I am 30% Happy and 70% Sad today. The day start of well by having accompany from my grandma, we went shopping at tampines mall for awhile before heading to my aunt house for dinner. Brought myself a pair of shoes cause my shoes sole is gone already, brought socks for my grandma cause she say my brother one, brought a 4 roses for my mother and all my aunt.
They were very happy to receive rose from me and I am very happy when I see them smiling, but later on it become a totally sad mood for me cause something happened, so I cried too.
I am very tired with all the things that have been happening again. I just started work and I am really independent now, beside asking $ from them I even pay for whatever things they want. When people ask me why I work too places, am I not tired. The true is I am very tired but why do I want to work. 2 reasons why I continue to work in famous amos is because, the first reason is I can bring extra income, second is because I felt happy with them.
With my income now, I am paying for the flat rental, my own daily meals, my expenditure, my bus fare, my brothers school daily meal and sometime my house grocery. I already try my best, I will do whatever I can, even if I have to find a job to work in the night I will not think but do it.
I think I am now getting to look like my mother. 1 of my auntie say just now because of my mother character that why she can't stand her. I started to think back, this is also part of the reason why he left me too.
Cried for a few hours already, although my eyes are so red and swollen I just can't stop crying.
posted by [Y][I][N][G] [H][U][I] @ 10:00 PM
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