Feeling Sick and i am here blogging..skip one of my leture in e morning, rest abit more at home.. went for prac in e afternoon.. we finish e prac super fast.. was quite angry this few days in sch, cause i really hate someone to do this when i am feeling sick.. after prac went to leo club booth, as promise to help them in e cca booth.. i really dun feel like describing how it looks like..i really feel like i should not go cause everything seems weird.. a cut from my hand he notice it and ask wad happened, ask mi dun stand cause later my leg pain, ask mi whether i gt take medicine y i keep coughing.. ask mi ask that.. i really find so weird... how?? is so easy to chat wif him in msn but not e real person.. haix..b4 going to work, went to e skaters booth to look for their president, to tell them to join e in-line skating.. thankx for their gd reply.. work today suddenly give mi a suprise.. is like wei li start teaching mi to count stock and to record some paper work, den i realise that they want mi to run shift.. cause juli and wei li cannot take it keep working full shift, so they re teaching mi everything.. tml gonna learn all e counter thing, closing cash, bank in cash etc.. Someone:
Don't get angry, if not you will get older and older.. try to relax yourself also, dun stress yourself too much..if they make u angry go da xiao ren..i really dunno wad happened to mi lei..First, i 4got to take out my key and leave it at e door and i went to sch, luckily no one rob my hseSecond, my period came twice this monthThirdly, my leg got swollen, dunno got bite by wad, alreadi like 5 days, instead of recovering it became worse, if still like tat going to see doc le..wad happened to mi esp e key??? i thought i lock e door b4 i came out but i left it there wihout even noticing it.. have been thinking e whole night wad happened to mi..
Feeling so sick and tired to blog, so shall make it a fast entry..As usual went to work yesterday, had lots of fun talking abt e ghost stories.. when e sales is like not even hitting 1.5k we still dare to laugh and talk.. Work up late today, cause was feeling so sick tat i cant really sleep... onli really feel asleep like 4am in e morning, so could not get up.. den took cab to school.. my voice so bad.. really bad.. long lesson today again.. hate every mon, was quite angry of something.. i really dun like pple who made mi angry when i am feeling sick.. After school, dennis ask mi to get fruit juice to drink, cause i look veri pale when i am in sch.. thankx for dennis concern, took mrt back wif him.. went to tecc to meet joanna, rezal and wee siong.. thankx joanna and steven for e sore throat medicine.. rezal 4got abt today so he took a cab down. so mi, joanna and wee siong went 1st, den came back to cc to discuss, and we went e 2nd round.. den we went for 3rd round by steven..since someone can precdict what i am going to write, so i shall write.. "stop asking e cat to follow mi".. and that someone say that my voice look like "mickey mouse".. although i like but i am not ok..Sometime i am thinking whether am i myself in some situation, in some particular time.. suddenly i feel like i am doing things which i don't like.. kept asking my qns, but somehow e qns cannot be said out onli can keep it to myself..maybe you re more happier wif your friends. keep telling myself i cant cry, not even a tears but i still break down..Alot pple have been asking mi this qns, How come i got so much time tat i can study, work, supernova, yec etc.. actually to be truth, i am really tired, cause i cant really breathe.. but wad to do, that is e onli thing where i can really occupy myself, making myself veri busy den i dun think so much things as wad i am thinking now.. feel like finding someone to talk to..
Was too tired to blog yesterday, so blog now..Saturday:Went my auntie office to work in e morning, woke up earlier to help them buy breafast.. Got my salary.. i really going to fell asleep, so i walk e whole room to keep mi awake 1st..my auntie office pple say i slim down, yeah, cause of all e study stress and working stress..work until 1.30pm den after tat went bugis to walk walk.. cause later will be working.. poor mi, sick, sore throat, think veri heaty inside, feeling veri veri hot.. no appetite to eat, onli ate a little bit of bread e whole day..den my auntie brought mi to "white closet" which is also under "bysi", cause she brought something for e staff to eat, den went there to see clothing.. but most of e clothing not really suit mi although got 50% off or maybe i just not use to it.. but e staff there all veri nice pple.. den my auntie wait for my uncle awhile cause he is on his way to bugis to deliver all those clothing.. den my auntie went together wif my uncle to deliver e remaining outlet.. Went to work, e 1st reaction from jenny was that i cannot be sick cause she still need mi.. am i tat important??hahax.. so gd of them actually let mi rest, ask mi not to go to the oven, den i do dropping e whole day.. Heard from them tat fri sales is 2.2k, but yesterday sales not so gd, onli 1.7k.. tasha brought her son down 'ifah', so cute his son.. play wif his son..working in bugis can see lots of things, see how does a gd bf look like and how a bad bf look like.. but out of so many i see.. most of them re bad.. is like most of e gals also scared wad is their bf reaction, afraid that he will scold her.. everything so scared.. tat is mi too.. i will also be scared of my bf.. but of course there re still some who re not scared of their bf..Sun:Finishing up all the things shi chang request and finally i am done.. play maple awhile.. den going to work later..busy day for mi tml, sch until 6pm, den after tat have to rush down to tecc to meet joanna, rezal and wee siong, cause need to go see the place for e in-line skating.. whole day for mi tml..
Cried 2 times today
The 1st time i cried was so touch by wad qi ming said..today all of us meet in e library my DCP1A,1B 27 classmate.. den qi ming actually ask mi whether i can cope it anot.. cause we re in different stage now he cant really help mi during lesson like last yr.. I told him i am feeling veri stress, i dunno how to do.. guess wad he said? He ask mi to pass him my notes den he go home study, den he teach mi..omg, i am so touched, he actually volunteer to study all my notes 1st den e teach mi.. i really really cried while walking to another lesson..the 2nd time when i cried was when i feel something pass mi and it was a cat.. i am so scared of cat tat a little touch on my leg i cant stand it also.. really hate cats alot, must b him, yesterday scared mi wif e cat.. evil of him, ask e cat follow mi..still feel quite stress, and seriously not onli i feel stress, many of my classmates feel tat way too.. Really feel like going out and distress from all e books.. went alone shopping in afternoon 1st, den went cc to study..Met patrick in cc too.. cause they were all planning for Ngee Ann SC camp.. and patrick is also from pasir ris elias yec..felt so sad and sorri tat i cant help much during e camp, cause of my course thing... hopefully they confirm e date yet, so tat i really can help them by being e main fac..if i can skip e course i would too..anyway as a da jie jie, i am organizing a outing next sat for all e guides, yeah, most of them can come, so happy.. we going to downtowneast ehub, nv heard b4 but suggested from geok teng.. cant wait for tat day to come..
