesson and shall keep my mouth shut.

Whatever u wan i give you, as long as you are happy, i dun mind. i really dun wish to quarrel, but i dunno y whatever i did also wrong. Is it a gd thing tat i know you. maybe things may happened in months le, but there is still something. Dun wish to say out cause i might just get scolded again.

Like wad i told cassandra just now when i am sad, i will listen to e jokes and music.

Japter is really a nice guy, and thankx for trying to make mi laugh, and thank for lending mi your phone to play my favourite game. I really like playing tat game.

Should have choosen to go leo camp, think i will be much happier there. Anyway tml going to work early in e morning after tat going for camp le.

Thankx suat hoon for e card and flower, i love it.

ALL I CAN DO NOT IS TO WAIT AND WAIT, MAYBE WAIT UNTIL 1 YR, 2 YRS, 3 YRS LATER I STILL HAVEN GOT WHAT I WANT

Thursday, May 08, 2008

Stress

this word keep appearing in my mind which is 'Stress'. This stress have been increasing and increasing since i am yr 1. starting from sch until now, either i go work or i will go out alone after sch when i nv work. although i dun really like to go out alone but no choice, cause i am really feeling veri stress, i dun wan to see any more books when i reach home.

From e day i start sch, i have been crying every night cause e word stress too..

i really cannot take it, i just hope tat i can b a happy person after i left e sch. having bad headache cause of e 3hr lecture of OSRM. After sch meet steven den we go out together for awhile.

So sorry, for throwing my mood at you. Maybe i am veri sensitive ba, i hate pple to say that i slp so late or pple who say i dun slp.. i know wad i am doing.. i reach home at 12pm after my work, giving myself 1hr to bath and finish up my hw, den i went to slp after tat.. Like wad i have said i will slp early tonight..

I am alreadi feeling veri stress by all my sch work, i dun wish pple around mi to give mi some stress too.. i really wan to be a happy person after sch.. even if i go out alone i also dun mind..

Met xin ying and alvin at arcade.. omg, whenever i see them i am so happy.. cause they really veri loving.. how i wish i have a bf who is like alvin. go out after sch for a walk in order not to feel so stress..

Anyway thankx to all my friends for their concern.. my head is really damm painful, i cant absorb anything now.. i really feel like going out now.i have yet to go to east coast which i wanted too..

Just finish touching up on my practical report. Went sch e whole day today for tutorial still feeling quite giddy and bad headache dunno y..

Went to work today again, omg, everybody tease mi again.. and i am so stress when someone opp is seeing mi.. but work still carry on for mi.. quite tiring for mi today lots of things to memorise but thankx juli for writing everything down for mi.. did closing today, close e cash etc, guided by juli.

Den this sat going to open e shop alone 1st.. cause juli say daphane will always be late.. omg, seriously i nv open a shop b4... how?? anyone can accompany mi go, suddenly i felt so scared if e guy is there again..

den wei li and juli ask jason b my part time bf.. lol.. i dun wan..

I really almost break down today cause of suzie, she is actually a person who always find us to talk too cause i think onli famous amos pple talk to her.. den think she nv eat medicine, den she started scolding all of us, omg, so scary... i am so scared, whenever she walk towards we will try to hide somewhere.. i did cry abit cause i was so scared.

Going to slp soon, early sch for mi tml.

Wednesday, May 07, 2008

tired, just finish studying and preparing my tutorial for tml to present.

onli went sch for prac today, went to work after that. i really find that e way to relax myself is to go out and work.. had so much fun chatting with jenny and wei li.. talk abt lots of things. Juli went to UOB to help out le, den jason leaving end of this month for his NS. So left wif wei li, so during june holiday she say she need our help to help her run shift.

truthfully i think i am having lots of stress, put e cookie in e oven but keep 4getting abt e timing, after awhile den remember tat i haven turn e time. omg, e person gave mi something to eat again, i really dun feel like working there le, tat guy keep talking to mi.. ah, wonder tml wad he going to give mi again.. haix.. den went to buy dinner, den for no reason, tat shop gave mi discount. y is everyone so friendly??

Going for leo forum from 5-7 june, wont be in Singapore. tml going to attend leo short meeting abt this coming camp. Will be having camp from this fri-sun, but i going on sat after my work until sun. den afternoon have to go to work, so week for mi once again.

Going to slp le, gt to go sch tml and gt work after tat..

Got to help joanna something on e GRC Youth Day, lots of things to fill up.. Jiayou ba=)

Monday, May 05, 2008

Took MC today cause not onli my leg pain but i am having a veri bad headache and veri giddy.. went to see doc and and he say i suffer a bit of migrain.. cause i am seriously veri stress now.. got 2 days MC, but tml i going sch for prac den gt work in e evening. oh, no one in my family know i went to see doc, told them tat i go sch today but i did not..haix

Later going to study awhile, den took medicine and rest 1st.. got lots of report yet to finish it. Luckily i have a job now which help mi to distress, if not i will be studying e whole day. Some more pics below. this week is e 4th week of sch le.. in 7th week time is my exam le. die die.. think i am going to study veri hard during June holiday although i am work and camp. make e 3 weeks meaningful for mi.. got 7 modules all together and 3 weeks. So every week in 1 day going to study 1 module, which mean i need to finish studying 1 modules in 3 weeks time. JiaYou ba.

Will be going out to study during holiday, anybody wan to study free free to join mi.

Miss seeing someone, must wait until when??

