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2011-02-06T23:29:00.002+08:00

Its a long long long long time......

Have been busy with work, everyday trying hard to think of ways to make everything faster, trying to adapt to the new system. Trying hard to learn as much things as I can and I am also trying hard to clear my things.

Although sometime was quite tired with work but I have my happy moments too. My yec friends has never failed to make me laugh. Although sometime i may get scolding from them but it was all their care and concern for me.

Anyway really had a good time today. Had lots of fun chatting with everyone. I also pour out some of my unhappiness of someone. I was really glad that I am not the only one who gave such a comment but everyone too. Had so much time disturbing jason with michelle. After that we went to watch movie together.

Promise them I will go down tml after my work if I am not tired. Anyway really want to thank everyone for your concern, really glad to have all of you by my side to fight the battle with me.

2011-01-03T23:04:00.004+08:00

Bye 2010, Welcoming 2011

It has been long time since i blog, have been busy with my work stuffs. Trying to learn many many things in the company. Anyway not very sure whether 2010 is a gd year for me.

Year 2010

Was very glad, that i found a good job before my graduation although it may be far ans sometime work quite late. I really love this job, love working with a few people there. After which was glad that I am able to take a few days leave for some of my important SYOG Full-Dress Rehearsal.

Was also very glad that I am able to participate in SSA SYOG Performance. Although it may be tiring for me but i enjoy the process. This group contain more of the FD people and yes, they may be difficult to manage but at least they give their best show on the actual day itself. During all the rehearsal we have lots of up and down. Would like to thank my trainer for their care and concern that they have given me. We were all so worried that we might not make it, but was so happy on the actual day that we actually did it so well and my tears really start flowing after the performance.

Can say i have a few struggles at the end of the year, somehow i really want to write a letter for Sensei but i want to write when i have more victory to report to Sensei.

Would like to thank all my friend who has made a difference in my life for 2010. I really feel like starting my life again for 2011. Am I ready to 4get everything?

Year 2011

It going to be a year where I want to score many victories. I am going to set my prayers very very soon. What I really want to achieve at the end of this year is, my YEC is able to perform better, hope to see more of my YWDs attending meeting, able to excel and perform well in my work, able to spend more time for gakkai activities.

2010-12-06T00:41:00.002+08:00

I am feeling so down now, i dun want to pack my stuff, i want to stay where i am now, but i know it will nv come true. Anyway i am shifting to my aunt place this coming sun, i dun dare to pack my stuff, i feel very sad when i am to say bye bye to some of my stuff and also can't bare to leave this place. I am crying everyday.

2010-12-02T20:31:00.002+08:00

Feeling so down this week, but luckily i got friends who is there supporting me. Would like to thank jinguang, belinda, desmond and benny. They have been helping me alot and thanks for staying by my side everyday.

Really hope everything will be better.

2010-11-21T23:55:00.002+08:00

Having sleepless night, have been thinking lots and lots of things. I can't stop crying too.

I serious I don't know what I am doing, I agreed to something which I don't have it now. I really treasure all my friends and I know this is not good for me. It means i got more things to worry, I will have more headache, I will upset even more. This friend of mine I have been helping now, i really treasure this friendship, I will not let go. We have known each other since last few months of 2005, we have gone through alot alot until now. Seriously, back then I am not what I am now, I have grown up, this growing up process is because I have many many friends supporting me. They are like my families. This friend of mine treat me very good. And I am so glad that he finally woke up, at least he decided to take a step ahead. Therefore, I would try my all means to help him. Cause I dun wan anybody to follow my footsteps.

Anyway I am also going to set my resolution and I am working towards it. For this coming months, will spend my weekends working at famous amos. If I am ok with it, maybe I will continue.

My tears are flowing, I need a hug now. Hopefully I made the correct decision.

2010-11-18T23:59:00.002+08:00

No mattar what happened, I am determined to change my friends life. Please don't stop me from what I am doing.

Recently I have a friend met into trouble. He is my best friends, know him for about 5 years. He has never fail to concern and take care of me. I feel that it is time for me to do the same to him too. Have been thinking of solution, it really upset me when i can't think of it. I have come out with a solution but will he accept it?

I have another friend but it seems to be further and further, when can i pull him back into the circles. I think I am a very weak person, I don't wish to loose my friends. When my friends got trouble I will cry, I will upset.

2010-11-15T23:15:00.003+08:00

Bowling

The previous weekend, there was a bowling competition and fun bowl organise by CSC. At first, did not feel like going cause was feeling so tired, since everyone ask me to go so i go lor. Meet some of them for breakfast early in the morning. Reach there, they have 3 games of fun bowl 1st, enjoy cheering them and chatting. After the fun bowl, was ask to be the emcee for the later part. Omg, is so sudden, don't know how to reject it. This is totally not YEC events.

So, went through with siti the details, chatted awhile too. Get bully by Ken and Candice. Firstly ken ask me to play with him, i take the odd he take the even round. I rejected. In the end Candice say i take the even she take the odd. I rejected too. So, i quickly ran away. Maybe next time when it is not competition den play with them.

Seriously was so angry, it seems like the yec is doing the things, emcee, giving out of prizes, lucky draw. So where is the organiser?? After that, went to soka to subscribe the CL den we went to Tampines west cc for the cat show. Omg, all of them so bad, trying to scare me with the cat. But really had a fun day with them.

Last Sat, after work went out with Janet, had a very nice day with her. Laugh alot.

Last Sun, woke up early in the morning cause was suppose to meet li qi to discuss the Kenshu. Xue yun took cab and fetch all of us to SYC. Thanks Liqi for the nice breakfast. We discuss all the way from 9am to about 1 pm, den went down to bugis to meet jg. Accompany him to the chinese temple to get something. After that we had our lunch first before we head to the cc. It was raining heavily, therefore the tchoukball competition was cancelled last min and postponed to next week. Had a really fun talk, but unfortunately someone was meeting moody.

After that we went to have some drink and had lots of fun chatting. Great chat with Belinda, jg, hyder and kevin. After that jg accompany me home. Had a good chat with him in bus and also at my house void deck. I also realise that although we have been friends for so many years there is still lots of things I don't know. I am feeling really really upset. I cired, tell me how should I help. Yesterday I really can't slp, thinking thinking and thinking of solution.

I am really very tired.

Can't wait to have a outing with Belinda and Joanna. I miss you Joanna, I am really feeling very sad that you have left cc, i scared I can't control myself.

2010-11-05T08:27:00.004+08:00

Thanks everyone of you for the birthday wishes, I am 1 year older again.

The day before my birthday received a surprise call from desmond while having my dinner with jg. Thanks desmond for the long distance birthday wish. We chatted for almost half an hour, i think his phone bill will explode. In the end while talking jg already finished his dinner.

Did not took leave so work during my birthday. But was not totally happy, cause the admin side do it anyhow de, in the end I had to help them clear. Like what eunice say, i think the lab people can also do admin and accounts. Really had so much fun working with the lab people.

Anyway we visited the chemistry lab too, really make me think back those are the things that I have used in the past during my poly days. Yesterday roselle wasn't around so when the chemistry things came I actually help to check. By the looking at the list I already know what is it. And really miss those days in poly doing lab work. Was happy to see the chemistry is almost ready which mean very soon we can do all the things ourself already.

Yesterday work until about 9pm, to finish up the plate we need to read on Friday. Then, Sat we are going at 8am to finish up reading sat plate and also do set up. Cause the miro lab people are leaving at 1pm, den we are all going to play bowling to practice our competition in Dec during our company dinner. Lol, I don't even know how to play. We have actually 3 teams. But only the micro side secretly went to practice.

Later going for Soka meeting, den after that meeting Belinda for shopping. Jg might join us later.

I am still very tired, not fully awake.

2010-10-31T13:11:00.002+08:00

Do I feel Happier when I am 21st?

Yesterday had my advance 21st birthday celebration, I was happy to see all my friend, happy to chit chat with them, happy to receive their lovely present. I love all the presents given by them. Want to thank everyone for coming down, my poly friends, janet, jaclyn, xiang rui, wei lang, yu rong, jackson, cheng wai, poh siah, chu zen, faizah, nuan qin, mui hoon, nicholas, si jing, qi ming. My famous amos friends, an qi, lysiel and feeqah. My secondary school friends, yan teng, lay ting, koo jee. My Yec friends, belinda, bernice, veryln, jinguang, ying ying, cassandra, jia jin, alezec, andrew, hyder, choo kim, shi chang, kelvin, si jie & gf, alvin & gf and last but not least tsai ting. Thanks everyone for turning up.

Was so busy entertaining all my friends that I don not have the time to eat.

Well, i am turning 21 this coming tue, do i feel happy? Last time I use to think that i wan to be 21st cause it means freedom, i can do whatever things I like. I really want to be happy this special days, but there is always my family problem that i don't feel happy at all. I really thought of shifting out and start afresh my new life. I want to start from the bottom, you think I can. Somehow I really have no more confidence in guy.

Anyway thanks hyder for sending me home. Bernice send jinguang and kelvin back. Choo Kim and Hyder actually bully me while fetching me home. They want to throw me at the haunted house there, then after that they bring me to the changi prison there, so scary de. Then somemore want to bring me to dunno where. At least they send me home safely, and also help me to bring up all my present.

2010-10-24T20:51:00.003+08:00

I think my work load has increase, more and more things to learn, more and more difficult things to handle. Somewhere i really can't absorb or take in. But will still try very very hard.

Yesterday try to finish my work early and reach home early but in the end i left at 3pm. Reach home almost 5pm, rest for awhile and quickly change my clothing cause got to attend a wedding dinner. Didn't intend to go but in the end was force to go.

It was actually my cousin wedding but is 1 year meet once during CNY but we didn't talk also de. It was held at Intercontinental and it was a very small wedding with only 10 tables cause the wife is from shanghai and they did once there already.

Today went for a short shopping with my sis after like so so so so long. Brought a dress for myself and also brought a shirt for my sis too. Before that my sis went with my aunt to get all the stuff for my birthday.

I am so touch they did so many things for me. Will I cry on that day.

Omg, I actually cry yesterday. I seriously dunno whether that person treat me as friend anot. It have been a few years but i dun feel that we are friends although this is what it has been say out from that person mouth. I am seriously upset over this.