Hate crowded place, will make mi headache seeing so many pple.. Just when i actually got off e platform so many pple..hate e practical teacher alot, scolded all of us early in e morning.. say we reach there early den nv start doing e prac but wait for him.. but we have to wait for him to start our prac wad.. throwing all e temper at us.. long prac which last just nice 3hr.. went for lunch wif my last yr classmate together, since both of our class have e same time break..so happy to have lunch wif them..was so tired tat i going to fell asleep during lesson.. after school meet steven.. he wanted to watch movie, so we went to vivo city to watch movie..ok, i admit tat i fell asleep during e movie but not veri long ok.. went walk walk b4 e movie start.. after movie, he say wan to go 85 eat ba chor mi, so went there to eat.. so many cats there, den someone disturb mi wif e cat.. actually in my mind i gt lots of qns, but shall keep to myself ba.. he pass mi e mushroom and am i really happy.. or i should just start wif my new pet, like mickey and minnie mouse..recently i hate to see all my email, my email is full of things abt e GRC youth day and email from SAS regarding leo club.. and soon i will stuck in all my prac report.. felt so dead when is like onli e 2nd week of sch... there is still a long way for mi to go..
Blur ying hui, know wad i did wrong? i brought e wrong notes to school.. 4got tat is now week 2(even week), and i brought e odd week notes.. omg, luckily is like onli 2 lesson, how can i be so blur...had gems, and e time tat we walk from science blk to business blk took mi 15 min.. so we were late, but is ok, cause we end lesson at tat time.. and we seated for like 30min den class end le.. so gd lor.. so went shopping at bugis 1st.. sometime my feeling is always right.. at first, e shop which sell mickey mouse shirt is having offer.. 50% off when i went last week.. den i intending to buy but it stop mi for some reasons.. is like if 50% off is still like $20 plus.. so today i went, guess wad, i brought e shirt even cheaper, is like anything tat is below $42.90 is now $9.. and i brought 2 shirt, luckily i did not buy tat time, was so happy.. i have been thinking of buying shirt from there for veri veri long time le, but it is veri expensive.. went work after tat, and keep coughing, kept silent, talk veri less today.. working there quite stress, wif e camera staring at us, whatever we do wrong, telephone ring.. den must hit 1.5k per day.
Yawning and yawing e whole day cause i am tired. really very happy during my OSRM practical today..gosh, my leturer is damm cool, is like we re friends, we can really talk and joke around.. think i spent most of my time laughing, and he actually ask mi go take medications b4 i come for his lesson.. i am normal.. really love having his lesson.. work today again.. had some fun chatting wif jenny, wei li and juli.. will be going to work in compass point coming sun cause leana cant work.. get to see them once again..going for mac breakfast tml wif my classmate.. my hand actually got scratch by e door, when i am so blur in e morning, painful.. Keep coughing e whole day non-stop, den they say make sure i dun fall sick if not i cannot work.. Big order once again, 800 of message lolly.. all separated by different outlet.. managed to finish 150 today..Work for mi tml again, too tired to actually blog..
Lots and Lots of things to COMPLAIN about today..
Firstly, i HATE MONDAY alot and alot.. start sch and 8am and end sch at 6pmSecondly, today i have leture and tutorial for 6 MODULUES, which mean is all e MODULES that i study except for gems..Thirdly, i am so STRESS up by the CHEMISTRY, 6 MODULES of CHEMISTRY.. i really cant take it.. is just like i am going mad soon..guess my class pple is also veri veri STRESS, went for lunch and we just feel like eating.. dunno y, just feel like eating although i am not feeling veri gd still..gt bad news too, our leturer actually told us tat e 3 weeks holiday re not meant for our HOLIDAY.. guess wad is it meant for?? is actually for us to STUDY.. getting prepared for our mid semestral exam once sch reopen.. thought i can have a proper HOILDAY but is all GONE. Thankx to SP.Reach home at 7pm and i was so dead, i just throw my books one side, throwing anger on myself.. Dun feel like touching e books anymore.. how?? keep playing maple follow by viwawa, but i felt so tired le.. remembering i have tutorial to do den still need to help shi chang do something which he need by this week and mi keep working just to earn $anyway had a nice chat wif Bi Jun, was suprised tat she talk to mi, asking mi whether i still remember her..oh yes, of course i still remember you, although i am STM, but i will nv 4get a friends.. yeah, you are always welcome to come for our meeting and join in our camp.. can ask jing kai, xiao ying etc to come back too.. really had a nice chat wif Bi Jun, hope to see you soon..After sch going to work tml.. i am feeling veri stress lei, how can i feel not so stress??oh, have to plann a day to meet e skaters association, omg, when can i find myself a time, maybe wait till bernice finished her exam den we meet together wif e flea market pple..
