there is always something tat happened when i reached home one..wad i say now would all b e problems tat i faced..but i jux cant control myself but to type it all out.. my mother called mi today and ask mi whether i am free this thurs..den told her tat morning i going to sch to study..den at night my father and auntie they all ask mi out for dinner..so she onli can bring mi out in e afternoon..when she heard this she starts scolding mi...she say she took 1 day leave jux to bring mi out and i cant spent my whole day wif her..den she say knowing my b'day is this thurs i nv call her to ask whether she is bringing mi out..y should i??and i dun even wan to know when is my b'day..now they got nothing to quarrel..wanna use my b'day to quarrel..
she called mi many times and scolded everytime she called mi..actually i choose not to ans but i cant bear too cause i stil treat her as my mother..but tat is not wad she think..she think tat we dun treat her as a mother cause she dun wan us and dump it to our father..wad she say really hurt my feeling..although from young how bad she treat mi, beat mi or wanted to kill mi i nv hate her..i always try to accept her by not thinking of how she treat mi..although both my parents did something wrong and went to jail for yrs i still did not blame them..i always try to b happy infront of them...y re they treating mi like this..
i wants to take my O lvl peacefully but i jux cant..y must there b a "birthday" this things..if there isnt den they wont fight over this things.. and onli not jux this yr..and also not jux my b'day..like chinese new yr etc..they did e same things too.. i cant tolerate alreadi..i really cant stand anymore..i am going to become mad soon.. how i wish this thurs i will go anywhere i like...i dun need anyone to celebrate for mi..isnt it fair???i really feel no point in leaving alreadi..although i give myself some hope..they have made mi cried e whole day today..and my eyes got swollen because of them.. since they treat mi jux let them think..i am wrong..i should not accept them in e 1st place..dun blame mi for wad i am going to do from today onwards..
posted by [Y][I][N][G] [H][U][I] @ 10:56 PM
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