2010-10-17T12:03:00.003+08:00

Too many weakness

Recently, just started to know this person. I don't know if it is good to mix around with him/her. Sometime that person really made me upset, made me angry but I have been telling myself to 4get everything. It has been years, can i really put down everything? I am still trying everyday until this moment. When this person need a listener I lend him/her but in my mind i can't believe that person totally. People surrounding me ask me not be so close to her/him. But I really don't know how. Until now, i still have some chat with that person.

You made me upset, made me cry. I have sleepless night all because of you.

Shall talk about my work place since i have work there for almost 6 months....

Anyway my work task is increasing and the stress level is also increasing. Because I do not have any background in biology therefore I am starting afresh. Trying to absorb as many as I can. Anyway I work well with my colleagues, sometime we do joke around and when it comes to work we can be very serious. When company is growing we have to grow as well. We have just started renovating the chemistry lab. Our new chemist is here, he is really a funny guy dunno why whenever he start talking I will laugh.

Guess my work load is increasing therefore have been going home late everyday, even sat i can go home at 4plus 5 even though i can knock off at 1pm. Therefore has not been feeling well all this while, every night my nose is bleeding, but now lesser already.

Everyone say I have grown up, going to celebrate my 21st Birthday soon. Don't really intend to celebrate, but my sis and family has put in alot of effort, therefore I should play my part and be happy on that day. It also nice to ask all my friends to come, it seems like a good gathering where I can see different groups of friends.

2010-10-12T22:47:00.002+08:00

I Miss you Joseph Lim

My dearest teacher left this world on 5th October 2010, leaving his wife and 2 kids. When I got this news I was terribly sad and could not accept the fact. I thought it was someone who are playing with me.

After that I started to think back in the past during my Secondary schools day. Although, i have not been going back have not been seeing him this past 4 years, but memories remains in my heart. Still remember how we use to laugh and fun together. He will always want sweets from me, but everytime i refuse to give to him.

Although he may be quite fierce at times, but he is really a nice teacher. He has been so healthy since i know him, how could such things happened to him. I remember, he is like rezal, everyday cycle to school.

On 5th October, he had a sudden heart attack in school in the morning. He is only 40 this year, I bet he still has lots of things not finished yet. Please leave peacefully. His kids is still very young, but I believe they are very strong.

Went to his wake on the 7th October after work with lay ting and some of her friends. I saw many teacher and his past to current students. I felt really touched, from here we can see how many of them loves him. I really feeling like crying, but I manage to control.

Manage to saw some of my friends and teacher too.

Mr Lim, we will always remember you.

I am one that treat friendship seriously. Like what I told Belinda, when Joanna did not stay YEC, I really cried infront of her. I got the feeling I will cry on that day and I guess I could not control. Really want to do something that she will remember us forever. If belinda one day would leave YEC, i will do the same thing too. I am so glad that not only I can do voluntarism but also it is a place where I can share my happiness and unhappiness.

2010-10-10T23:53:00.002+08:00

10.10.10

Today is a special day, a day where i should be happy, but it don't turn out to be. 10 is actually my favourite number cause when I am young in my dream this 10 word will also appear.

This morning I actually went to have a short meet up with the SLC teacher, after that rush home and get myself dress up nicely, with make-up etc. After that rush out of my house to meet Chris, cause we are going there early to have briefing and also recee. After that we had our lunch at popeye. But I only ate 1/4 of the mashed potato, cause I also dunno why today dun have the appetite to it.

After that went back to help run the event, so we actually had to ursher the 5 married couples up on the capsule turn by turn. After that we actually went to the holding area for the MP for a rest 1st since there is air-con there. Also took min min to recee the whole place. After that we actually went up to the gather the couples and want them to queue up so that I can bring them now to the holding area but in the end it was a mess, they dun even want to listen to us.

When they went down, another thing happened again, so it e end I had read out the couples name, but I was so touched that Adeline came out to help me, and even people who i don't know. Thanks for helping.

After that received calls from min min and many many calls, the whole thing went wrong again. After the whole thing i was not happy at all, but thanks to some of them for their comfort. Did not had my dinner, cause no appetite again, so actually ate fruits for my dinner. Thanks for some of their concern keep asking me to eat, cause they scared i will faint.

But seriously when I was giving out the hearts, i was feeling giddy and almost black out, but I told myself I can't cause I have a important task. After the whole thing ended took the bus back to cc. On the way had a good talk with Joanna, after many many months. Had also a short talk with Min Min.

Thank You Min Min, Joanna and Belinda. 3 of you are the best that I have known you in cc. I got the feeling I will cry again because of you. I will miss you alot alot!

After that went to have a drink before going home. Thanks Kellie for sending me home.

2010-09-26T22:54:00.004+08:00

It a long long time since i blog.

Still the same, have been busy with works. All the obstacles have not been over, hope that my prayers will stop all this obstacles.

Suddenly, my mine lost track of so many things. So shall just skip everything and talk about today.

Finally, Intergeneration games is over, although did not spend so many time on it but it put in some effort. Well, on our yec side was in-charge of some stations. Yesterday went down to the cc after work to print out some stuffs and prepare abit too. Was trying to arrange all the tables etc but did not see Mr Foo plan so in the end we gave up. So I actually went down cc at 7am, to help Madam Pang with it. All this will have to come with the youths, but if I were to call the YEC people to come down at 7am i think they will scream at me 1st, so decided to come on my own.

Later got the help from choo kim, alezec, natasha, hyder and Suriani. Thanks for everyone help I am able to set up the area by 8.30am.

I think Mr foo is old already can't remember what he have said. He actually ask me to do up the station card so I actually did it and I didn't know that he actually called rena to do the station card and in the end it became a double work. Even benny also keep quiet.

Overall, the whole thing went quite smoothly, with Judith and Adeline as our emcee. They did a great job. Really had lots of laughter with them. Of course had a good chat with some of my Yec people and also people like zone 4 people, ken, Zone 3 chairman. Thanks for all the nice nice chat. Thanks to Karmen for inviting me to his Zone 3 Hari Raya celebration.

After the whole thing, had lunch and then pack up, and of course we have alot of happy time taking picture and print it out from Adeline printer. Nice Nice. Thanks Natasha and Suriani for helping to pack up. After that went to the office to wait for Hyder to come.

Was so happy today cause I received a good news from someone. Can't wait for that day to come. Will it be my god sister or god brother?

Next few week of my weekends will be burnt out too.

2 Oct - Might go down to Zone 3 Hari Raya Celebration

3 Oct - Sing along session with my Soka friends

9 Oct - so far nothing

10 Oct - 10 10 Event, was task to wear nice nice, but I wasn't the one who are going to get married or renew my vow=)

2010-09-05T11:29:00.003+08:00

Its a long long time since my last update.

Since I have been working in the company for 4 months, it time for me to talk about my work.

After working for 4 months, i think so far I has not regret joining this company, I have suffered, I have learn alot too. Sometime is not easy to work together with some of my colleagues. But i had alot of fun working with some too.

Whenever i did something wrong, I will get scolded but I have learn. My director always tell me this. My job routine is always the same. In the morning, will start to do my subculture and it will take about 3 hr for me to finish, it also depend on how many of the food sample that is doing salmonella test. After that i will spend some time to do all my documentation. That where there is food sample I will start to do sample book in for some sample first. What is sample book in?

When the food sample arrived, I will start to book in with their company, their sample description, their test method into the LMS system, well, it may seems easy but to remember few hundreds of company it really difficult. Every company has it own method, wanted to do their own test. It is really easy to make mistakes, if you forgot to do this certain test for them it means gone, complain will start coming in. If my section gone wrong, it means e other section also will do wrong, cause they follow what I have book in. This shows that my section is very very important. It also depend on how many samples we have on that day, if there are alot it will take me like 6hrs to complete it. After i finish my thing, i will help Jo in the sample set-up, learn abit while helping.

This few days was really a hectic for me, having bad headaches. Cause Pei yee our admin, suddenly did so many stupid things that received so much of complain. So now she is forbidden from answering the call, then now I am picking up most of the call while concentrating of doing my own things. Really cant concentrate much.

Anyway we will have 5 more people coming to work hope it really help us. Like what our director say she want us to end work on time and don't work until so late every night. If I am able to end work on time then I can do more things after work.

Until now, have yet to start our focus group meeting, got to do for my intergeneration game, my service learning. My commitment towards soka, my contribution etc. Still have so much things to do and I am really very tired now.

2010-08-22T21:22:00.003+08:00

SSA Lean Walk 2010

Woke up 6am in the morning, and get ready for the Lean Walk organize by SSA which will be held at West Coast Park. So, we actually get a bus for those who want to take from Tampines. Before that meet faizah 1st den headed over to the HQ to wait for the bus to come.

I am so healthy today, I actually walk 5km, but i didnt know that the 5km is really very long. Really had fun walking with chu zen, leanna, si jing, mui hoon, nuan qin and faizah. Thanks for coming down early in the morning and walk with us.

After the walk we head of to IMM for our lunch while waiting for my mother to come.

I went to Malaysia just now to see doctor, cause my mother friend say the chinese doc very good. When there, whatever the doc say was true, so he actually draw my bone behind to tell me my bone is not straight and because of this actually causes all my body for not functioning well. So he actually put 3 needle on my back and the feeling is really very pain. He actually put 1 needle in 1st and he turn in, the feeling is like a screw being inserted into your bone and screw in, there is really sound coming out. After that i hardly can walk and was feeling very giddy, but after awhile it gone, but the pain is still there.

Really hope i can recover cause I want to be a healthy person.

2010-08-17T22:26:00.003+08:00

I need a rest

My grandma is still not recovered yet, but there is still lots of things waiting for me to do. Beside working, have to come back and do all the housework and also have to brainstorm on project. Imagine Intergen event is coming on the 26th Sept, I am left with 1 month, but I have yet to touch any.

I think I do not have enough sleep cause I am having very bad headache this few days.

I am starting to miss everything of YOG. I should go and see one of the YOG competition too, if not don't know when will I have the chance to see it.

2010-08-15T14:45:00.003+08:00

14 August 2010, the day where I will not 4get.

All of us were expected to reach TBSC at 10.30am. We got our Delta 4 t-shirts too from our trainer. Was so touched to receive the t-shirts with story behind it. All of us change into our new t-shirt. We started chanting for free weather, our victory for the night show but lastly we have to chant for the speedy recovery of one of our member in the fire grp. Due to too much inhale of the flame she is in hospital now and couldn't perform on that day.