Good Morning everyone, is 12.02am, just came back home not very long.. Finally tml is e 2nd week of sch, time flies, but sometime i think time is so slow, probably due to one thing.. As usual went to work in e afternoon, as usual dun really feel like talking alot too.. had some fun talking due to not much customers, but we do lots of dropping..need to memorise e all e tins, if not i will be veri veri blur, although i work like 2months, but i wan to show tat i know lots of things..hahax.. today sales only hit 1.4k not veri gd.. Oh yeah, haven go for injection which prevent mi from getting food posioning, is free but at orchard..think i will lost my way.. how??sch tml 8am-6pm for mi.. a long day.. after finishing things which i need to do den i going to slp.. Good luck to those who re going sch tml=)
1 week and e 1 day where i have enough slp, but still feeling sick, later going to take panandol b4 i go work.. lieing on e bed today and think lots of things, things which i miss..Miss:Year 1 classmate- argue with qi ming - qi ming help in my studies whenever i got qns which i don't know how to solve and he will teach mi until i understand- disturbing qi ming- Si jing, mui hoon, suzanna and nuan qin for all their joke and laughter- Nicholas for accompany mi study during exam period and help mi in my studiesGuides- days where we will go out together and have fun- take pics- neoprints- laughter and jokeSuperNova
- go out wif gals, my beloved ying ying and cassandra and e guys too- some of e pple who rarely see them nowSec Schoolmate- going out wif yanteng, layting and koo jee- disturbing with each other- take picssomeone- e days where we go out together- e days where we will go arcade togetherNon-living things- my beloved mushroom- my beloved totorise* got a new monkey brought by my sis from yunanyes, i got alot alot of miss... miss everyone of them.. Maybe studies is making mi real mad now.. of course there is a few miss which i cant post it yet, it will create trouble..going to study awhile b4 i go to work.
Good News: I am going to feel very sick
had difficult time sleeping yesterday, feeling quite uncomfortable.. put took panandol this morning and went to work.. Finally i send an email, but tat is some part which i wan to say.. and now i am too sick to reply wad i wan to say..during work dun feel like talking, dun feel like laughing.. just dun feel like doing anything.. after work, went alone shopping by myself.. cause i just feel like relieving some stress.. is a long time since i really walk and go to arcade where i always see pple play.. slept at 9pm and woke up, and my com is not off yet so decide to blog and going back to slp.. Need some energy to work tml...poor mi is feeling sick, feeling so uncomfortable..
End of 1st week start of sch, there is still many weeks more to come.. talking abt studies sometime i really feel like giving up, cause i really cannot take it.. Sometime i ask myself back have i really choosen e wrong course.. but this course, future not bad.. maybe tat is wad i wan, earn as much as possible to take care of my siblings.. like someone told mi this, i can just give up my studies and go work.. rest my mind in e afternoon awhile b4 i actually meet kelvin in cc.. study and did abit on my tutorial.. maybe i am rather busy tat i do not have e time to catch up wif my friends.. meet gao yang at mac and he gt someone he like.. didnt talk to him quite long too le.. Went to help out in e citizenship, was doing some notes tat i fell asleep and my pen drop den i actually woke up.. am i tat tired?? shi chang ask mi whether i am gd in chemistry? wad i can say that although i am in chemistry course now, but my chemistry sux.. had a bad runny nose and gt the feeling going to have sore throat soon le.. went to have supper after citizenship.. omg, miss y2 and cass.. yea, i agree that is a long time since we really sit down together and have a nice chat le.. everyone is busy wif our own things.. went to blk 85, together wif ee sheer.. had a gd talk wif Ee Sheer.. our mind think alike, was actually finding a playground wif swing.. I love to swing.. cannot really close my eyes while enjoying e air at night.. sing etc.. our 2nd place is East Coast, go there enjoy e breeze there, shout out wad i am feeling right now.. all this things i prefer in e night.. 'there is no more light bulb'.e guy actually sms mi today and talk lots of things which i dun feel like replying back.. i am speechless, dunno wad to say.. but for now no one can actually replace the person in my heart, although i find myself quite stupid after seeing lots of things..the moment went i reach home, tears drop due to some reasons.. can anyone tell mi whether am i stupid? to avoid thinking of more things i actually kept myself so busy tat i felt so difficult to breathe..Photos:
Xin ying and alvin.. so sweet.. i always want a bf like alvin.. my dream..
Xin ying and xin ci.. they look alike???
b'day cake tat alvin actually prepared wif xin ying family..
Family of Guides... Miss and love all of you!
Guides Family
Mi and Xin ying
Hannah
Audrey.. my beloved mei mei, although we re in e same sch now but we rarely met each other.. thankx for all e laughter..
Ying Chee.. you have been my best friend too, since sec 1s when we were in guides.. had lots of time with you..
Cui Fen.. Lovely friend.. Miss you lots..
Geok Teng... my another beloved sis..
Syahirah
Testing out of cake, was actually making it for someone.. it just made mi feel so upset, after planning lots of things..
Thankx gals for actually accompany mi.. i am looking tired..
yan teng.. my sec best friend... miss you too.
Well, 2nd post for today.. felt alseep for an hr, and wake up wif a bad headache, maybe an hr is still not enough for mi.. I really dunno how to start studying, where to start, which to start.. i need help.. i seriously need help.. i really find myself having difficulties in coping chemistry when my basic is not veri gd.. i received something from someone although i have been waiting for a few days.. but tat is not meant for mi is meant for everyone.. had a chat with kuan hon just now in msn, thankx for e encouragement and everything.. Am i going to start studying tml?? Imagine i have 6practical this sem and all need to do report.. i am going to die of doing report le..Sometime i think have i regret going SP Science course, cause SP is one of e most difficult one.. Sometime i see xin ying and alvin together i am so happy for them.. at least someone who will give each other support, encourage each other etc.. waiting for 1 day where i can really find a guy like alvin.. I just realise that i loose weight with all the studies, working etc.. having a cca is a gd thing for mi at least whenever i felt stress there is somewhere to cheer mi up to have some fun..and still i am not use to it when u call mi 'xiaoyudian' cause that is alreadi e past.. maybe i am just feeling quite weird..will upload all e photo together when i really dun feel so tired..
