Haven't been blogging for a week le. Didnt do much things except as usual go to sch and study. Had our YEC meeting quite late last month which is only last friday, cause rezal got his reservists. So happy to be able to see most of time and had alot of fun chatting and disturbing each other. Our YM Michelle was there for the meeting also, she is also a very nice gal, who will sit in for our meeting whenever she is free. I got nominated for the PAYM award , dead, I told them I don't want but they don't want to listen to me.
Last Saturday, had SuperNova camp meeting at least more people came and we were able to go through the meeting smoothly. After that we stayed and study. Someone wanted to study but always end up not studying, haiz. After that all of us had dinner 1st before watching movie. There were total 8 of us who went to watch, jinguang, shi chang, kelvin yeo and ong, alezec, hyder, suriani. The movie was 3 hr long, after that we went to eat mac and we had sundae ice-cream on a sunday.
Well, exam is coming got to really really study and my last paper is on the 4th of March that is like in 1 month time i won't be in school already. On wed, went for leo agm, had alot of fun seeing all of them again. I sort of miss them. After that all of us went for dinner at Anstons. I have been going there to eat quite frequently.
Yesterday, no school, so celebrated leanna b'day at Anstons once again. After that we went walk walk, play and had lots of fun. Then went to cc to study with jinguang. Once again, he was busy doing his CSC account so he did not study again. They are going to watch the movie today again. Is the 3rd time for jinguang, 2nd time for Shi chang but too bad I won't be able to join them. I was told by someone not to go for my camp today.
Today is my Soka Kenshu 2010, is a 2D1N camp at Senja. Going to reach there at 11.30 to practice for our 80sec frame then going to register for our exam. I got no confident at all for the exam later but luckily is open book test but i also need to know where to flip enough 1hr30min is not enough for me.
Guess, tml after my camp going to study with him. Anyone who want to study please date me out. For shopping, please date me after 4 March.
Sunday
woke up early in the morning to help out in Zone 4 and 5 ENB. Really thanks choo kim, alezec, jinguang, shi chang and timothy for coming down to help out in registration even though is not a YEC event. Actually didn't want to go but I cant cause I know I was given a task to do.
After that we went over to zone 3 and 6, sat there to chat and have our lunch there. Actually was intending to cancel my work today but it was quite last minute. After that had some time before my work, so went walk walk with jg.
Reach my work place, was feeling really cold, keep drinking and hugging hot water, later on got fever and until now actually I am still feeling uneasy.
Recently just finish watching a show called "海派甜心". Go watch the show you haven, but all the episode is not out yet. I think what i feel now is what the girl in the show is thinking. This show is funny and yet some part is sad until I cry. From this show what I should learn is to learn how to give up.
Jg also introduce a movie to us yesterday cause "3 idiots" but is a Hindu show. So we might be going to watch coming sat and he is going to watch the 2nd time. Anyone want to watch also can follow.
Monday
today will be last day with michele but I really feel like sending her to the airport but I also dun want to cry think will make my flu worse.
I seriously seriously hate my life so much, I dun want to stay at home cause I feel much more happier outside. I really really scared I am going back to last time but I have been telling myself, what most of them want to see in me is what I am now. Must be surprised why am I home so early today, actually after the event I really don't feel like coming home, but everyone see how tired I am, they told me to come home and rest, so I came back and I felt so unhappy.
I think I am really very STRESSED now. The STRESSED symptoms is coming up.
Today health screening was quite boring, I dun see the purpose why we should be there where they request so much helper and we have like 15 helpers but we felt like doing nothing. It was quite disappointing. I thought learning stage will never end. I do know that those pple are good in this, so I personally actually request whether I can follow them door to door for the health screening but without much thinking they actually rejected me. I seriously don't know why we can't learn, was so angry about this. Kevin went up to take photo, they say it their policy not to let so many people in.
It is seriously waste of my time, although I am not feeling well but belinda put me as in-charge so even when I am sick I still rush down. Before that they still say 15 people was not enough luckily I did not waste more people time.
But I really want to thanks all this YEC people who have brought me some laughter, support me and care for me and they are people like shi chang, jg, desmond, suriani, hyder and verlyn.
FYP Presentation is finally over
Was feeling so tired and sick the last few days. Had my FYP presentation today, couldn't really answer all the qns, ah, but anyway is already over, should not think back. After the presentation went down to ion, to meet my famous amos friends. Went to ion wait for An qi to end work den meet feeqah, liyana and michele. Went walk walk 1st den went to breeks for dinner, Juli join us too.
We treat Michele eat cause it will be our last dinner with her before she go back to Philippines, miss her too. After dinner, feeqah and liyana left 1st den the remaining of us went walk walk and wait for wei li and daphne to end work den we all go home together.
Had alot of fun today although I am still not feeling well, my throat is very pain now. I am sick but I still have to act very strong, cause tml and the following day is very important to me. Tml got health screening from 8am-5pm and I am in-charge for the YEC and other sch helpers, den the following day I am going to be emcee for the bursary, therefore I really need my voice, if not I will disappoint them.
Just wish to complete all the assignment. Just manage to complete AOC assignment, just finish doing on my part for my FYP presentation.
Still yet to finish CGMP, still got abit to go, all the experiment datasheet not completed yet. Suddenly there is endless of things to do and I don't know how to complete them.