After that we have lots of show line up for us. We watch the NDP show under Soka item, follow by our own performance on the 11th Aug, the last rehearsal. Following by that we have our KAH who perform for us a korean dance, it was wonderful. Lastly we have all the trainer sing us the YOG theme song. All their performance were great, it really touches my heart.

Have to thank also all the WD and MD for their support, all of them chant for us from 1pm-7pm. Thanks so much for all the chanting.

Soon, we have to set off and head to F1 pit cause there will be road closure so all of us have to reach there early. The most trouble thing is we have to go through the security, the security is very tight. Reach there 1 plus, had our nice lunch. They actually show us the video for the whole performances. After that all of us were ask to take a short nap. So we actually had our nap, we was a wonderful short nap. After that we had our dessert Ice Cream. Follow by our young lion and byakuren singing us a song. Then shortly we had our dinner and get ourselves prepared for our performance.

Before we went down to take our prop, the sky wasn't in good condition, so started chanting. Soon, we went down to take our prop and get ready for our performance, wanna thanks all the young lion and byakuren we cheering us. To be frank I was really really scared, i did not feel confident at all. Although I have perform Chingay twice, but this time is really different, the whole world is looking at us.

The moment when we step into the performing my heartbeat was beating fastly, but I chant in my heart is really our last show, no mattar what we have to do it.

Know what our result? We score victory. Especially the dragon head really did a good job, they managed to went up the slope and also drive slowly so that all of us are able to form the dragon body. When i saw the moment, my tears really drop, cause out of all rehearsal we had not perform so well.

Yes, Wei Hao say we scored 500%. Thanks everyone for putting up the wonderful show. But then It is really a very sad thing, we won't be back to CHIJ, Mandai cap, Marina Bay platform for our training and rehearsal again. We won't be able to meet our trainers so often. After this few months of practice, everything is worth it. I must say i nearly cried but i didn't cried out. I really miss all of them.

As a group we went for supper and chit chat but not all came. When one by one leave we hug each other, the feeling is really very very bad. Suddenly i don't feel like leaving them. When can we meet again?

Another sad thing is that my grandma is in the hospital, dunno when will she be recovered. But I want to thank my trainer for supporting me all this while despite all the struggles I have faced.

A VERY BIG THANK YOU EVERYONE!

I LOVE YOU!

2010-08-09T17:28:00.003+08:00

Happy Birthday Singapore

Surprise that I am home? Got to look after my grandma at home cause she is sick and also I didn't help out in any of the National Day. Firstly cause wanna let the junior to experience it. Secondly cause I am very tired due to my SYOG preparation, all my rehearsal will clash with all the national day rehearsal etc. Maybe shall take a rest next year so that I can help them.

So happy, holiday today, no work for me. But tml will be back to work again. The next happy thing is that Wednesday I am on leave due to my SYOG last rehearsal, is a very important rehearsal which I must not leave. Lastly I am taking leave on Saturday which is the Opening Ceremony of SYOG.

Although my leg hurts after all the rehearsal but I will not give up. I am going to put up my best show on the 11th and 14th Aug. I will miss all of my friends & trainer in Delta 4.

2010-08-08T14:19:00.005+08:00

Last 1 SYOG Rehearsal

Kind of miss everything now, miss all the time I had spent with them for this few months. Yesterday was my last second SYOG Rehearsal.

My trainer was awesome, never failed to provide us foods and sweets for every single training and they even made t-shirts for all of us. Feel bad if we don't need to fork out single cents.

On Saturday as usual went to work so i try to finish up my work quickly and left about 2 plus den i decided to meet them at the F1 pit cause i think by the time i reach TBSC they are leaving already. Reach there get ourselves change and get ready for our dinner. My grp member is like hungry ghost, keep eating non-stop. Dinner was not too bad. Soon after our dinner, we had our music run on our seat itself my counting aloud. Follow by that we are another music run but all of us stand up and starting to do the action on the spot. Actually was feeling quite nervous. After that we get ourselves prepared and went down to do warm up. Our costumes are really heavy and the prop is even heavier.

While queuing up for our turn to perform at the marina bay platform suddenly i felt very tired and having bad headache. But thanks to my trainer for the panadol and the water. Actually they wanted to replace me and ask me to rest but i insist on going down. Soon after it our turn, i really made it throughout until the very last moment where we have to run up very fast cause there is another performance. While running through halfway I almost wanted to give up. The Delta grp IC, Xi Yi wanted to help me to take the prop but I insisted of taking it myself. In the end Kenneth took away my prop, and Rui Ling too my helmet and my shirt for me. While Chu Zen accompany me. Thanks to all this people who have help me or take care of me.

I love you Kenneth and Rui Ling, thanks for being a good trainer of mine. Thanks for the encouragement along the way. I am so lucky to have known u all too.

I will make sure I will not fall Sick on the 11th and 14th, I will put up my very best show. I will continue to chant more and even more.

2010-07-25T10:00:00.002+08:00

Another week of Summary

Mon-Saturday was just basically work for me, but it so peaceful to work this week cause my director is on holiday from wed-sun, den my operation manager away from wed to thurs. We finish our things quite early cause we started early.

Yesterday left work early cause dun feel like staying until so late so meet leanna early den we go for a walk 1st before we meet chu xiang. Meet chu xiang, 5pm at promenade mrt station after that we went for our combined rehearsal. We meet at the F1 pit first den our trainer help us to cut our shoes and then those army guys will help us to drill holes cause we actually complain it is giving us blister after wearing it. After that we went to put our pant den went to deposit our bags. Chatted awhile with my group people while waiting for our dinner. We had a very full dinner, we ate the army bento set, a bottle of coke (but i don't drink), ice cream and pudding. Yum Yum. Our trainer still buy so many different pastry from polar. Soon after that we had to go for our combined rehearsal already. We actually walk from F1 pit all the way to marina platform there to assemble first. While waiting for our turn to perform we actually watch the fireworks cause NDP had performance on that day too. Is nice watching the fireworks while sitting down.

Was really tired after 1 rehearsal, my whole pant is wet cause it seems like the water is getting higher and higher each time when you are there. My leg hurts, but I told myself this is the challenge that I have to overcome, even though I know my leg are not very good but I am still willing to try it.

2010-07-18T12:53:00.002+08:00

Have been reaching work early this week but still cant finish my work at least it has been reduced. So, i am going back this week early too to finish up everything before my next audit and also before i go for a few days leave for my YOG training.

On wednesday, stay back late cause was having a chat with my director and Jo. She really can understand me and know what I am thinking. I agreed with her too. I will suffer in the end if what I only want is to make people happy. In order to make that person happy I will do whatever I can even though I may be busy or very tired. Alot people have been telling me especially my close friends. They have been telling me to share the burden. We talk until 9 plus then too a cab back cause company paying. It can be nice working there and of course there is bad point too.

Was so enthu in my work that I forgot the timing for my training, so faster change and rush down to meet them but i was late for 20mins. Our meeting venue was at the F1 pit and when i reach there there were so many people. out of all other performances ours has the most number of participant was a number of 530. Had dinner provided by them and the food is the camp food which I have been seeing them regularly in my work. Had the feel of our heavy prop too and it is really very heavy, my hands are aching. Ours was the last item and yesterday was a combined rehearsal. We waited until 10 like this for our turns and we had 2 run through. It is so nice to see everyone running in the water. But one thing I don't like is the water is very dirty.

My legs really hurts alot.

Ying Hui, You can do it.

2010-07-11T09:51:00.003+08:00

Let me finish up what i did for this whole week

Wed and thurs was just working and working. But after thurs work rush down for syog training at CHIJ toa payoh. Althought i was there very very late but at least i am able to do 2 music run and some formation run.

Friday work as usual but couldn't really concentrate on work due to something, actually was thinking should i go cause i really hate to send people of, i will feel very upset but in the end i still went to send des off. I told myself i must control myself and i must not cry. Pass him also his last present. so overall, his farewell gift we got him a magic kit and wallet and i also did a calender book for him with lots of memories. Time up and he has to go in, really feel so sad, but i controlled. few minutes later we received a msg from him saying "thanks for sending him off, and he will miss all of us and ending with a sad face". I feel so pain when i read there and that moment my feeling was really really very bad. But i told myself I must controlled. after that went supper with jg and ying ying cause didn't had my lunch. Really had a good catch up ying ying, we share alot of things and I know that you still know that I am not those kind of people who can put down every so easily.

I ended up crying at home while seeing of the photos. BFF, I will miss you, thanks for everything. Please take care of yourself when you are there, when you feel like giving up, think of us, we will always be there to support you. See you back soon, can't wait it nov now.

Later going out to celebrate one of my pig family 21st birthday. soon, it going to be mine turn. but i am not sure if I am going to celebrate.

2010-07-07T22:13:00.004+08:00

Sunday

Went to tour around the whole place searching for present. Met alvin and he drive us there. finally got what we want although we really can't think of what to buy. After that had dinner first before we went back.

Mon & Tue

Work as usual for me for both days. But yesterday went to meet them for 1 last dinner before desmond leave. Thanks, ying ying, richmond, cassandra, jia jin, alvin, bernice, kelvin and jg for turning up. It was also a last minute thing tat we decided to give belinda a surprise. cause desmond already made the cake so don't want to keep util the next day, so in the end we went after dinner. in the end left the few of us went. Since alvin was driving, jg and bernice took alvin car, so i took desmond car. went to des house first to get the cake den to my house to take the present then, both driver were trying to find their way to belinda house. so, alvin actually check his gprs and we follow him, in the end we went to the wrong place and make 2 u-turn and i actually laugh at the way he drive. But we still manage to reach belinda place before 12am.

somehow, she know that we will be going so celebrated for her and have some short chat before we went home. Reach home 1plus close to 2am and sleep like 3am. Thanks desmond for driving me back.

feeling so tired, cause have been coming home late for few days. Hope he like the calender book that I had spend one week doing it.

oh no, i am crying. someone told me that i would but i couldn't believe it and now i start to believe it already. Feeling so sad.

