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didnt blog for a few days, suddenly really feel like blogging now.. cause i really veri fan now.. everybody seem angry of mi, shout at mi and scold mi.. i think i did too many wrong things le.. even now i am crying when i am blogging..

dont really wan to blog how my sch this few days, jux feel like blogging cause of all my unhappiness... everything seem not right for mi.. i dunno also.. maybe i this is wad my life is for e rest of my life.. cant blame anybody, y my life is like this.. have to blame onli myself, y i want to live in this world..

i wanted to study, but e chem teacher is making mi so stress, he teach so fast, i cant even really understand wad he teaching.. maybe have to blame myself also, cause i am a slow learner, need alot more time to understand a thing den e rest.. tat y my classmate understand but i dun understand.. studying alreadi making mi so stress le but there is still other more things to worry abt.. i dun feel like studying, cause need alot of $.. anything tat involve $ make mi mad.. i wanted to go for counselling section, cause i think i got alot of problem, tat y i always get scolded.. but going counselling need $ again.. how to go... i really dunno how am i going to carry on my life as e days goes by.. when can i have e life tat i wan? in e next 100 yrs, 1000yrs, 10000 yrs?? i really dunno..

posted by [Y][I][N][G] [H][U][I] @ 6:32 PM

nothing really much things to blog today, been slacking at home in e morning until in e afternoon, as usual playing maple and audition.. den in e afternoon took a short nap, but couldnt sleep too, so played audition..

den desmond msg mi, telling mi tat he not going to buy doughnut le den nothing to do at home, so meet him at cc at 5.30pm, den he pei mi go buy thread 1st, den go up to cc to draw key.. den had meeting today wif kevin committee for e upcoming yr end project.. den after meeting went for supper den dear send mi home..

did something different from other day, i doing cross skitch now... yeah!! tml going to work..

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posted by [Y][I][N][G] [H][U][I] @ 12:26 AM

it have been sometimes since i blog, well, back to blog again.. yesterday went out wif yan teng and koo jee, it have been since a long time since we went out together le.. somemore sch go to reopen le, so need to meet them b4 my sch start.. we went for lunch together, den after tat went to walk walk around.. as usual, yan teng like to take pic in e toilet.. so we took a few pic=) den after tat went to cc in e evening to meet dear, den went to kallang mrt station to meet jinguang and desmond, cause we re going to watch a basketball match.. as usual, jinguang always do funny things de, will make pple laugh de..

i wont felt asleep while watching basketball match, but i will felt asleep when watching football match.. maybe partly cause last time keeping seeing jinguang play basketball ba.. well, singapore loose and melbourne won.. omg, e melbourne pple re so tall, i felt really really veri short.. after tat took bus 16 to city hall, den took 197 back to bedok inter.. den after tat dear walk home wif mi, while jg and desmond went back home..

was slacking at home in e morning today, play maple if not audition.. haix.. den dear came my hse in e afternoon, den after tat we went out.. we went to parkway to walk walk today, nothing much to walk also.. den went for dinner in e evening, den went to east coast park.. think we did too much walking today, we walk from east coast back to my hse.. it took us 1hr 15min to walk back..

suddenly today got 2 pple unexpected talk to mi in msn.. 1 of them is neil, he jux ask how have i been, was suprise tat andrew, they all ask mi how am i.. 2nd is willie, my chingay daddy.. hahax.. nv talk to him quite long le.. i am his eating partner, accompany him go eat.. den he told mi tat kovan got 'mango ice' veri nice to eat.. so next time going there wif him to eat..

some pic taken on wed wif yan teng and koo jee:

posted by [Y][I][N][G] [H][U][I] @ 11:21 PM

been slacking at home this few days, nothing much to do too although i work, but not everyday.. been slacking at home playing audition, maple and garfield... but i cant play garfield for more den 15 min i will get headache..

den meet desmond early b4 e meeting start, went there to fold hearts... den went dinner wif dear b4 e meeting start.. last minute alex change e meeting time to 7.30pm dunno y also.. as usual, yesterday meeting as per normal.. onli 2 campers came for e meeting. not bad alreadi.. yesterday more concentrate on e project side.. i wan faster get over e end yr project.. dunno y also.. haix.. really veri sleepy this few days, cant really concentrate cause did not really slp well for almost 2 weeks le.. haix.. den after meeting went for so called supper.. but onli shi chang ate and e rest drink ..after tat dear send mi home..

been slacking at home e whole day today too.. playing games again, folding heart and watching tv.. den went to meet dear in e evening.. dear wanted to go to ikea, so we took e free bus there.. went to walk walk awhile at courts and a little bit on ikea.. den we took e free bus back to bedok.. wa.. not bad.. got free bus to reach bedok.. den went to bedok inter to have our dinner and back home..

tml gonna to meet suat hoon and e rest of e IC.. going for morning gongyo 1st.. den have breakfast together.. den tml afternoon going to meet dear.. and e evening went for work.. tml my day is pack.. no time to play games too..

still stuck at my gems.. dunno wad to choose.. going to check my appointment to register my gems..