3rd and 4th day of School Life
Got something to complain about blogger, made e effort and time to type out my entry yesterday and is all gone due to e blogger connection.. think so.. So feeling lazy and tired to actually re type again so shall blog very brief one.. Genius story:Can u imagine a 10 yr old boy coming to our sch and taking e same course as us.. and yr 2 someone.. is e truth, next week the small boy is coming for lesson with the mother. Cause he is too short to do practical etc.. gosh, cant imagine tat at 1st but is really the truth.. smart boy, must ask him to teach mi..imagine a 10yr old boy teaching a 19yr old gal like mi.. think pple will start laughing at mi.. Wad i can say tat he is really a genius person.. cant wait to see him.. Suprised:was working yesterday, and someone actually came wif his friends and pop out infront of mi... omg, did not tell him when i working but i onli told him where i work..think he was just trying his luck and all his friends including him actually brought alot.. all of them actually brought e promotion.. did they plan alreadi? Met alezec too.. he was also suprised tat i working there.. is it abnormal?? hahax.. earn 1.8k yesterday.. e sales is improving, a gd start cause got us as a staff that will bring e sales up..start our 1st prac today cause 1 of our prac will actually clash wif a public holiday.. so, everything was study and study.. omg, the chemistry is getting so difficult that my blank actually go blank at e moment.. how?? think u will see mi taking out all my chem notes which i study last yr and study everything back again, cause i actually cant remember wad i study..was so mad today tat we took pic during prac.. I am really feeling very stress now, dunno y?? am i giving myself too much pressure?? i think got abit ba, pressure from my auntie too.. need to learn to relax, but imagine if u wan to score well, i cant even relax le..told neil tat i dun wan to be secretary anymore le.. and he gave mi this post 'CSSC co-ordinator' is it better?? i think not so much things to do ba..wad will you feel if someone will onli contact you when that somebody need help from you? when that person actually dun need you, that person can ignore everything take it as if nv know u b4?
2nd day life in sch
Is like 12.03am now and i just reach home like 20min like that.. yawning and yawing..
Not so stress today in sch, 1 of the lecturer actually talk so much nonsense early in e morning tat made all of us going to fall asleep.. had 2 practical briefing today and e teacher still ok ok.. looking forward to learn abt comestics and perfume.. nice smell.. had around 2hr of break cause practical briefing end fast..
Den we went to library and borrow VCD and watch movie again. this time we manage to get e big room where can sit alot of pple and watch e tv in comfortable.. just like at home..
had another lesson and briefing after that.. den went to work..
was so suay today.. 4get it.. met gerald in e MRT.. was so tired that i just kept quiet and stand over there... anyway still miss working in compass point.. For now, we re hiting 1.5k everyday.. and yes, we managed too..
i am really too tired to even continue blogging le.. was feeling quick sick, standing at e air-con got runny nose, having headache and sore throat.. how i wish someone is beside mi to help mi message to encourage mi to etc..
oh ya, is my mother b'day today.. i did not even have e mood or even e time to get her something.. so just wish her happy b'day will do le..
1st Day of School Life
My life in school today:
- Managed to catch the train where got not much people, so that i will have a seat and sleep until i reach school.
- Meet e gals at bus stop
- Sad that our last yr class gals separated into half, half go stage B, half go stage A
- So we went in e sch together and separated (different lecture hall)
- So, my class got chu zen, samatha, leana, faizah and poor 1 guy jackson.. but of course not onli us, still got 1 clique which come from last yr class 07..
- Although we re as a class now, but we re separated into half.. cause we dunno them they dunno us too..
- it seems so weird, veri veri weird..
- actually had onli 1 hr break but cause we had practical briefing b4 hand so 3hr break for us..
- went foodcourt 1 and saw e gals and guys which is our classmate last yr.. had a chit chat session 1st..
- den we decided to go to dover hawker centre to have our lunch suggested by samatha, and poor jackson follow us.. but he veri gd, can go out wif gals de.. he dun mind..
- went to sch library and faizah borrow dvd so we went to watch together..
oh yeah, actually 1 guy thought we from yr 1, do we look like.. is a gd thing, this show tat we re still young
Well, 1st day of sch stress for mi lor, start studying, thought we can like rest for today.. gosh, yr 2 is really different from yr 1, cant even breathe with e pack timetable i have.. a pile of notes which cost mi nearly $40, omg.. and e pile of notes is so heavy putting all of them in my bag.. seeing e pile of notes and e difficulty it makes mi faint..i think i seriously need someone to teach mi.. trying to absorb as much as i can today..
SP, science course really veri difficult to score lei..one of e teacher told us that our module actually contain 40% of JC things inside is like almost half.. and they say yr 3 will be almost all JC things.. they re training us to get into university.. but is like so difficult lor, how to really score well..
Den now the new principal actually take off e e-learning week and quiz... which mean we onli have mid semester exam in week 11.. and is like 1 test onli, if die mean die.. wa, they really gonna make us mad lor.. SP is mad of increasing its standard..
SP IS GOING TO MAKE MI MAD ONE DAY. STRESS UP BY ALL THE MODULE..
Last Day of School Holiday
Oh, wonder y i so early online and blog... hahax, when i suppose to end work at 11pm.. reach there around 12.15pm, went down straight after i bath.. mi and jason drop 1 carton for each flavour.. there is 8 flavour altogether.. e both of us pro ritex.. plus managing e oven.. Li ting and tasha help us to bang e tray and put into e bag.. is like we finish using like all e 30trays.. still miss working there, so happy tat i am back there for today onli..den slack there after we finish dropping, cause we took cab there and tasha stay at lavender there so, she is taking taxi with us there and she can go home.. anyway is company $.. let mi talk abt weird customers:there is one couple who wan double choco chip and all of us was busy, so when she ask us whether we have, we say come back around 10-15min cause is like abit under bake so need to bake like awhile more.. den they keeping seeing here and there.. den jason want to put all e tray in.. but we alreadi off 1 oven le, so 1 oven can onli contain 5 trays and we have more den tat.. so jason bang and combine 2 tray into 1.. so tat tray was e last one to put in.. den she say tat one is old de, we want e new one.. Lol.. everything is use, we damm angry of her. so she told mi wad she wan 1st, she say she will be back later.. so tasha, our supervisor, purposely combine all e tray into 1 after baking.. den when she coming we on e spot from e tray give her..and she damm hao lian take all her card out.. and she say wa, increase price le, last time i buy $3.90..den tasha told us tat $3.90 was like 5 yrs ago, den we say so poor thing, 5 yrs later den get to eat again..hahax..Leana and yan was so shocked tat mi and jason was there, they thought we come back work le, but no.. sad.. when we reach bugis was like 5pm le, so help to take out all e cookie and keep den jenny let us off.. wa.. but she clock out for us 6pm.. so went walk walk since i end so early.. going to master like daphne, she drop veri fast.. cause she work for so many yrs le.. jenny our outlet manager more pro, she drop like wind lor.. brought 2 more book while walking in bugis, 70 cents each..oh, sch start tml le, but still carrying on working.. if i really get really really tired den maybe i dun work so many days le.. work while i can still manage too..was talking to someone in msn just now, you may still talk abt e past, which is like going 1 yr le.. but i dun have e feeling for u anymore le.. still thankx for your concern..oh Ya, i am going to study 100 times more hardworking den last yr.. so, u will see mi becoming studying mad.. when i am not working, will go find someplace to study.. and i also planning like weekend to go swimming... who wan to go??