2010-07-04T11:48:00.002+08:00

Another week has passed

Same old routine, have been working from Monday to Saturday. Thursday went down for a meeting on intergeneration game, is the 2nd time we are working with them and really hope that every year there will be one. Really laugh out through the whole meeting with some entertainment like adenline, benny, Mr foo etc.

Friday it our yec meeting, was so surprise that work ended quite early although it was a friday. after work went to buy a cake first den headed to meeting. Was so surprise to see so many people when i step in but not enough to start a meeting cause most of them are observer and our own yec people were late too.

Meeting went off quite smoothly but I was tired. The yec project stress is coming, all of us have been slacking for the 1st half of the year, cause everyone project keep postponing so we ended up having lots of project from now to dec. Hong lim came for our meeting first cause he wanted our help during the National day and also want to do a project together. it seems that we are popular now. after meeting had a small celebration for the july babies den also give desmond the gift that we had brought for him. Hopefully he likes it.

After that all of us headed for supper, actually was so tired to go but in the end I went. We went to Geylang for dim sum, den jg friend also came to find us. After that thanks desmond for driving us home, but before that went to michael house to pass him labtop cause he 4got to took it home. Reach home around 1plus in the morning and slept at 3am and woke up at 5.30am.

Reach work early to finish up some of my things and I stay in the office until 4pm den i left. When i was documenting some of the results i actually felt asleep. After work went to the new sembawang shopping centre for a walk first before meeting them at Kranji to have dinner and go for training together. My training venue is getting further and further, every thurs is at toa payoh CHIJ, sat is at Mandai Camp. Yesterday training was very tired cause have to hold the heavy prop and my whole hand is aching now. Really have to thank those Ns men team for joining our performance and make this whole SYOG performance a success. Yesterday training the fire team actually light up their prop with fire too, can see some of them almost injured themselves with the fire. Really have to chant lots of daimouku.

Anyway i was so touched by a person this week, the words that he say out really make me feeling like crying. I will miss you, please take care and be happy.

2010-06-28T00:21:00.002+08:00

On saturday, wanted to go work early but in the end can't wake up cause the previous day left very late just to do something. Work ended quite early for me after that went to city hall to meet the rest. Was working, so i get evelyn to help book the ticket. Reach there and saw robin and was so shocked cause i thought he really didn't come so didn't get his ticket. after that quickly ran to marina square to get another ticket and luckily i got it.

we went to watch toy story 3d, cause belinda say she never water 3d before. The movie was really very funny and cute. After movie we went to have dinner, while belinda and robin left 1st cause they got something on.

Jg friend bring us to somewhere in beach road to eat fish steamboat. After that jg friend fetch us to crossfire cause they want to play lan game, so i actually accompany them and in the end i fell asleep there. went home around 12 plus.

Really had a great day with belinda, robin, jg, kelvin, desmond, shi chang, evelyn and jg friend kellie. thanks for disturbing me too.

today went out with yanteng for lunch in the afternoon after so long. Must go swimming soon, haven been going for 2 months already. after that went walk walk den went to find desmond 1st while waiting for jg to cab down. oh no, really had a miscommunication, today is the northeast gathering and all of us thought really is 6pm so we happily took our time there but we are suppose to reach at 4.30pm for the meeting cause rezal could not make it down. anyway we went down to get updates for rezal, then was force to play a game.

after that chat with our ym, michelle for awhile first before we head for our dinner near the coffee shop cause none of us want to eat the bbq food. after that we took bus back to bedok interchange, then desmond went home from there while i accompany jg to 85 to get some dessert before he send me home.

had another fruitful day and thanks for disturbing me 1 more day again.

2010-06-19T23:29:00.003+08:00

Tiring Week

Firstly let me summarize what had happened for this 1 week.

Monday after work went to meet shi chang in the cc to discuss about the seminar, den jg ask go eat supper, so i told him that after I have finished discussing with shi chang den we go. In the end he received a call, so he went to play basketball first, den i meet him later.

Tuesday and was just work ba, but very busy at work cause preparing for the audit on Friday.

Wednesday went to celebrate desmond b'day after work. Went to desmond house to wait for him together with cassandra, ying ying, jia jin and jg. We actually sang b'day song at the lift, so he went home to celebrate from his family and he invited us in too. After that he drive us to have supper at Geylang. Then he send us home and I was the last to reach home cause he go to the wrong expressway and we ended up almost at Woodlands.

Thursday went down after work to cc to help settle something, before that hurry went down to buy last minutes logistics item for them before heading to the cc. After preparing all the things we head down to 85 to have supper again, den they send me home.

Friday, was so sad that I couldn't make it down for the seminar. But want to thank jg, desmond, kelvin, alezec, shi chang, evelyn for being there. First time experience how does audit look like, it can be fun but it is supper tiring, ended work around 9pm and my whole body was aching, so after work actually took cab home cause can claim from company.

Today went for work as usual den quickly get my things done and went for the sports carnival, but didnt help much cause ending le. But manage to have a small talk with a few people which I haven met for sometime. After that help to shift everything back to the cc, den started to discuss some project with jg den we went for dinner. Went with belinda, bernice, jg, kelvin, jing kai and yip kai. The dinner was not bad, den after that all of us went home, so me and kelvin accompany jg to someone house then they send me home. Thanks for the massage just now, felt much better. But still having fever.

2010-06-09T23:16:00.003+08:00

PAYM Award Ceremony 2010

Currently still busy with lots of things, when will it end? I think i take up too many leadership role already, should I give up some?

Last week YEC meeting was quite happening. Went down after work, ask belinda help to get a cake cause celebrating June b'day, but apparently only desmond turn up, so the cake is for him. Anyway our main purpose is to take picture and wad the picture is going to use for is still secret. After meeting went to have supper and a short discussion. Our topic on that day was "Why do we join YEC" and "What make us stay?"

After that hyder drive me home, on the way home this is still our discussion. Chatted with hyder and Su for an hour at my house downstairs. Well, we all think that there is something wrong with the YEC. So we actually thought of some suitable solution to solve it. Whatever they said actually made me feel like crying. They mention now now everybody is like me, when i enter I was young but I was a understanding person and take things seriously.

When i reach home spend another 1hr to talk to jg in msn and I realised that there is so much thing I still dunno about him. Thanks for sharing with me everything that you are worried about, your xin shi. I know you for so long but you nv really share with me your xin shi only I am the one have been sharing all this while. We have all set our mission for this year and we will do it and bear in mind our mission.

After chatting it ended up to be about 2am, so i only slept for about 3.5hr before I had to wake up for work.

Today went to find a book but still couldn't find it. Is a special gift that we are doing for our close friend. Still haven think what we are going to eat this Sunday yet.

Where have you gone to?

2010-06-03T22:30:00.002+08:00

Tuesday

Went to work as usual, den later in the afternoon received alezec message and he ask if we want to go 85 for supper, so we are the one that just follow the gang de. Desmond got lesson until 10pm, so i think maybe he don't feel like waiting le den he say he tired, so in the end we did not go

Wednesday

Went to work as usual, den this time round I received message and ask if want to go 85 for supper but this time round is jg. They stay at cc to do something first so I went home after work den later on desmond came to fetch me and we head to 85 for dinner. I can be a very slow person so did not realise that I was having fever, den desmond say why my hand so hot. He brought me a bowl of porridge and I can't finish. After that we went home.

Thursday

Initially, jg ask me out for dinner cause he need to pass to his friend something but in the end he 4got to bring out. So in the end we didnt go.

Not in the good mood now cause something happen. How i wish you can be 10 steps closer to me. Seriously very tired, but I can't give up cause there is still lots of things waiting for me to do. More and more projects coming up.

2010-06-01T00:40:00.002+08:00

My whole body is so suan

Went to see Chinese doctor just now and thanks jg and kelvin for the accompany there and back home. Thanks desmond for wanting to send me there after work but he got held up by his interview. I am so lucky to know you all, you all nv fail to be by my side when I have problems.

PAYM Award

Went work as usual in the morning and after that went back home to prepare myself and meet them to go together. Was suppose to meet 4.30pm but didn't received jg msg (his phone is mad) so i took my time until desmond call me and ask whether am I ready I told him I haven bath yet. So quickly went to bath and prepare myself by 5pm. Initially we wanted to took a cab there in the end got 5 of us so we took 2 cab. Desmond took cab from his house to my house den we went together. Then, jg, bernice and shi chang took another cab.

We reach there first so started looking for the place and finally we found it. We took pictures first before the dinner start. Had some chit chat session with Michael Leow too b4 the dinner. Well, we did not have our dinner peacefully. Having dinner also plan for future project cause our chairman want us to get top 3 in 2 years time. It our 2nd time getting the award.

After dinner, we took train back and can see all of us were tired. Reach home and wanted to slp but in the end I fell and was so painful that i sit there for almost an hour b4 i recovered.

Leo Outing

Went out with my leo people on the Sunday. Before that meet say kiat 1st and brought zheng kang b'day present and card. After that went back to the station to meet the rest of the people. Then, we proceed to marina square to have our buffet lunch, had so much fun with them. After that went to watch movie and home sweet home. Can't wait for the next outing with them again. But say kiat going to NS already after which will be zheng kang turn.

Felt my leg is still pain and can't walk properly so ask jg to find for me if there is any chinese doctor that is still open. In the end we didn't manage to find one. So wait until today den go and see.

Have been planning lots of things when we meet, alot of mission to fufil within this month, that is when my stress is back again. Felt so much better after jg help me to message just now, but I am very tired now so going to sleep.

2010-05-26T21:51:00.004+08:00

Graduated

So happy, I am finally graduated after 3 years of hard work. Was on 1 day leave that day, after the ceremony took pic and went home 1st, bath and get change and went to meet my clique for dinner at Crystal Jade. It was my 1st time having buffet there, not too bad and they ate lots of xiao long bao, keep ordering and ordering.

Have been working in the company for a month le, I have learn alot of things and I am still quite slow now. I think sooner or later I will get the hand of it.

I miss all my friends, and there is always 1 that I can't miss. Your promise seems to be a lie to me.

Another busy week, but so happy Friday is a holiday. Saturday going back for half day work den going home to get prepared and meet my YEC friends cause got the PAYM award dinner to attend, finally can see them again. Sunday going out with my leo friends another happy day. Friday most likely going to eddy house for bbq with my poly clique. Another happy day.