My FYP presentation most likely is this Friday, and we are going to do a trial run on this Wednesday. So scary, hopefully teacher don't ask those difficult difficult qns if not it will bring our grade down. After one year of FYP, we have finally reach the last phase.
My hour of slp is getting lesser and lesser. Average I am only sleeping 3hr per day which include like weekend. Cause most of my weekend are pack with event already.
Going to sleep, got to wake up at 5.30am. My lesson later is all the way to 5pm. Needs lots and lots of energy.
For the past 1 week, had been very busy that i got no time to breathe. Last Sunday, meet shi chang and we went to check the percussion price for YEC, later on alezec came. After that alezec company me to go and collect the drinks etc. So we took MRT there and meet my uncle there. After that went to jinguang house to collect newspaper then transport all the things to the cc. but really thank my uncle for the help he has been helping for 3 events already. After that we went to bedok 85 to eat cause 1 of our maple friend ask us go eat. Had a very full dinner cum supper and after that he send us home.
Monday to Wednesday have been going to work after school. Thursday went for SD study meeting, before that have dinner with chu zen at bt panjang plaza and is my 1st time entering in the shopping centre. After that we walk to Senja. The study meeting was quite fruitful and the kenshu is only few days away but I still got quite a number of material not study yet. I really hope I can pass the exam. Yesterday went to NTU straight after sch, to settle abit of our FYP stuff then came back to school to have our lunch at Pizza hut to celebrate Mui Hoon b'day. After that went for supernova meeting but in the end was cancelled last minute, cause only 2 turn up. I was also feeling quite tired at that time.
Today, went to buy Michele present cause she is going back Philippine already, really miss her, the time where we go out together and have fun at work. After that went for SYOG Audition, when we reach there then I realised that there is lots of people participating, is really alot of people. Well, now have to wait for the results, hopefully I got in and I realised that I am having interest in dance already and now I just have to chant that hopefully my leg does not give me any problems.
Tml morning going to meet shi chang to discuss about supernova stuff 1st then after that got to rush down to TSC for study meeting. Cause tml 3 other of my friend and me are going to share the study meeting, so we got to practice how are we going to share the topic. Quite nervous.
Had lots of laughter today
Initially was suppose to meet shi chang early in the morning to go check the price for percussion but in e end he cant make it so we are meeting on sunday. Went to TSC in the afternoon but before that went to print out the study meeting material 1st. Went for leader meeting, had lots of fun, but i must admit that my drawing really suck and on the spot itself i seriously dunno what to draw also. Later on our youth chief, leonard koh which is also my kor gave a short speech and we were given a new t-shirt to wear.
it ended around 5.45pm, after that took cab with elaine and karen to ICA for youth leader meeting but me and karen had to reach earlier to practice the song. The youth leader meeting was good, i feel that there is still lots and lots of things to learn to become a district leader.
was sabo by leonard koh during his speech about our new t-shirt, so we actually stand up. Today i also sign up for the kenshu exam which will take place on the 30th-31st Jan (2 days 1 night). Beside that me and chu zen went to buy 8 SYM ticket for our friends to watch too.
Going to meet shi lei later 9am at city hall, so going to wake up early again. After that meeting shi chang to check the price den going to collect the drinks and back to cc.
last day of holiday.
Wow, time really flies, so fast is 1st January 2010.
For the year 2009, i feel that I am much happier cause I have grown up alot alot, everybody say that to me that is why you can see some changes in people who treat me. Suddenly I feel that they are right beside me now just like last time.
Went for a countdown organized by Punggol East. Before that in the morning went swimming with yt, the weather was so cold suddenly so didn't stay long. After that went to Tampines 1 to have our lunch, but we spend like 30min waiting for our food etc and the service provided by them is really bad. After that went to meet belinda at Tampines inter, den walk over to the library to meet jinguang, desmond, alezec. Don't know what happened so many people take 27, we waited for 3 bus and none of them we can get up, so looking at the time we will be late if we continue waiting, so in e end we took a cab down.
Had a enjoyable day with them although they always bully me. Actually I was feeling so tired to go but looking at the number of people who can make it, i went and considering belinda is the only gal. Suddenly, all the active members are all the guys except me that why everyone ask me your YEC you are the only girl.
Was having block nose and can't stand the smoke of the otah, until now my nose is still pain and feeling like dry dry like that. So, i walk away for some time and went to the back to enjoy the breeze and at the same time reflect what I have done for 2009.
The event ended around 1.20am, so we help to load all the left over drinks and tidbits onto the car den we walk to punggol east cc. Guess their leg too long le, walk especially fast so during interval I will start to run and catch up with them. After that alezec and kelvin took a cab, den i took a cab with jinguang and desmond. I always tell them that I am old enough to go back myself but as a guy is their responsibility to ensure that I reach home too.
Anyway during normal days you all can treat me as a girl but when it come to event I can do a guy job. I know you can't carry all those things but nothing can stop me from doing all this things. I am also a person now who don't depend on people, i am not the person who I want people to drive me around. No mattar how long the distance is, I will walk. I know you care for me but there is something that I will always be different from you.
Sometime I really wish the timing could stop cause I really do not want to let go.
2010
1. Hope to pass my last year in school and graduate and able to find a good job
2. I want to help people out there who really need help
3. I want to spend more time and participate in SSA activities, district meeting, zone meeting etc.
4. Hope to get everyone back to YEC, the people are getting lesser and lesser
Still cant think of the rest yet.