Bugis Oven spolit
Omg, thought of like sleeping awhile more cause was suppose to work at 3pm.. den suddenly tasha call say we have to go compass point work at 1pm.. den drop lots of cookies 1st den mi and jason will take cab back to bugis.. ahh.. Lol, so fast e oven give problems.. cannot slp back le.. at least i slept like 5hr yesterday.. so 11hr of work for mi today by e time i reach home should b dead tired le ba..
Ah, actually left like 4% more to lvl.. but den cannot lvl le.. see whether i bath still got time to lvl anot..
Outing with the gals(guides) and celebration of Xin Ying b'day
work at 8am today, early ritex.. no choice.. well, was so angry of my auntie today.. but i cant blog it here.. some words to say.. I am not a robot i am a human, i get veri stress and tired too.. wan to know more ask mi ba..hahax..
So happy today, have been waiting for this gals.. it have been a long time since we really go out together.. Meet the gals 5pm at bedok inter.. guess who come? got audrey, cui fen, ying chee, geok teng, syhariah, hannah, nurul.. but too bad christine and shu chun cant make it.. we took 401 to east coast..had alot of fun chatting.. share lots of things too.. they say ying chee change but i dun think so lei.. maybe cause i see her often ba..hahax..
Ah, i must admit that xin ying bf is so sweet, perfect guy lei.. So touched by wad he have done, if there is a guy who treat mi tat gd, i will be veri touched tat i burst out to tears..
planning that alvin had done:
- Plan with xin ying mother on having a chalet at east coast
- Ask cui fen for help to go out with xin ying but actually alvin and xy parents are planning everything which include cooking etc..
- xy father actually lie to her tat he wan to go buy satay bee hoon but in e end went to the chalet
- e father ask her to open e door and alvin gave her a suprise
- alvin invited all of us, hopefully will give her suprise
So loving, think they have been together for 3 yrs le.. will i ever find a bf like him.. i was so touched and i told xin ying that she veri xin fu.. got a family and bf beside her all e time and a supporting sis.. 1 of my dream is this, got family or a bf if i have to celebrate my b'day with mi.. Actually tears drop cause i was so touched by all those things..
got to know her sis xin ci and i thought she was sec 1 or 2s but she sec 4s and she is from pasir ris sec too and choir too..omg.. is like so concidence.. yeah, and i ask xin ying to come supernova to help out..
was so touched that xin ying have such a gd sis.. my sis will nv be compared to her.. really had alot of time talking.. all of us actually went to 7 eleven to buy some drinks and ate ice-cream..
Saw 1 person tat i hate there.. talking abt her will make mi sad too cause actually we was a gd friend since young until like sec 4s but due to something i realise tat this friendship is not worth.. so she is no longer my friend..
Met freda too whose is my cousin but 1 yr see 1 time cousin.. had a little bit chat with her.. yeah, took lots of photo.. will find some time to upload it.. anyway sch going to reopen le, so will be busy ba.. anyway there is a few place we plan to go which is ice-skating, k box etc.. will plan one day and go together..
upload a song which is my favourite, i actually cry while listening to this song.. after like a few days i actually understand y i cry due to some reasons..
Girl:
慢慢地撤出忧伤,
你在转角处等他,
能用声高放地唱,
我可以整天对你不牵挂
Boy:
这场爱不会开花,
我情书却割舍不下,
明知你爱的是他,
却还是学不会摆脱这挣扎.
Girl:
想听的话你说给了他,
我的快乐从此蒸发,
如果同时爱的代价哪相信,
想撒个什么谎
Boy:
想听的话得不到回答,
我却还在独自装傻回答,
时我的脸颊好让你看不见,
我眼角的变化
Boy:
这场爱不会开花,
我情书却割舍不下,
明知你爱的是他,
却还是学不会摆脱这挣扎
Girl:
想听的话你说给了他,
我的快乐从此蒸发,
如果同时爱的代价哪相信,
想撒个什么谎
Boy:
想听的话得不到回答,
我却还在独自装傻,
回答时我的脸颊好让你看不见,
我眼角的变化
Ying Hui is still feeling SUPER TIRED
Things to really take note whenever i blog, which is i will not blog any unhappiness thing.. shall really make my blog sound more happy at least i can see all this happy things tat i do whenever i am in nt a gd mood..
oh, my 1st day work at bugis is not veri gd lei, maybe e pple there is still stranger to mi.. e shop look so new a nice environment to stay in.. but e air-con is too cold le, i am going to freeze and inside i wear 1 more shirt..omg, den always volunteer to go do promotion cause outside e shop not so cold..oh, realise something.. doing dropping in bugis will nv end de, keep dropping.. Saw jesline which from work until now i did not met her, veri heng, but today quite suay saw her.. Then the Mr and Mrs boss also came down, but e son came down 1st, quite handsome lei, not bad..but den i dun like e Mrs boss lei, keep saying this saying tat, den go explore e whole basement and see wad other shop pple doing.. working next tue, wed, sat and sun until 11pm..wa, tired lor..
after work rush down to TECC, thought of taking bus 12 there so tat i can sleep in e bus but when i see e timing, i will reach there later den 6pm lor.. so better not..promise him to reach there at 6pm.. Main purpose is to help steven in his citizenship ceremnony so does next fri too.. Although i am tired but still got to help.. cant really bear not to go..
so, went for Supernova short meeting, after which we went to blk 85 for supper, den home sweet home..