Still have not catch up with lots of my friends, must find 1 day.

2010-05-09T22:00:00.002+08:00

Mother's Day

I am 30% Happy and 70% Sad today. The day start of well by having accompany from my grandma, we went shopping at tampines mall for awhile before heading to my aunt house for dinner. Brought myself a pair of shoes cause my shoes sole is gone already, brought socks for my grandma cause she say my brother one, brought a 4 roses for my mother and all my aunt.

They were very happy to receive rose from me and I am very happy when I see them smiling, but later on it become a totally sad mood for me cause something happened, so I cried too.

I am very tired with all the things that have been happening again. I just started work and I am really independent now, beside asking $ from them I even pay for whatever things they want. When people ask me why I work too places, am I not tired. The true is I am very tired but why do I want to work. 2 reasons why I continue to work in famous amos is because, the first reason is I can bring extra income, second is because I felt happy with them.

With my income now, I am paying for the flat rental, my own daily meals, my expenditure, my bus fare, my brothers school daily meal and sometime my house grocery. I already try my best, I will do whatever I can, even if I have to find a job to work in the night I will not think but do it.

I think I am now getting to look like my mother. 1 of my auntie say just now because of my mother character that why she can't stand her. I started to think back, this is also part of the reason why he left me too.

Cried for a few hours already, although my eyes are so red and swollen I just can't stop crying.

2010-05-09T11:49:00.003+08:00

I am Sick

Its my 11th Day of work already. Saturday was a half day work for me, manage to finish my work on time but stay awhile more to clear a few things so that i got lesser things to do on Monday. My determination and goal now is to do my things fast and nice so that I can finish my things on time. Can't wait to have outing with all my friends.

My next outing with my famous friends on the 14th May 2010 and my next outing with my Leo friends is on the 30th May 2010.

Yesterday after my work went to the CC to meet shi chang to get from him update on the supernova things, there is really still lots of things to do and people are not doing their part. So people like me will go and do the things. Was so tired so didn't want to stay at the cc with the rest.

I still owe him alot of favour, so will use all my Sunday to help him if he have things to do. My tables is still left with alot of undone stuff, tell me how am I going to clear them.

Going my aunt house to eat later, I am going to help all of them celebrate Mother's Day. Wish all mothers Happy Mother's Day too.

How come I didn't manage to see you? But at least I am able to see 1 of your things after so long.

2010-05-05T22:21:00.002+08:00

8th Day of Work

I have ever think does this job really suit me although it abit far for me? My answer is yes for now. Cause I have told someone what I hope to find in my work. Firstly, I want to be busy in my work. People must be thinking I am mad right, is better to find a relax job. But I am the person who want to keep myself busy. Secondly, I must not have much free time.

Although why after working, I lost my appetite. For my lunch I only manage to eat half of a packet of my food and for dinner I just ate a bread. This is what I eat for this 8 days.

Yesterday met han hong and his cousin at causeway point and we had dinner together. But I only manage to eat the burger, was so full to eat the fries too. Anyway thanks say kiat and han hong for the souvenir from taiwan.

Still busy with all my YEC things, did not really touch on it. Anyway we got ourselves award again, which means we are the top 10 YEC now. But I got the feeling it will drop for this coming term cause I don't have much energy and our YEC is slacking too.

If I end work tml going to join zone 4 to go block visit, is my 1st experience. Saturday got to meet shi chang after work to discuss about SuperNova things and Sunday got a mini celebration for YEC and also a short meeting if most of them can make it.

I am sick now, have been sneezing throughout the whole day. Just took medicine so I am going to rest early later cause I still want to work tml.

~I really have no confident in relationship anymore, I prefer to be friends at least we can be friends forever. Have I really make a wrong step? If I have made a correct step, I might be in a better mood now. For those who are in a relationship now really treasure it cause I hope you all have not made a wrong step.~

2010-04-29T22:39:00.002+08:00

4th day of work

Was so busy and tired to blog this few days. Firstly, my journey all the way to my work place took me 1hr30min, how I wish someone can drive me there so don't need to wake up so early. The company I am working in is Ugene Laboratory Pte Ltd which is a microbiology lab. First day of work, learn alot of thing and also try to absorb as much as I can but until the 4th day now, I still can't get everything into my head, I still make mistakes here and there.

My main job scope now is everyday in the morning I will do sub culture until 12pm. Sub culture is to incubate and streak all the samples into the different agar plates. After tat I will go for my lunch then I will do book in. In the afternoon, our deliveryman will go all the various company to collect their samples back for us to test. Cause the company itself using produce their food in the morning, so only in the afternoon we are able to take the samples. In one day itself there is so many company. Our regular customer are like cold storage, polar, chinese medicine, asian blending, hotels etc. Always can't finish by 6pm so in the end also go back late.

Always buy my lunch first before going to work, cause everyone in my company do this, cause we don't have the time to go out and buy food, lots of things to do in a day. Today after work when to meet my friends at potong pasir to collect our graduation gown, den dinner together. Had alot of fun chatting with them.

SuperNova and Service-Learning stuff yet to start really doing it. How can I survive? Anyway our YEC got the top 10 award again. Hooray, guess this year I don't have much energy to do so many le.

Feel like going out, where should I go?

2010-04-24T10:47:00.002+08:00

Found a new job

Went for a interview at 10am and the place is at woodlands. So woke up and left my house early in order not to be late. The interview went on quite smoothly for me and so far this is my 3rd interview. The person who interview me was quite nice and I had a positive remark from her and also I manage to pass the test by her. During the interview, she mention that i am the 10 one who come for the interview so abit worried that I might not get the job since I got so much competition but in the mid of the interview I was not so worried due to the comment given by her. Also before the day of my interview I actually chanted 1hr of daimouku. After the interview in about 2hr time I received the job that I got accepted. At that moment I was so happy and I told my family about it. After a few hour later they called me and tell me I can start work on monday, so i quickly call juli and tell her I can't work in famous amos. But thinking back, i have been working here for 2years and 2 months, really miss all the friends I know, so I told juli that I can work on the weekend sometime.

I am graduating soon, is on the 18th May, my family wanted to come cause I am the eldest one in the family. How I wish I have cousin older than me so not so stress. My grandma want me to get married early also cause she want to see me get married. If I have a older cousin den not so stress le.

Yesterday had a happy and relax time going out. It have been a long time since I go out cause having been spending time working and attending for meetings. Later going for bakuryen at SYC den for my district zadankai at uncle daniel place. Tml got to reach cc at 8am for the baby show event. My role for tml is registration and make the baby happy. I will start my day tml happily cause I get to see many cute baby, they never fail to bring me laughter.

After that need to head off for work. Next week going to work mon-fri, 9am-6pm den sat and sun work at famous amos.

Still have so much things to do. When will I complete it. Now, someone ask me to help in that project and I actually agreed to it. Which mean, on my hand now i got 3 project to be carried out in another 1-2 months time. I still have my Soka side not done yet.

2010-04-20T00:38:00.003+08:00

Celebrating Hui Wen Birthday

Woke up early to settle a few things, den meet alezec in the late afternoon to buy materials for making the b'day card and also get a mango cake from emicake. Then we headed to the cc to do up the cake while hui wen was alone in the morning. It was a surprise for her. So we actually wait for shi chang to come first then we celebrate for her. She is really surprised by us.

After the celebration all of them left, so me and jg went to have dinner first before I go for my zadankai rehearsal. Met Joanne in the bus as she was on her way for her RC Meeting. She suddenly ask me if hui wen is also in YEC, I told her, she just join a few months ago. So, she say is best to have our the other half in the YEC cause we are busy with so many events/activities that we got no time for the other half. So if he/she join, we are able to see each other more and often. Actually when she say I actually agreed with her.

I think if one day I really find my another half I will ask him to join YEC too cause I must say that more than half of my time is spend on my event/activities.

Actually to find a job, I have alot of criteria in mind. The job I work in must not clash with my meetings and my gakkai activities.

Did not went for SYOG daimoukukai but my zadankai rehearsal but I am thankful that my trainer understand me cause I am going to skip this sat training due to my zadankai. Cause I am a district leader now and my e other partner is a fire trainer so I dun expect him to skip training.

Have been thinking back this few days. I have made a wrong step in accepting him. I should not have accept him, I think I have hurt him alot. How can I actually give some stupid reason to leave him and go with another person. But I am so glad that he did not blame me at all but he still treat me nice. I am so sorry. If the time can be turned back will I still leave him and go for the another one? If I don't leave him, will we be still happy and loving now? As for now, I really want to wish you all the best in your life.

2010-04-18T00:37:00.003+08:00

It's Saturday

Yesterday slept very late just to finish what I have to do for SuperNova, then went to the cc earlier to print out all the stuffs and get prepared for meeting. The meeting went on quite smoothly, after that went to tampines for a walk first den head of to CHIJ for my SYOG dance training.

The dance training today was so funny, had alot of fun chatting too. Basically today training is like running around, can't even do our proper steps, in the end we only did abit of the steps. But can't make it for the coming training cause I have to go for my district Zakandakai, is more important.

Anyway I am seriously very tired this few weeks, have been overwork myself with lots of things. Busy with SuperNova, Service-learning with Ngee Ann Sec and my Soka commitment. I am sorry if I have vent out my anger or show tiredness in me. YEC seems to get very busy, want to help out but I don't have the time too.

Due to all my busy schedule, that why I haven't found a job, but now I am working almost everyday at famous amos. Anyway will be going for a few interview, hopefully I am able to find something I want.

2010-04-14T23:54:00.003+08:00

Outing with Famous Amos Friends

Met up with feeqah and lysiel in the afternoon for a small outing. We went marina square pizza hut to have our lunch cum dinner. Had alot of fun talking and laughing. Then suddenly, the table beside us suddenly talk about famous amos we got a shocked. Don't know why out of all the conversation we only heard that word.

After that we went walk walk around and drop by at the marina square famous amos. After that feeqah left 1st cause her sch re-open tml need to prepare. After that lysiel and me went to the esplanade there to take pic then we walk to OUB centre and try our luck to see if the bread shop is still opened but by the time we reach there is close already. So sad, didn't managed to try.

Lysiel is the 2nd inter that i went out and have a good chat with. The first one was Michele but she is back in her country already, miss her.

