today is e 2nd day of e-learning..finish all my e-learning things except gems, which i have to think carefully, my goals.. den still doing past yr paper half way through..
continuing watching VCDs, the show is damm nice and also continue doing my sewing.. den went out to tampines in e afternoon wif friends, den went to meet dear after tat.. we went to white sands to have our dinner and walk walk and after tat back home..
tml going out wif si jing and leanna to PS.. yeah, we going shopping..
wanted to chat wif him more, but it seems like there is no way to do tat.. i still remember tat, last time my ex, all i can chat veri long de..maybe our generation like to talk and more thing to talk ba.. sometime i try to tell myself not to get angry easily, cause i like him.. pple who know mi well, will know tat i get angry veri easily..
since is my e-learning, so got time to blog this few days.. watch VCD and do my AE&E e-learning this morning.. den went to Changi Hospital for therapy.. den did some exercise, den 2 weeks later going back again.. den after tat went to aliwai st, to ask the price of the costume, yeah, manage to find my way there.. i am so smart, but i still walk up and down to find e place.. all thankx to my map tat i manage to find the place..
den after tat went out to walk walk, cause dun feel like going home so early.. so find any bus to take to e nearest MRT station.. den after tat took mrt to bishan to walk walk.. basically my day today was boring again..
As usual, i hate to go out alone or stay at home alone. Although i am always alone last time, but i always wish that somebody could accompany me. although i am sad today, but i kept to myself, i didn't tell dear, i sound happy on the phone. if he know that i am sad, he will get angry. being a person is so difficult.
did abit of CPPA this morning, and watch TV.. something happened in e morning again, my grandma ask my bro accompany her go see doc tml, den he lie to my grandma tat he going out wif his teacher..den my grandma veri angry, so make until i also got no mood.. actually she dun wan to go eat wif us de, den i have to keep asking her to go.. in e end she wan to take my auntie car..
but i will still b happy, my auntie wan mi to b happy.. she been looking after mi for 18 yrs le.. went to tampines safra there to eat sakura buffet.. was so full, after eating.. den after tat dear send mi grandma to another auntie hse 1st.. den dear say wan go my auntie hse sit sit, so we went up.. den after tat went back to cc to meet marco, cause they wan to buy oven for siti housewarming.. after buying we proceed to siti hse.. both of us didnt eat, cause we were still veri full..
den after tat we went to parkway to walk walk and den back home.. tml going to changi hospital for my therapy session, after tat going to check e costumes price.. hopefully i dun lost my way.. somehow i will find my way there.. maybe have to take more time..
back blogging again, looks like i am blogging once a week, will try to update more, maybe this coming week.. yeah!! finally e-learning week has arrived, time flies, so fast this coming week will b my 6th week for sem 2.. gd things is tat i don't need to go to sch and bad things is got alot of e-learning homework to do.. so have to finish everything by this coming fri b4 it is closed.
finally, my quiz is over, think stage A is better den stage B, stage B is abit quite stress.. hopefully i can score well for my AE&E and AP chem quiz.. went to help out in dandia night, go around asking pple to sign up for passion card, e response not so gd, cause most of them have alreadi.. den also go round giving lollipop to small kids, so cute..
den we close e booth ard 6.30pm den we pack everything.. den walk back wif desmond, jg, clinton and shi chang to tecc.. den accompany dear have dinner, while desmond and jg went to white sands to buy shoes.. den after dinner dear went to do his things, so dun wan to disturb him, i go void deck to do CPPA.. yeah! i did 2 and a half past yr paper within 1 and a half hr.. so happy..
den i told dear i like the green apple lollipop.. den he go take out all the green apple one and give it to me.. alot lor.. tml going to have buffet, my aunt treat, cause she wan to celebrate my b'day for mi and dear will b going tml too..
although next week is my b'day, but i dun seem happy at all, not because of dear, but my own parents..every yr is e same, they wont remember unless someone told them..
it have been a week since i blog le, cause was rather busy this week. keep studying this whole week cause, this coming week got 2 quiz, waiting for e e-learning week to come, which is next week.. yeah! i need a rest..