Omg, tml i am going to work at 8am cause my uncle need to go office earlier, tired, tired, tired..
Discuss with joanna on things to do for GRC Youth day, suddenly received lots of email from joanna.. and i am in-charge of in-line skating while bernice is flea market.. den by next meeting got to hand in e logsitics list and got to do things for my in-line skating.. I got e feeling i cant handle it lei or cant even handle it well.. cause i am so bad in doing all this.. i really need somone who can help mi.. is a big project, i nv wan it to fail or make joanna more work to do.. will try to really help her as much as i can..
Really going to find someone or somwhere to pour out my sad feeling.. and i am really making myself really really veri busy den i got things to do den can actually make mi cant slp..but i am not going to do that..
Anyway i am a great liar..i did lie on something but i didnt mean it cause i really dunno how to say it out..
Blog at this late hour again, cause just reach home..
Yesterday:
As usual went to my aunt office to work and had lunch at compass point, den went there to get cookies for y2 and cass to eat. They love eating it. Left office at 6pm den went to meet SuperNova pple for dinner.. After dinner went for GRC youth day meeting at tampines central.. is my 2nd time there, gt to get use to it.. i am still not really use to it yet.. After meeting went wif e skaters association to somewhere near tampines swimming pool there to look at e route that will be using and demo by e pple there.. After that took bus wif rezal..
Today:
As usual went to my aunt office to work, lots of work to do.. and i onli left wif this sat to help her onli.. omg, e stack of work suddenly go higher and higher.. left at 3.30pm and went to my e other job.. thought that i will nv return there but just nice one of them cannot work, so i replace him.. had lots of fun still, help to check all e stock, li ting sharing wif us her life in rp now, mi and jennifer sharing our 1st yr life in poly..
busy and tired today.. wonder y pple can actually spent like $1000 plus on cookies onli wif e tins.. and like is 2 persons.. big order.. cause now got citibank and UOB card offer.. and they get free cookies too, if they use e card to pay..
e opening of famous amos at bugis outlet, busy, busy.. lots of things to do.. a few outlet will be quite busy helping out wif bugis.. just now jenny called and ask fatin to actually do 26th tray of 2 flavour for bugis.. and will try to bake as much as possible tml too.. more pple will have to work in bugis.. am i looking forward to it? a new supervisor i am going to face? is she gd? new things to learn, whatever tat i have learn in compass point does not appiled to my new supervisor..
told jennifer just now tat i complain compass point abit too quiet, quite sian, dunno wad to do onli can chat den i told her if i go bugis den got more pple, more busier.. but not bad, nearer to my hse and sch.. to and fro quite easy..
oh, my whole body is aching.. how nice if someone can help mi message.. my leg is bad again.. dislocate again..pain..
my aunt say tat IMM clothing and etc veri cheap.. who wan to go there and take a look.. but guess i can onli go next weekend..
Sch reopening, i am looking forward to it, get to know some new classmate, although some of my classmate still same class as mi.. guess, when sch reopen i will start thinking when is e holiday coming.. someone actually told mi that not every place i can study.. true, everywhere i go i can study.. some pple can study in fast food, some have to study in some quiet place.. shall find where is my suitabe place to study..
thankx to my mother for being a great liar..my hate for u has becoming deeper..
Quote for today:
Read newspaper today on vincent ng and his gf broke up.
'I am sad but it's not the end of the world. life still has to go on, so i will just look forward and focus on the things i should do.'
For mi, age gap is not a problem, as long as e person treat mi gd not like my parents i am veri happy le..
Blogging at this late hour.. Ying Hui has one new rule.. know wad the rule??The Rule is Ying Hui blog shall nv contain unhappiness things, shall made my blog a happy entry. tml will be e 1st day of my happy entry.. shall blog tml if i have the timeBye to all the sad entries.
blogging at this late hour.. working for mi was tired, extremely tired from e rest of e day tat i have work cause was having bad headache even though i took panandol.. Went to hougang mall for lunch today and went for window shopping.. b4 i left e office, i still have 1/4 of e work not finished and when i am going to leave 1 stack of work.. which mean tml i will have 1 n 1/4 of work to do.. After work went to xiao yao hse is a media gathering.. i am so sorry pple, they were complaining tat they like so long den see mi one time.. had alot of fun chatting and bullying each other.. think it will be more fun if there were lots of pple.. anyway thankx xiao yao for e treat.. he order like pizza, got drumstick etc and all our favourite things.. Erm, somehow i find it so wrong.. it have been 2 yrs le and he still likes mi.. how? things say by him was so weird.. please stop liking mi, i nv consider at all b4.. yeah, e media pple is playing viwawa, like all of us was also playing, so we went to play together jux now.. and that stupid maple dun allow mi to dl, not sure y too.. gonna work tml and got GRC youth day meeting and heard from y2 that there will be SuperNova meeting too.. how?? which should i go? decision for mi is so hard to make.. will see which one need mi ba..Oh yeah, i am in love wif those nice car.. still remember last sat, there is actually a Go-carts organise by bedok cc, didnt know it until michael told mi.. cause just nice was abt to meet bernice and on my way to e MRT station i actually stop to see all those car.. Long engine they have, and e car is low.. so nice, different colour.. I am just loving in seeing but not having it, cause i know i will nv be able to afford all this things..Still feeling quite giddy after e medicine... y?? gOing to slp soon, work for mi tml again..oh yeah, will be going for ISC amazing race this sat, going to be station master.. and looking foward to leo forum in june @ johor..