The moment I on my computer, there is lots and lots of things for me to do. On my table now is lots of things to settle for Service Learning and SuperNova day camp, doing bit by bit everyday.

Later going to work at 2.30pm maybe before that going out for a walk cause haven been going out for sometime. My cough and flu is not getting better.

2010-04-13T12:39:00.007+08:00

I am SICK

After last week of tiredness, i am sick now. Overwork myself last week le. Yesterday working already not feeling very well le, so buy medicine to eat. Met Shi chang yesterday to discuss about SuperNova also abit blur blur le, den reach home fall onto the bed and sleep. This morning was feeling uneasy so quickly wake up and took medicine again.

Really dun feel like going work later, feeling weak but no choice no one is working. Now my poor shop only left 4 person including me. Jing Jing is also sick but she can't take MC too, den lysiel can only work 8 hr a day cause she is having her attachment, Aishah is schooling so she can only work after school. Don't wish to see Juli (supervisor) to fall sick also so I will still drag myself to work. Don't know if I can survive through anot. I got the feeling I am going to faint soon.

2010-04-11T21:19:00.002+08:00

Zone 4 Floor party cum house visit @ blk 261

Was staying at my mum place yesterday, so left at 6.30am in the morning cause was suppose to meet lydia at 7.30am to talk about the games. Had breakfast first den later on went to blk 261 to prepare all the things. Had lots of fun with all my new mothers. The floor party idea was good, had time mingle with some of the residents and also we manage to ask a few of them to join RC. I really love the way where we had to do house visiting, i think through this den we can know the residents well.

After that we went back to RC to have our own mini party. Had lots of fun talking picture and disturbing each other. Had also our own de-brief session after the whole thing. After everything has ended walk with chris to Tampines station and I took Mrt to IMM to meet my auntie cause was supposed to dry the clothing. Those clothing that I had dried really had the feeling that I am getting married already.

Chit Chat Session

Had a short talk with 2 person whom I haven been talking to them for quite sometime. 1st one is min min, everytime she see me she will start to ask me alot of things, but I am grateful tat she has helped me alot and care for me.

The next one was Joanna, she also asked me alot of things and even give me suggestion on what to do and help me to do some research. We also started to talk about when i know her. And now I am graduating already, time really flies, didn't know that I have known her for so long. Please take care of your health too, don't overwork yourself.

Looking more to have this small chit chat session with many other people.

I miss you (Secret)

2010-04-10T12:06:00.002+08:00

I am Stress

In the first half of the day I enjoy myself but the last part of the day i am so stress up. Meet belinda, her bf and jg for breakfast at compass point mac. On the journey there i was thinking the last time I went there was like 2 years before already. The first outlet that i work in Famous Amos was at compass point, but the staff there change quite abit so don't really know all of them. After breakfast we went to the Icing room to do the b'day cake for rezal. Had lots of fun but i use to do it during work so to me not so fun.

After that we went back to the cc cause belinda was working afternoon shift. So, we slack at 1-3 while waiting for YEC meeting to start. Meet ah Tay too to do something. We got so excited about the cockroach that made all of us run out of the room.

After dinner, went to do rezal b'day card but did not take a pic of it. My handmade card. It was a surprise that 20 YEC member turn up for the meeting, don't know why so special. Other meeting was like waiting for people to come so that we can reach until 10 people.

Basically my YEC project now is supernova camp and service-learning. But supernova camp has been giving me lots and lots of headache. The new concept now will be a day camp which will last for 3 days which mean I have got lots and lots of things to think now and to change the whole program. I am so tired, my brain is like dead now, can't think of anything. After the meeting, met up with the SN committee and start to brainstorm abit how are we going to do this.

I guess i overwork myself this week. Everyday i have only average of 3hr of sleep. Tml is the Zone 4 floor party cum house visit but until now I have yet to think of any ice-breakers game for the resident. HOW? Later i am going to SYC for bakuryen and after that rush for my SYOG training. Did not went down for institutional meeting just now cause was having bad headache.

Currently now staying at mum place to help her look after the house and the car cause she went holiday with her new bf. Tml need to reach zone 4 at 8am so need to leave early again.

2010-04-09T08:03:00.002+08:00

I am Tired

Work throughout this 4 days was tired for me cause got lots of things to do. On the 7 April, there is a increase in the price and most of the product are affected which mean I need to re-memorise the price. The day before the increase the sales was quite bad but didn't expect that the increase of the price the sales has turn so much better. I think they love the increase of price. As for me, my working style is when customer want something and if is within my limit i will do it. Last night there was a last min order but together with aishah we manage to do it in time, congrat but i think it wasn't too nice. Congrat, we manage to hit the target yesterday too but my paper work did not do well, going to re-do. I injured my leg again, pain now. But now I am eating medicine everyday to endure the pain.

For this whole week, the latest I wake up is 6.45am, can't believe it right although I am not schooling at all. The earliest I sleep was close to 2am. Lots of activities this whole week which require me to wake up early.

Later going to meet belinda and jg at compass point to do rezal cake and get his present. Hope you will like it. You are the best chairman I ever met.

Shall go rest my leg and body for awhile before i go off.

2010-04-04T09:06:00.002+08:00

It's Sunday

On Saturday, 4get that got SuperNova meeting until Shi chang remind me so was late for 30min. So far, the program went on quite smoothly but still have to rush. Now the big problem is the venue, now waiting for Tampines Sec reply. Anyway this has become my big headache for now. The second one will be my service-learning project.

After that slack in the office with jg. I just realised lots of things which I don't know. Sometime I feel that we should be honest, i know there is stress but if one day I open a company I will ensure that the thing I set is really what can be produced but not asking my workers to give something which is not true at all. But anyway after awhile I accepted it.

Anyway my answer is I put YEC as my parent. I know you all are there for me whenever I am feeling down, sick etc. I really appreciate it and I love all of you. I really love the days spending with all of you.

All of them ask me to work that job but I still thinking. Anyway i told them i would prefer a job where can occupy me all days, cause I want to keep myself busy, i don't want those free time to let me think of other things. But for belinda she cannot. I think this is me, i just love to see my diary full of activities everyday I think even favien who just enter YEC also ask me am I the one that must keep myself occupied.

Well, later going to wan qing house for soka meeting after which have to head of for work until 10.30pm. Going to work everyday from coming Mon-thurs.

Next week schedule:

Monday: Work 9-5pm after that head off to SYC for spsd meeting

Tuesday: Work 9-5pm, if got spsd daimokukai will go after work

Wednesday: Work 2.30-10.30pm, for now can rest in the morning

Thursday: 9-10.30pm, this is a very long hr work day

Friday: SLC interview in the late afternoon, den YEC meeting. Maybe in the morning to afternoon going to get a b'day cake for rezal

Saturday: Byakuren Renaissance Meeting at SYC after that rush off for SYOG training.

Sunday: Early in the morning need to head off to zone 4 to prepare for the house visit and floor party. After that need to head off to IMM to try clothing.

2010-04-01T07:30:00.002+08:00

April Fool

So fast, now is already April, thinking back, I really did not do so much thing or contribute. As a District Leader now, I realised I did not do enough, from now onwards I must contribute alot and help others too.

Recently I have joined something which will add on to my busy schedule. I am now the AM of Zone 4 RC, i actually think quite sometime whether I want to join. Later on I decided to join, cause I love all of them, they are just like mother, take care of me, give me the love and now I am the youngest member in the committee.

Even though I have join the RC, but I am still in YEC. I know what I am doing, i will treat both of them equally. Because I have join RC, some of them was quite unhappy that I will put YEC aside and concentrate on others.

Overview of what I did the past few days, Monday went to kbox with my sec sch clique and also celebrate Lay ting b'day but before that went to cc to have supernova meeting to discuss about the program. Tuesday and Wednesday work from 9am-5pm, working in the morning is better more things to do. From next week onwards, going to left 4 people working, cause 2 of them quit cause school starting. Really miss all of them, but nvm we will have a outing.

Later at night going for zone 4 meeting + discuss about the blk visit next sun. Tml going out, Saturday going to have meeting again and SYOG Training and Sunday, district leader meeting and work. My schedule is fully packed now.

2010-03-28T23:56:00.002+08:00

Happy Sunday

Although it was a full day outside but I had lots of happy time. Meet some of my classmates and some of my YEC friends at Tampines Mrt station to bring them to Soka Youth Musical Concert at SSA HQ. Thanks all for coming down (Leanna, Mui Hoon, Faizah, Nuan Qin, Chu Zen, Belinda, Alezec, Desmond) although the content might be difficult for you to understand, but through this show it explain what is soka all about.

After that meet Jinguang at TM for lunch before we set off for the NorthEast gathering. We missed the shuttle bus at 1.50pm so we thought there was so shuttle bus already so we took cab to NRSCC bowling alley. All of us went but only Kelvin, desmond and jinguang is playing. The remaining 3 of us just watch them play. Belinda went off 1st. The event was delay and ended abt an hr later. After that we went to play pool, but I didn't play, den we went walk walk 1st before going to take the shuttle bus back.

We decided to watch movie, so we went to century square shaw to purchase ticket 1st while desmond had to go back home for dinner. We had our dinner at popeye but all of us ate L mashed potato and drinks.

Omg, the movie show was short and funny, really make me laugh throughout the whole show but keep forgetting the name. After movie was around 10.40pm already, so desmond drove all of us home. Thanks!

Really had alot of fun hanging out with my fellow YEC friends, although you all always disturb me but you all have nv stop bringing laughter.

Lastly, for you, I wish you happiness with your gf, must treat her well.

2010-03-20T09:38:00.003+08:00

Still not recovering from what I am suffering now. Was so afraid when i always open the letter box, afraid to see the red symbol, keeping all this by myself. For now, trying to occupy myself everyday, but somehow i feel that i am not fully occupy yet. went for 2-3 interview and going another 1 this coming Wednesday at tan tock seng, maybe like wad my aunt say if i work in hospital next time fall sick etc dun need to pay so much. Now trying to find a job that I can work midnight, anyway stay at home will only think more, sleep also cannot sleep well. Having dark circle now.

Going for SN meeting later, den SYOG dance practice tonight.

2010-03-15T23:03:00.002+08:00

Problems are coming back again. Why are you back?