posted by [Y][I][N][G] [H][U][I] @ 12:09 AM

[saD]

still couldnt sleep..when can i sleep?? woke up to play maple in e morning, cause nothing to do, grandma went to work.. den watch TV cause maple got server check.. den prepare somethings which is needed this fri for supernova meeting.. den play maple wif desmond in e afternoon, as usual, he is still sad.. is normal la..

den went to work in e evening.. thankx dear for waiting mi after my work, cause we have not been seeing each other for a few days le.. den dear send mi home..

as usual, my mother come and find problem again.. y must she talk so loud to my grandma, she is veri old le, still got alot of illness.. my grandma is damm angry.. den she came to my hse to find problem, cant stand it, so didnt eat dinner and went out of e hse.. totally no mood to eat le.. haix..

posted by [Y][I][N][G] [H][U][I] @ 11:52 PM

well.. gonna blog b4 i sleep... not really sleep ba.. but day dreaming.. cause this few days cant even slp.. e most 1 hr onli..

nothing really much to blog la.. jux feel like blogging.. have been rotting at home today.. playing maple and finish watching show 'huan huan ai'.. e show is damm nice and touching.. i alreadi cried everyday.. now watch this show also cried.. and i am in love wif e song.. tat y my blog song re all song from 'huan huan ai'.. yeah..

as usual jinguang is always so smart, he know wad i thinking.. so cannot keep anything from him de.. is our promise not to keep secret from him... have to really thankx him, he is e longest friend i know from supernova beside leovine which is no longer there le.. he have been a gd listening ear.. and he is also a veri gd friend of mine.. always help mi de..

Desmond, if u happened to see my blog.. dont b sad kk... cheer up! must b as happy as last time.. you have been encouraging mi alot too.. thankx for being a friend of mine.. if u wan find somebody to pei, can find mi.. should b quite free ba..

finally, dear going work tml le.. guess he has alot of things to do also ba.. so shall not disturb him this whole week... find my own entertainment or entertain myself by playing maple..

yeah! jg know how to play e garfield game le.. so he going to teach mi.. 1 more game to play.. anyway sch is going to reopen in 1 week plus time.. so fast.. haix.. soon is gonna to b back to studying time le..

posted by [Y][I][N][G] [H][U][I] @ 11:45 PM

[claSS PTN]

yesterday had our class ptn, which is SP rule.. veri sem must have class ptn, so no choice.. den we had BBQ yesterday at east coast park.. all of us meet 4pm at bedok Mrt... den some of them join us later.. had alot of fun yesterday, cause we didnt see each other for a few weeks alreadi..

chatted on alot of things.. and this is e 1st time, gals dun need to start fire, e guys is doing it.. finally.. onli 2 lecturer came, our tutor and math teacher... ken lee told us on how important GEM is during their few days back meeting.. and now i know how important is it.. ken lee say if we fail that particular GEM for more than 2 times, no mattar how well we score for our module.. in e end we will still failed as overall.. omg.. must really choose carefully e GEM, some GEM re easier to score and some re not.. haix..

haix.. really veri scared of my sem result.. e result will b out tml at 10.30.. haix.. hopefully i dun fail any.. well.. thank hui shuen father for sending mi home.. today i am rotting at home again.. tml gonna work.. luckily i have something to do... den now dunno whether i meeting my sec schoolmate this thurs anot to go madam quek hse... see 1st ba..

posted by [Y][I][N][G] [H][U][I] @ 10:45 AM

[rather sad entries]

it have been a few weeks since i blog.. jux feel like blogging now although is late.. cant remember wad i did few few days ago.. but dun sad things i dun feel like bringing it up..

i was sick again, got stomach flu, tat y got no appetite to eat.. yesterday did not help them for e food charity drive, but i went later in e afternoon, den went to find tiffany and my sis they all.. den happened ken also jux reached there.. so he is surprise how come i came when i am sick.. cause b4 tat ken got ask mi dun come den ask mi to take care of my own health.. but i choose to come.. so ken fetch mi back to cc ask mi to take a rest.. so we had bgm ceremony in e evening.. den had some chat wif pple like kee ping and danial.. didnt see danial for quite long too.. den had yec meeting on all e post.. den after tat went for supper.. and si jie treat all of us drinks.. den after tat discuss abit on kevin project den went home..

well.. was rather sad this few days.. but dun feel like mentioning all e details out.. i am sorri, if i show u all attitude.. cause i really in a bad mood.. i seriously dunno wad i am doing.. jux dun feel like writing down e reasons y i am so sad.. cause i am tired of saying le.. and i cried e whole day today, den now my eyes is so pain..

wanna thankx those pple who went to help for e food charity drive yesterday, u all did a great job... have to thankx e kind resident of tampines east area, who has nothing to donate but they went to supermarket to buy lots of things and donate it to us.. although quite a few supernova pple have let mi down, they told mi they coming b4 e day, but in e end they didnt come, but i am still glad tat e rest came..

posted by [Y][I][N][G] [H][U][I] @ 11:58 PM