Somehow, i feel tat i am veri useless.. i am very thankful that i have friends who help mi when i am in a mad mood, when i have trouble etc. They may give mi a veri long lecture, may nag at me but i will still listen to them cause i am so happy to have friends like them. Sometime, i may take their words, sometime i might ignore wad they have say but i appreciate everything that have been done. Like wad i talk to ying ying today, we were staring e computer yesterday, staring and staring at it.. but i jux dunno how to start it..you have been a great help, listening to all my problems, listening to all e negative things i have said.. I wan to repay back, how can i help u?? Why is it so difficult to comfort a person. so i think they also have difficulty talking to me..
i have a friend who i know e longest in SuperNova, i think he must be tired of talking to me for 3 yrs le.. sometime i may still think of e negative things or keep thinking.. but i feel that i really cannot jux put down everything and pretend that i don't know anything. i am a person who have feeling and i am a person who can get sad easily, yes, a person who can cry easily too.. when i have problem, i don't know whether to let u know or tell u.. i know wad u wan to say but sometime i just find veri difficult to put down everything and everything..
Recently my uncle side having problem, i dunno how to really help them.. my knowledge is veri low.. thank to lao gong for helping mi to talk to e HDB pple etc, without him i think i really dunno wad to do le.. y is everyone of my family suffering, everyone of us is not having a gd life...all my auntie and uncles are all having problem even mi myself.. Why? i know, you all will ask mi not to think of negative things, i have been trying hard not to think.. i wan to help them, i dun wan them to be homeless but how can i help? i might be homeless too 1 day..
while i am typing this, a phone call made mi felt sad, my auntie is in hospital, was saying abt not having a gd life, and another news hurt mi even more.. my auntie is jux like my own mother i treat her like my own mother.. of course i dun wan anything to happen to her.. i thought i wan to have a gd night after so many days but cause of this guess i can't slp once again.
Why everything involve $, does it mean that $ is e most important one.. yes, without $ it is veri difficult to survive.. y must all e sad thing come at 1 time..
i am not feeling veri well too.. my leg isnt tat gd, run abit will fall down, walk also can walk too long le.. my whole body is so heaty, drinks lots of water cant help, have been going out drinking lots of different kind of water, see which one will help mi bring down my heat in my body.. After drinking so many kind, nothing help mi yet..
i jux find it veri difficult to really continue anymore.. but i am really veri sorry that i cannot help you.. i dun know how too.. i dunno whether you re really sick or you re sad? thanks to all my friends and lao gong for supporting mi that is y i am still alive now..
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