Went k box with my pig family, had a happy time singing from 2pm-6pm and only at $8, good right and also can make me feel happier.

Just don't wish to stay at home, I will start to think lots of thing, got to keep myself occupy with lots and lots of things until my whole 24 hr is occupy. I want to work 2 job, one in the day time and 1 in the night time.

Really thanks to all my friends who have help and support me. Cried infront of so many pple. Firstly, want to thank hyder and suriani, they say they want to accompany me, when I need help call them and they will be there, help me ask for more information. Secondly, jg, did not mention anything to him at all, told him I am going off and he say if I got anything need help call him. Thirdly, min min, she told me that the next day Mr Tan will be there and ask me go down and ask for his advise, thanks for arranging and keep asking how I am. Next, belinda, thanks for showing your concern, i know you are worried and also thinking of ways to help. lastly, I know that you must have been helping at the bad, but my reason for not telling you the detail one because I don't wish to owe you anything, you have been helping me alot alot and I want to show you that I can solve my problem myself. But all this while I really still treat you as friends, I am really sorry for some of my action.

2010-03-14T00:20:00.002+08:00

I am feeling very upset now, how I wish someone can be beside me to accompany me.

I cry and cry for this 2 days, couldn't sleep well at all. Sometime I am feeling so tired to take care of my siblings etc. So much thing I have to do.

Thanks to all of you, you all have help me, give me solution to solve problems and also at the same time help me to find job.

I love all of you.

2010-03-12T01:43:00.002+08:00

During this holiday, watch so much drama show, cry alot too, have been thinking alot too. Something that I have been thinking for this few weeks are, are you really getting married.

I think I should not listen to both side anymore, I shall remain what I am, I don't trust all of you. Sometime the words come out from your mouth, i really dunno whether you are telling me the truth. I am tired of all this already.

I don't trust guys anymore.

2010-03-05T22:58:00.002+08:00

Yeah, finally exam is over but I am so scared of the results cause the paper is isn't simple at all. Just hope that I can get through it and graduate with my diploma.

After the paper yesterday went out shopping with my classmates, help the guys to choose their clothing and finally they got their clothing. Is a long shopping yesterday and all of us seem so tired cause we haven had a gd slp for2 weeks.

Reach home my whole body is aching, slept like 12 plus in the morning not early at all. I actually tell myself not to wake up so early in the morning but in e end i woke up at 7 plus and I lie on the bed turning here and there until 9 plus den i woke up.

Meet yanteng at city hall, den went together to suntec cotton on to buy shorts cause janet working got discount, also help daphne to get hers. After that went walk walk around to find bag for my D&D and also to get keni present. Went to various places like suntec, 313 somerset, taka, wisma, Ion.

After that went to tampines to meet lay ting and we had our dinner at ding tai fung and home sweet home. Got to wake up early tml to prepare for D&D. Maybe going to do manicure with janet den lunch den to her house and after that go do our hair.

Actually i am still not 100% happy at all yet. After watching one of the show actually I always had a dream but it is never there. How I wish everyday I came home, someone is there where I can talk to, where I can share my feeling with. Everyday at home, I just face my computer, no one is talking with me at home. And until now, i really dunno whose stories should I listen too.

2010-02-28T23:29:00.002+08:00

2nd paper down

Had my LM paper on the Friday and is another evening paper. After that went queenway to help wei lang to change his shirt den went back home.

I once told rezal that due to my exam I don't wish to help out in any of the events. So, he ask me why am I helping out for Chingay, my reply to him was if I don't help who is helping. Maybe I still find myself quite stupid maybe I was soft hearted. People give the reason of having exam and they don't need to come but I gave the same reason also but I was there. There is about 30 YEC member now, everything I msg them when I need their help badly, half of them will reply that they couldn't make it and the rest don't even bother to reply. Sometime I feel tired inside too. At the same time I felt more love from other committee. It seems like other committee are giving me more warmth and love but in YEC they give me more stress and work.

But still the same wanted to thank those few who really help me out when I ask them too. Although I was only helping out in Chingay but I felt unhappy, actually I did raise up my voice on belinda on that moment. I think I was with them for very long so I know the elderly better. There are also many volunteer helping out in the event also and I know I am a volunteer too. That is why they don't listen to me at all, really so angry that I really scolded them.

Sometime I really felt all the volunteer are so horrible, some kueh was meant to give to the elderly for them to bring home and I ask one of my side volunteer to take a look, she is new. Once of the RC member actually told my helper that she need to bring back and she take over. When I was back there, I was so angry about it, I know I can't blame her cause she is new. But I really can't believe that even a RC member did that too.

Sometime I really wish I can cut up myself into many parts so that I can be there in all areas. I really felt tiring in doing all this things.

Anyway got 2 buck up for my remaining 2 more papers. JIAYOU Ying Hui.

2010-02-25T22:13:00.004+08:00

CNY 2010 @ Mr Mah House

I love this alot, look at the clear blue colour water. Just wish I could jump down.
Taken with Shi Chang (So nice to put our leg in the swimming pool)
Taken with favien our new YEC Member
Taken in the bus on the way back to CC.
Taken in the bus on the way back to CC.
Taken in the bus on the way back to CC.

1 Module down, 3 more to go

1st module was ICP and I think I sort of screw up the paper, dun think I can do very well but should be able to pass. CS Lim is here to kill us, the qns was not really very easy and 2hr was not enough to complete the paper, do not have any spare time to think at all.

Went swimming with yt and lt and we had so much fun chatting in the pool and took some pics. I want to go swimming again, maybe this saturday morning before supernova meeting.

Study in the afternoon, after that went Lt house to help her do something, den in the end we had to go down to the singtel shop to do it. Pass her a book to read just now also, my message I want to pass to her was, no mattar how many problems she is facing now, I believe that It can be solved, I am not asking her to join the religion yet. I will be there to help you to solve whenever I can if not I won't be doing so much things even though I am having my exam.

Suddenly, I was so relax studying LM all thank to teacher tips. Hopefully I can do well tml, cause I want to score at least a B if not a B+. Tml paper is 4pm again, sure hungry after exam de.

Had alot of bad dream this few nights, after someone told me something about another person.

Going back to do revision now.

2010-02-21T23:52:00.002+08:00

I really regret everything that I have done today

Wasn't at home from morning until now, just came back not long ago. In the morning, went to Mr Mah house for CNY but before that went to mac to study 1st. After that took the bus to Mr Mah house. There was lots of problem for the transport thing so we have to quickly solve it, luckily it was somehow solve by abit. After that went back to cc to study 1st before the CNY dinner. But could not absorb much too, as in between start to discussing YEC things, SuperNova things etc.

before the dinner start went down to kheng chiu to bring the elderly over, luckily i really got all the guys help, really appreciate it. During the dinner, couldn't just settle down to have dinner, 1 reason is to help the elderly with the food, e other reason was I was feeling very weird in my heart. After dinner, actually waited for the bus to come but I was totally not in the mood already, so is also my 1st time that I did not follow them back. I am so sorry.

After that went to take bus home, but my heart was feeling even weird, so i took a cab home and really something happened at home. I really regret for all the things that I have done. I am simply not a gd daughter, gd sister, gd grandaughter etc. I really failed. Can someone just tell me what to do. Why is there always something happening during the period where is my exam period.

Someone today is my bad day, shouldn't do something, shouldn't see something etc.

2010-02-18T22:30:00.002+08:00

Upset

Something keep bothering me and the thing which bother me is my brother. My brother is already sec 3 already, but he behavior is getting worse, until now I still don't know how to teach him. He talk to his friend yesterday until almost 1am, ask him to put down the phone, he scolded me, push me. the worse thing is he ask me not to stay in this house, he is chasing me away. I was so hurt when I heard this and I couldn't sleep cause I was crying.

Today after school stay back with some of my classmates to study ICP, after that went to Suntec city den to 313 Somerset. Don't really want to go home, so went out walk walk so that I won't feel upset when I am at home.

Anyway i should put all this things aside and really concentrate the few more days for my exam. 1 module is down, 4 more to go.

2010-02-17T00:43:00.003+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year & Valentine Day

Every year new year was just simple for me, we are able to do house visiting quite fast. Is the 1st year we went out to eat for reunion dinner. The restaurant was nice but it is quite expensive. On the 1st day, I just have to stay at home 1st, cause all my auntie and uncle coming to our house 1st, cause my grandma is here. After that went to my grandma brother house den to my auntie house. So we started to play card but I wasn't playing every year. In the end my cousin, terry wanted to play so I just sat there and help him. All the way he was winning except one of it he loose, after that he angry don't want to play le. So I went to ask him, he say it is unfair, den he say he want to earn $1000 so he can fill up his piggy bank. He is only primary 1 this year and yet he is saying all this, he is quite smart.

In the late afternoon, we went 313 somerset to walk walk den send my sister to work 1st den we head towards T3 for our dinner, there was so much people there so we queue for about 30min before we can eat.

2nd day went to my grandma sister house den head to my mum place for steamboat lunch. After that went to my auntie house and we play wii game. we could play happily cause terry was not around he went Malaysia with his dad. After playing we went to sepang bedok for our dinner.

today stay at home until in the afternoon I went to my uncle house. After that came back to study.

So tiring, everywhere I go I brought my notes along. There is a test this coming thurs and really got to study very hard, it is 50% of the whole paper. In 16 days time, i won't be going to school already. Which mean, during this 16 days I will be very very busy studying for exam. Is the last time that I am taking the exam and I must pass all the module.

2010-02-13T22:39:00.003+08:00

Let me recap what have i done for the last 1 week.

Last Saturday spent my whole day in the CC, study in the morning all the way to evening, den pack YEC storeroom, cause they need to paint the room. Had so much fun packing the storeroom, we ask rezal to take a number of item so that he can bring back to his school, also lesser our YEC things. We managed to finish packing in one day and with the help from kelvin ong, rezal, desmond and jinguang. Thanks for coming down.

Last Sunday went for my district Leader basic training from 12.30-6pm. It is a super long hour, but I managed to stay awake throughout the whole training and know new friends too. After that meet suat hoon at tea dot to study until 10pm.