nothing really much to blog also.. cant really remember wad i did this few days.. will be quite tiring this coming weeks too, cause quiz to study.. and lots of things to do.. going to meet koo jee later at harbourfront and many other pple like ting lay etc..
yeah!!once again i am going to join Chingay 2008, so happy, guess i will still be seeing some familiar faces.. this yr chingay is for SD.. wonder who will i see later??
went to faizah hse yesterday, she invited us to her hse.. had so much fun there, cause mui hoon will nv stop laughing de, den later influence mi..
there are some unhappiness thing which i dont feel like blogging here..
as usual cant slp well, and not in e mood to study too.. in the morning watch TV and do abit of AP chem tutorial..den went to cut hair today too.. den dear came my hse in e afternoon, den we went to out together.. we went to suntec city arcade cause i like to see pple play game, but i dun feel like playing it.. after tat went carrefour to buy somethings for his car.. den we went to marine square to watch movie.. the movie so scary.. don't dare to watch..den went for dinner after tat back home..
haix.. i am alone again.. anybody wan to go out or study tml and tue, find mi.. cause i got nothing to do.. Don't really feel like staying at home, it will onli make mi feel more sad.. i rather spend my time outside..headache again, have to think where to go tml and tue.. how?? i will b getting more lonely this week, all of them going to left mi at home and they going to go for holiday.. and i scared to slp alone, e most dont slp lor, play e whole night..i am afraid of being alone.. think some of e things tat i mentioned in my wishlist will not come true, so i should delete them..
not in e bad mood today again.. was dreaming e whole morning, dunno wad to do, not in e mood to study all do all my hw tat i should do.. went to tampines mall long john in e afternoon to pass jasmine bf sandy shirt.. den jasmine bf ask mi whether i wan to help him anot.. i still not sure yet.. den jasmine was my mummy and her bf is my daddy.. was suprise tat daddy went there to work.. mummy not working le..
den after tat went to meet chu zen, tian ying and lyie at harbourfront control station.. den we went to e bus stop to take bus, den saw shen long they all.. e onli thing tat i was happy tat i chant for 30min today.. today studying meeting was still ok.. knew a few more friends.. e studying meeting is to ask us to read e human resolution 1st, den we go there to share some of e guidance etc.. den today they also say abt next yr chingay and e theme is underwater.. dunno whether going to join anot.. all e details are not out yet..
den after tat started to rot.. went vivo city awhile 1st den went to airport to study.. but couldnt study.. when i saw all e kid at e airport, how i wish i was like them.. i thought things have change to a better.. but it seems like getting worse.. i realise tat i have lost alot of things.. i think is time for mi to find a place where i should b, i think it is not suitable for mi here.. so all of them going to b happily going holiday next week and left mi all alone at home.. i dont care alreadi, i decide i am going to live on my own.. i dun need them..
well, have been blogging lesser and lesser, due to no time to blog la.. nothing much really happened this few days.. as usual go sch everyday to study, and have to get prepared for my week 5 test.. got 2 test in week 5, which is AE&E and AP chem. oh ya.. on mon, need to tell teacher e topic tat i am doing, still haven find.. met up wif yan teng and koo jee on wed, we went orchard cause yan teng say she wan to buy clothing.. but we didnt see any suitable one.. had alot of fun chatting, we might b going swimming every week together.. yeah!!! den in e evening went for YEC meeting..today MIP lesson was damm boring.. e teacher can teach 2 ppt slide for 1hr.. keep repeating wad he say.. den i played game in his lesson.. most of us was not listening, but got take some notes down.. his lesson is really damm boring.. den dear fetch mi after sch, cause he was near there.. den went cc for meeting by shi chang.. as usual i was playing game.. i dunno y i really cant concentrate on today meeting.. i jux feel like playing and talking onli.. den after meeting dear send mi home, at e same time send ying ying, kelvin and jia jin home 1st..tml gonna to SYC for studying meeting, going to meet chu zen 1st, cause i dunno how to go.. den today kent and shen long talk to mi, they say nv see mi in plaza sharing veri long le.. den i told them u can see mi tml.. den they thought i not going.. haix.. must prove to them i really got go.. yeah!!!it seem like as e days goes by, i am getting further and further away from my siblings.. after reading my sis blog, den i knew tat they booked ticket to go for holiday and they didnt even ask mi whether i wan to go anot.. actually, i didnt know tat they re going for holiday, but heard from my grandma talking.. i really find veri meaningless staying at home.. i rather stay outside e whole day den jux come back slp.. if i can choose, i rather stay by my own, but i am not 21 yrs old yet.. shall wait for 3 more yrs.. maybe by myself is e best thing for mi.. i think i dont even understand myself well.. i onli like to think but i dont like to say out.. everyday i will have to find something to occupy myself, but dear dun like.. sometime i think, e best thing is i wish i dun born in this world.. shall b e lonely person tml again.. after studying meeting, shall find one place to sit down jux study.. den in e evening maybe jux go for a walk.. no mood to go shopping..