Happy B'day to Steven & Patrick
still feeling giddy and head pain, but i got to bear with it. woke up like 7 plus to bake cake in e morning for someone whose b'day falls today.. i really cannot stand e weather, went out in e afternoon to get something from phoon huat and brought my lunch back home. and it was so sunny that my headache became worse.. faster get e things i want and get back home.. omg, e food is getting more expensive everything like need at least $2.50 lor.. wa, sooner or later everything will be at least $3. actually i have thought wad to buy but everything is in e past alreadi.. so when i have to think wad to buy, my mind became blank.. quite angry of myself, i really wan to get something but i cant think wad to buy.. think of buying something, i have lots of consideration in mind.. y is buying a gift so difficult for mi??he came my hse, watch DVD and ate the cake..playing maple and chat in msn today.. Sometime i am really feeling veri tired.. my auntie keep blaming mi if i dun go her office to work.. like i did not do it purposely, either i have to work morning shift in famous amos or i really have things to do.. even i work in e afternoon shift i will go her office in e morning to work.. and sch going to reopen le, she expect mi to work everyday.. wa, sometime i feel tat, tat day i should just bang my head.. but pple around mi stop mi.. have been asking myself lots and lots of qns.. my mind is like full of $, my father not paying e bill, my sis hp cannot use, going to help her pay.. HDB keep calling.. wa.. can all these things stops.. and things re getting more expensive each day.. and pay re not rising up.. i really feel like just banging my head onto e wall..Michael knows my situation and he ask my sis go work but she is like full of cca where got time to work den i just ans him back as long as i am still alive now, i work as much as possible, b4 i actually go off they have some $.. he ask mi to bring my bro to him den he will teach, thank.. my bro did scared of michael b4.. everybody in my family is giving mi lots of headache.. my auntie, my bro, my parents(no longer treat them as one).. All i am having now is stress, stress and stress.. when i am so angry yet pple actually bully mi in maple... wad is e world becoming?Dreams, had alot of dream thought of having it b4 i actually choose to live or choose to stop having all this stress.. but my dreams will nv come.. y?? everyone of u seems spoiling my dreams.. y treat mi so unfair.. brought a book just now and it say this:i wanna love you
love is what makes the world go around
my whole life seemed to start and end with you
tell mi how to win your heart
i just called to say i love you
i just called to say how much i care
i just called to say i love you
and i mean it from the bottom of my heart
Happy B'day Steven
well, am i still sad or a happy person? even i myself can't ans this qns.. Well, listen to y2 and change my msn nick to a positive one which is 'Count my blessings'. anyway was still feeling quite giddy, my head is like so painful, guess is cause of wad i do ba.. but e reason y i do that cause pple re driving mi crazy.. No choice but took pananadol back where i know i cant take it cause i really got no choice.. it is making mi so giddy and my head is so pain..
well, went for dinner yesterday, meet bernice and we went there together.. when we reach there michael, fareez, kevin were alreadi there le.. well, really had a happy time talking to veryln, joanna and bernice.. both mi and veryln is in love wif cooking and joanna ask us to open a baking class.. den ken so funny, he say buy one microwave and put in e cc kitchen can le.. den mi and veryln say NO.. den he say got oven can bake cake le.. heard from joanna tat tampines north and 4get which cc got baking class.. i am gOing for e course.. who wan to sponsor mi???
i realise tat i like gals den guys.. is it a gd thing? cause tHey really can understand my feeling etc unlike e guys..i began to have no trust in guys after hearing and seeing wif my eyes.. when will i ever found a gd guy?? e guy who will love mi one and e only one..is really veri difficult to find.. i have thought that i really found one but all re lie..
went work today, b4 tat jux drop by cc awhile but did not really go for e lunch.. actually ask kelvin to accompany mi to tm to buy something.. thought asking him would give mi some idea but nvm ba.. but still thankx..
went to work after tat, e sun was so bright tat it really made mi feeling giddy and more giddy.. but i still enjoy my work.. is my last day of work at compass point.. will be going to bugis le.. miss e pple over there and thankx jason for his pizza treat although i still get to see Him in bugis.. but today is e 1st day tat i actually work wif him if not like 30min onli..so ya, get to know him more.. but not gd too la..
still not feeling quite gd.. but got to wake up early tml and bake cake.. Anyway happy b'day to him ba..
Few pple to thankx:
A guy told mi this: a stalk of flower to keep you energised for the new week to come.
Thankx michael for scolding mi, comforting mi and helping mi when i really need help. Thankx for everything, u re such a great friend.
of course, thankx to all e gals who help mi and encourage mi and they include ying ying, cassandra, bernice, veryln, joanna and tiffany. Thankx you so much.
i am speechless, lost of words.. went to work in e morning, had fun at work.. although i am not feeling quite well i still enjoy my day there cause e pple there actually give mi laughter. Going bugis to work on fri instead of thurs cause got delay by 1 day. and e working hour there is different, will be closing shop until 11pm..Went to cc after work to meet steven for dinner, b4 tat went to mac and find supernova pple.. slept awhile there was too tired. went for dinner, with e rest of e supernova pple.. at first, i had fun wif them.. but later on everything seems to change my mood.something happened tat made mi no mood to even go for yec meeting and not even supernova meeting. dun really wan to say out wad happened..But, i hate pple who accuse mi without asking mi wad is it 1st. i am really really veri upset yesterday.. i am going crazy soon, u will see mi in IMH.. i am really happy going out wif cass and y2, really happy and is not fake.. sorri, to make u all cry wif mi yesterday too.. onli you all will really listen to wad i say, wad is my feeling.. As wad i told u all, i wan to tell him too but wad is e use since he alreadi say that he dun wish to listen.. like wad he say, i will onli bring him burden..e reason that u told mi and them is different. which one is e real one??i say sorry too but do u 4give mi too? so wad is e use of saying sorry.. dun wish to continue anymore.. if not i will get scolding again..anyway thankx pple for yesterday.. had a chat wif bernice in msn..although i am still crying now but thankx for e comfort.. you gals re still e best of all..i really dunno wad e guys re thinking? i will nv be able to read their mind, read wad tHey are tHinking..