Had a nice outing with e guides pple yesterday, went k box together and had dinner together.. a pity tat some of them cannot make it. went pastamania to have dinner and shu chun wanted to drink wine, so we order a bottle of wine and we drank.. Some photo, other blog e other time, veri tired..

yeah, taken at k box, a very nice place and very comfortable

Picture at subway

Gave the left hand side cookie to most of the people, the right one to someone. talking about this made mi boil again. it has e word 'Happy' on it. Blame it on mi for doing somethings ba.

my injured leg, it looks bad right?

Went to sim lim square in e afternoon wif my sis to get memory card. Change new phone, cause i sign up a plan for my sis to use, den her hp is new one, so i am using it. after went for a short shopping den went to work. when will my leg b ok? it is still veri painful. had alot of chat and laughter while working, this is e working environment which i like.

but there is somethings which i dun like lei. a guy actually treat mi eat something.. and he is selling noodle opp our shop.. got tease by so many pple today.. ah, dun even dare to face outside. Didnt even touch e things that he gave mi.. die la, told juli tat i wan to go back compass point.. how am i going to face him?

Most probably should be taking MC tml, feeling quite giddy, sleeping after this and my leg is getting so painful.. there is a qns in my mind which i want to ask, but i got no courage..is just a week have past, but i think tat tat is veri long..

Saturday, May 03, 2008

My leg is alreadi in pain, and still got pple keep nagging at mi.. really feel like concentrate on my studies also cannot..

as if i fall down is wad i want?? as if everything is my fault.. blame on my stupid leg la.. fall down also get scolded.. nv go work today cause my leg pain also get scolded by my auntie.. i am so tired by all of your scolding.. either pple scolding mi or making mi feel sad..

anyway i know wad i am doing, i did sleep.. i hate pple who say i nv sleep stay overnight to study.. and you re not staying wif mi, how you know whether i got sleep alot..

Sometime i became e innocent person, something re not e truth but some pple will choose to listen and in e end i got scolded for no reason.. sometime i realise that i am being scolded for things which i have nv done.. i felt so tired explaining things is like i am pushing e blame when i am not..

i am alreadi very stress in my stuides alreadi, 6 chemistry modules, 6 chemistry prac.. all i do was tutorial and Report.. and my individual report is slowly coming in le.. and mi and leanna going to use our break time to go library and borrow all e books which we re going to use for our exam which is straight after our holiday..

going to distress, going out wif e guides later... going k box, going for dinner and going shopping etc etc.. although my leg is pain but i am going to enjoy myself..

anybody wanna go east coast, feel like going there to shout, going to enjoy e breeze, getting rid of everything in my mind except studies and friends...

I am too pain to actually blog a proper one..

today is just a bad day for me, don't know what happened.. but b4 tat wanna wish Ying Chee and Sandra happy b'day..

Fell down in sch today, and e pain is getting more and more pain.. meet yanteng at bugis for shopping.. b4 tat went to guardian to get something to apply on my leg.. went to famous amos to sit down and apply e medicine.. thankx pple for your help..

was so much better after applying, den went shopping.. either e shirt is too expensive or i dun like e shirt.. in e end gt myself a pyjamas..too many pyjamas le.. get something for someone which choose e sticker with the word happy, telling him not to feel so stress in work.. but guess everything was just a.. it was stupid of mi, trying veri hard to do something..

after which went cc for meeting and e mrt break down, so late for meeting.. is getting so painful tat tears came out..

I am alreadi in pain and yet someone actually made mi felt more sad.. if you don't appreciate it den 4get it, just take it tat i was so stupid.. or if i were to get you something, i have to buy it for everyone too so tat everyone can share..

Some promise have been break and it will nv be back again.. i hate someone who promise mi something yet nothing have been shown.. Sometime like wad somebody has say, somethings cannot say 'Sorry'. to mi, there is also something which u say sorri is of no use.. but i am accepting e sorry.. As long as you re happy, tat is my job..

took mi half and hr to walk home, was so pain tat i cried.. and someone hurt mi when i am in pain. tat is so painful.. trying to clean my wound and right now i am crying cause veri pain, taking a rest..

Feeling veri sad at this moment.. Hopefully i will be better tml..

No one seem to understand mi, get scolded from my grandma for reaching home late as if i want it.. get scolded for not sleeping yet, cause was cleaning my wound how to sleep.. later if tell her i fall down get scolded.. today is really damm bad day for mi..

Thursday, May 01, 2008

Is the starting of May, time may flies, but there is still something which is slow.. When will i ever get?

School as usual yesterday, went school for tutorial and gems. Don't like e odd week tutorial cause of e lecturer. After tutorial went for gems, as expected our gems end early again.. 1.45pm end instead 3pm. had lots of chat wif leanna and si jing on our way up to business block, which took us 15min to get there.

After gems intending go bugis to walk again, but jenny call mi to go OUB get something, so went there to take something and head back to e shop.. some new opening shop again.. i think e Basement is full of food, everywhere is food and is getting more and more food..

Still not feeling well, still cough, block nose, e whole day.. felt so giddy when i do dropping.. den suddenly i received like 7msg from e same person.. i think kelvin got nothing to do.. he say make cookie must smile but i am so sick tat i cant laugh.

took cab home yesterday, cause was feeling veri sick need to get home and slp early..got my pay yesterday.

Oh yeah, i am getting lolly, is a soft and chewy lolly wif smarties on it, for my supernova friends and my last yr classmate.. Den maybe see got anything i can get for myself..

oh ya, i count e stock yesterday and i gt it all correct, yeah.. going to count stock for today again.. in e learning process of become e shift manager for e day..

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