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well, had a boring weekened this week, have been playing audition and maple for this 2 days, didnt really study much cause i cant study at home and cannot find pple to accompany mi study..
e only time tat i can occupy my time is going out wif dear yesterday in e evening.. luckily fri got desmond and kelvin to pei mi study, so i can study more.. wasted my 2 days le.. think next week everyday must stay back study, need find pple pei mi study.. but next week, i alreadi wasted 2 days, cause got YEC meeting and Supernova meeting.. where should i study tml??
think our sibling relationship have gone further and further.. dunno y also, jux got e feeling.. maybe our character different.. i felt rather lonely and lonely.. need go find friends to go out le.. cannot really get along well wif my sibling tat y i rather spend my whole day outside den at home..
did not slp yesterday, watch tv all e way until morning..
well, nothing to do so i am going to blog to occupy sometime.. went to sch as early as 8am today, cause got practical in e morning.. and e practical was not too bad, not really that difficult.. den e practical teacher say that in order to go Industrial Chem for next yr options, total GPA must get 2.9 at least, which include last sem and this sem result.. die la.. my last sem score so badly.. maybe i should try Food as an options.
then, faizah was e most funniest pple in e class today.. cause we went early for our CPPA tutorial, so faizah went to take marker and write all the tutorial on e board, den we will tell her whether she correct anot.. den during AE&E tutorial, faizah wanted to do e same thing too, but too late le.. den after sch meet dear at e MRT station, cause is his off day today, so got to accompany him..
well, got to blame myself for being sick, having sore throat, drink water or eat also pain.. so i have to stay at home e whole day tml, cant go out.. everything that i planned have to be cancelled. if tml i have lesson tat is e best, at least i dun need to stay at home for e whole day, rotting at home.. trying to occupy myself by playing audition or maple.. wanted to ask friends pei mi, but they need to come to my hse den can..guess, really got to find things to do at home tml le..
well, didnt blog for a few days, now i am back to blog again.. time flies, so fast is 2nd week of my 2nd semester le.. and in 3 weeks time, will b having my exam again.. so going to study veri hard.. during this few days, there re happiness and sadness too.. so far school was ok.. except tat the timetable are weird.. the modules for this sem still ok ba, slightly easier den my last sem one.. damm stress today, study too much already, cant absorb much.. had gems today and e gems tat i am taking is goal settings & decision making.. e teacher quite nice, and e lesson is not boring.. was surprise that kelly and mark also take this gems.. mark is my FO camp daddy and kelly is one of the grp mummy...den actually today 3pm end lesson de, all because of dchem pple, they dun wan to come to sch this fri jux for 2hr lesson, so they bring forward to today.. and i am studying straight from 8am-5pm without a proper rest.. next time, we not going to let e dchem pple do this le.. was veri tired today, didnt slp well yesterday, luckily tml my lesson start at 10am.. i was almost sleeping in e last 2hr class.. think i was too tired tat i got no mood to study now..