Sick: Bad headache and No appetite
Slept around 4 plus to 5am in e morning.. did SuperNova minutes until like 2am..den went to create our new character. the name tat we choose re from feng yun..and my new character is called 'You Rou'. all of us create a new one and form a guild name SnTianXiaHui. Den woke up in e morning and continue playing until lvl 10 den can join guild.. while waiting for 2 person to wake up, mi and kelvin play 1st.. had lots of fun disturbing wif each other.
Form a guild b4 i left my hse for work. was supposed to work in e morning but change to afternoon, cause 1 person resigned le. work wif each pple today, fatin is such a nice person, but she going back malaysia soon le.. had lots of fun talking..
anyway, i try and took a panandol, e same thing happened again.. den headache cannot take panandol den wad to take.. haix.. feeling veri sick and weak.. after this, i am going to slp soon.. working in e morning tml.
Tired and keep yawning
Before i Blog, sorry for some reasons, ignore wad i actually write 2 days b4 or 3 days b4.
slept like 1hr yesterday, cause was rushing for the minutes which i nv thought tat this fri is e meeting cause no one inform until joanna call mi yesterday. Thankx bernice for helping mi abit yesterday.
yupx, register my gems today and i got into 'quality management', sound interesting to mi. actually wanna choose e fri slot, but dun have so wed.. yeaps, leanna is in e same class as mi, hopefully si jing, jack and ck can get into too. omg, was supposed to meet e gals at 1pm, i was so blur tat i thought is 2pm. Luckily kelvin told mi if not i will meet them at 2pm instead. So went to cc to clarify something wif joanna 1st, so she told mi tat she went for lunch, ask mi to write a note on her table. yupx, so went there to put down a note. okie, i did something wrong. So, guess i wont go up again ba. Received sms while writting e note. I am sorry once again, i thought you was angry of mi. yes, i think i am making pple angry of mi, i dont know why too. i actually sent a sms on sorri but no reply. any pple can tell mi wad to do?
yupx, after tat went KTV wif e gals and kelvin. i am just going to put eveything aside and enjoy my days wif them. We went katong for KTV.. had alot of fun there.. and kelvin went there 1st time and he sings well too.. think i went to sing e 3rd time or e 2nd time. After tat went to play pool but i have no interest in it although i know how to play, still remember e time where i really know how to play pool was thought by neil.
talking abt this, guess i am going back to leo club. SORRY, if i am going back to leo club, cause i really love community service and can get to actually mix alot wif lots of small kid which i loves it. Seeing other pple who can play wif them yet i cant, i felt so sad. I loves kids.
Then, we went to pet shop which y2 miss her Ace, brought food for e dog to eat. actually e dog quite nice, not at fierce if not i will be scared too..After that went to have laksa, did not eat cause was not at hungry since i ate fried rice during KTV. and omg, e laksa actually cost $3.50. Yes, i agree wif my auntie, we are eating gold. the food is getting expensive and expensive. Plz stop increasing, we need to survive too.
talking abt this, my auntie actually explain to my grandma tat outside food is not tat cheap esp when u go 2 shopping centre to eat. e food court food is veri expensive. and know wad my grandma says, she says go and find e cheaper food to eat. my auntie told her how much i have to spend like a day if i work at compass point, den my grandma say buy e cheapest food. Since, she say this, i shall find e cheapest food to eat, which is bread, or 1 box of sushi which cost $1 or even better eat famous amos cookies which cost $0.
After tat went bugis to walk walk and cassandra left us 1st.. so e 3 of us continue walking.. guess wad we did? we went to e children arcade which is at bhg and we start playing e games there. It is a long time since i ever play arcade with tickets. we keep playing basketball cause it is e most easier to earn lots of tickets.. den we went 2 change 11 packets of gummy.. so nice.. lets go back there to play again.
After tat we went to cold storage to get some food and went home.. having pinic in e bus. had alot of fun today. and thankx for helping mi to check for my grammar, i admit that my eng sux.
I got e feeling i cant take panadol anymore, cause i am having like side effect. took panadol like once yesterday night, having bad headache and my lung hurts alot alot, and later on felt weaker and weaker, my hand keep shivering. it nv makes mi better... how?? last time not like tat de lei..
Cant wait for the next shopping at istean with e gals.. yes, Istean is having offer and is a gd offer. 2 more additional gals going.. ying chee and bernice.
pack for this week, tml work, fri work and yec meeting, sat work & shopping & dinner(ask by joanna to go), Sun work. So wad my plan for next week.. left a week to go out. when sch reopen back to study le.
I am very very stress at this momentshall not blog a detailed one cause i am going to do something which i am veri stress now.. as usual went to work today. My auntie collegaues actually veri gd, told mi alot of things which i should b careful off.. and yes, i regretted and felt cheated. Went compass point for dinner and shopping. and received a shocking call which is joanna ask mi whether i am done with e minutes cause this fri is e meeting..omg, no slp for mi tonight. yupx, having sore throat now and slight fever ba.. cut by a paper few times, so painful.. and my hand is somehow swollen too, painful..was actually told to take down e minutes during e last meeting. I can write but when it come to yec format of typing style, i am really stuck. I actually start like typing out, but i gave up after awhile.. and i am currently like not in e mood to do anything, i felt like having fool by a person, felt stupid for choosing e wrong move. felt so sad when pple actually scolded and angry of mi. who can help mi in my minutes, i really cannot take it.. initally i thought someone in my mind who can help mi but i have to face e fact.. well, still have one whole night to think wad i am going to write.and i just remember that i have a meeting tml and tml afternoon going out wif e gals.. omg, my felt my head is getting heavier and heavier, lots of things to think.and tml i need to register for my gems at 9am. cant decide i wan tue or fri. think i will be taking personal fanincial planning..back to my minutes le.. wish myself gd luck ba.