Monday, went to school just for ICP test after that went to work. On tuesday, full day of lecture and went home to study for PCCC test. Wednesday, lesson as usual, after that went to work and is also my last day work at bugis, kind of miss there. I have been working there since the shop open which is like 642 days. Thursday, lesson as usual, wear formal to school cause got interview is part of our module. Overall was not too bad. After school stay back and study with Janet for the next day AOC test. study until 5.30 den went to meet my SPSD friends.

We had a farewell party for Willam and party for our newly appointed CIC and IIC. It is a potluck dinner and we were all so full, so much food to eat. Had alot of fun chatting with them, and we played like 3 games before we go home. Not to 4get we also lao yu sheng and is the first time I am doing this with my SPSD friends.

Friday, just went back for AOC test, although I have study but I still failed. so sad. After that had a celebration for cheng wai whose b'day is today. It was suppose to be a surprise, we drag and drag in school before heading to cathay to eat anstons. Cause janet went home 1st and went to collect the cake. So poor thing of me, all the guys bully me cause I am the only gal at that time. Anyway this grp of my poly friends has bring me lots of joy and laughter that I will never forget them. After that headed home cause was feeling tired although i was supposed to do something.

Actually was feeling quite stressed up that I dun have the mood for chinese new year. Have been crying when I was studying, so stressed with the module that I am studying. All I ask for is I am able to pass all my module and graduate.

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE!

2010-02-05T09:21:00.004+08:00

My Fellow Singapore Poly Student Division (SPSD)

I really had a wonderful time on the 30th and 31st Jan. At first I was so scared about the exam scared i couldn't write anything down. But what I realise that the exam wasn't a main thing, I was glad that I am able to spend with my SPSD for 2D1N. Throughout this kenshu kai I have also learn alot of thing from anyone who has went to this Kenshu kai. They has brought alot of laughter and I will miss them cause will be my last month in SD already. I had also reflected myself, why did I only spend my time in SD in Year 3. Where am I in Year 1 and year 2? Was so regretted that I did not join them for the 1st 2 year. But everything is isn't too late. At least I have woken up in Year 3.

Thanks so much SPSD!

Monday & Tuesday, went to school as usual and after school went to work. Wednesday, school end early and after that went Orchard shopping with Janet. Finally brought some New Year clothing. Was quite surprise that Forever 21 shirt isn't expensive. After that went cc to study with jg. In the reading room met 2 stupid guy who doesn't listen to us. Almost all the staff went up to scold them but they don't listen. After that went to east point to check whether they got the straw we want cause we want to break record, but couldn't find the one. Then we went for our dinner and at the same time also brainstorm for more ideas. Yesterday sch ended early and had LM test too. But I was so careless that I use the wrong formula for 1 of the question, so angry. After that went to TM to meet lay ting, have lunch together and have a very good talk with her. Then went to cc to study, b4 that join jg and chris for dinner 1st while he went to play bb and I went back to study.

Got to spend lots and lots of time studying. 1 more month to go. Have been so tired that my tears keep dripping.

Going to meet xue yun later to do new year card for my YWD members, chant at TBSC, meet wan qing and go hort park to recee for PLE outing, going for dinner den to HQ ICA for Ikeda Kayo-Kai Meeting. After that got to rush back for YEC meeting. A very pack pack day for me.

2010-02-01T09:52:00.004+08:00

Back from SD Kenshu Kai 2010

On the 30th-31st Jan is our SD Kenshu Kai 2010. Meet chu zen 11.20am at senja after that we proceed to senja soka centre. We practice for our 80sec frame performance. After that we went to register and get our new SD t-shirt. In awhile later, we got to prepare for our exam. Although the exam is open book I can't finish the question and I dunno how to do. From here actually i can see where I stand, I really got to study more. After the exam all the programmed start. On the 1st day is really very tiring, is all the lecture. Can't believe that we had our lecture until 12 midnight.

I did sign up for the Personal Guidance to talk one to one to any of our SD chief, but due to the late timing, they will visit me in 2 weeks time. I got alot of things to say and I know that they will be the one that will listen to me, the one who will tell me to do and give me encouragement.

We sleep at 2 plus and I woke up at 4am cause the air-con was too cold that i can't sleep. And all of us were suppose to wake up at 5.45am. So I just stay awake throughout. we did our morning gongyo at 6 plus and can see that alot people is feeling tired including me wanted to fall asleep.

We at our morning activities outside cause at 8am there is morning gonygo open to everyone. We had breakfast, morning exercise and games at the field. We had so much laughter playing the games. After that we went back to soka centre for our last part of our program. We had encouragement from our ex SD chief and our youth chief.

All of us went to have lunch after that at bukit panjang plaza, then took MRT back with nicholas, victoria and wei wen since all of us stay in the East side.

Reach home put down my bag, check my things awhile 1st then went to cc to study with jg.

I studied while he do his CSC account, I fell asleep while studying. I think he see me very tired, so he ask me to go home and rest while he accompany belinda. Cause there was a event that end late yesterday and left belinda in the office only.

2010-01-30T09:33:00.002+08:00

Haven't been blogging for a week le. Didnt do much things except as usual go to sch and study. Had our YEC meeting quite late last month which is only last friday, cause rezal got his reservists. So happy to be able to see most of time and had alot of fun chatting and disturbing each other. Our YM Michelle was there for the meeting also, she is also a very nice gal, who will sit in for our meeting whenever she is free. I got nominated for the PAYM award , dead, I told them I don't want but they don't want to listen to me.

Last Saturday, had SuperNova camp meeting at least more people came and we were able to go through the meeting smoothly. After that we stayed and study. Someone wanted to study but always end up not studying, haiz. After that all of us had dinner 1st before watching movie. There were total 8 of us who went to watch, jinguang, shi chang, kelvin yeo and ong, alezec, hyder, suriani. The movie was 3 hr long, after that we went to eat mac and we had sundae ice-cream on a sunday.

Well, exam is coming got to really really study and my last paper is on the 4th of March that is like in 1 month time i won't be in school already. On wed, went for leo agm, had alot of fun seeing all of them again. I sort of miss them. After that all of us went for dinner at Anstons. I have been going there to eat quite frequently.

Yesterday, no school, so celebrated leanna b'day at Anstons once again. After that we went walk walk, play and had lots of fun. Then went to cc to study with jinguang. Once again, he was busy doing his CSC account so he did not study again. They are going to watch the movie today again. Is the 3rd time for jinguang, 2nd time for Shi chang but too bad I won't be able to join them. I was told by someone not to go for my camp today.

Today is my Soka Kenshu 2010, is a 2D1N camp at Senja. Going to reach there at 11.30 to practice for our 80sec frame then going to register for our exam. I got no confident at all for the exam later but luckily is open book test but i also need to know where to flip enough 1hr30min is not enough for me.

Guess, tml after my camp going to study with him. Anyone who want to study please date me out. For shopping, please date me after 4 March.

2010-01-18T00:09:00.004+08:00

Sunday

woke up early in the morning to help out in Zone 4 and 5 ENB. Really thanks choo kim, alezec, jinguang, shi chang and timothy for coming down to help out in registration even though is not a YEC event. Actually didn't want to go but I cant cause I know I was given a task to do.

After that we went over to zone 3 and 6, sat there to chat and have our lunch there. Actually was intending to cancel my work today but it was quite last minute. After that had some time before my work, so went walk walk with jg.

Reach my work place, was feeling really cold, keep drinking and hugging hot water, later on got fever and until now actually I am still feeling uneasy.

Recently just finish watching a show called "海派甜心". Go watch the show you haven, but all the episode is not out yet. I think what i feel now is what the girl in the show is thinking. This show is funny and yet some part is sad until I cry. From this show what I should learn is to learn how to give up.

Jg also introduce a movie to us yesterday cause "3 idiots" but is a Hindu show. So we might be going to watch coming sat and he is going to watch the 2nd time. Anyone want to watch also can follow.

Monday

today will be last day with michele but I really feel like sending her to the airport but I also dun want to cry think will make my flu worse.

2010-01-16T17:41:00.002+08:00

I seriously seriously hate my life so much, I dun want to stay at home cause I feel much more happier outside. I really really scared I am going back to last time but I have been telling myself, what most of them want to see in me is what I am now. Must be surprised why am I home so early today, actually after the event I really don't feel like coming home, but everyone see how tired I am, they told me to come home and rest, so I came back and I felt so unhappy.

I think I am really very STRESSED now. The STRESSED symptoms is coming up.

Today health screening was quite boring, I dun see the purpose why we should be there where they request so much helper and we have like 15 helpers but we felt like doing nothing. It was quite disappointing. I thought learning stage will never end. I do know that those pple are good in this, so I personally actually request whether I can follow them door to door for the health screening but without much thinking they actually rejected me. I seriously don't know why we can't learn, was so angry about this. Kevin went up to take photo, they say it their policy not to let so many people in.

It is seriously waste of my time, although I am not feeling well but belinda put me as in-charge so even when I am sick I still rush down. Before that they still say 15 people was not enough luckily I did not waste more people time.

But I really want to thanks all this YEC people who have brought me some laughter, support me and care for me and they are people like shi chang, jg, desmond, suriani, hyder and verlyn.

2010-01-15T23:56:00.002+08:00

FYP Presentation is finally over

Was feeling so tired and sick the last few days. Had my FYP presentation today, couldn't really answer all the qns, ah, but anyway is already over, should not think back. After the presentation went down to ion, to meet my famous amos friends. Went to ion wait for An qi to end work den meet feeqah, liyana and michele. Went walk walk 1st den went to breeks for dinner, Juli join us too.

We treat Michele eat cause it will be our last dinner with her before she go back to Philippines, miss her too. After dinner, feeqah and liyana left 1st den the remaining of us went walk walk and wait for wei li and daphne to end work den we all go home together.

Had alot of fun today although I am still not feeling well, my throat is very pain now. I am sick but I still have to act very strong, cause tml and the following day is very important to me. Tml got health screening from 8am-5pm and I am in-charge for the YEC and other sch helpers, den the following day I am going to be emcee for the bursary, therefore I really need my voice, if not I will disappoint them.

2010-01-12T02:24:00.002+08:00

Just wish to complete all the assignment. Just manage to complete AOC assignment, just finish doing on my part for my FYP presentation.

Still yet to finish CGMP, still got abit to go, all the experiment datasheet not completed yet. Suddenly there is endless of things to do and I don't know how to complete them.

My FYP presentation most likely is this Friday, and we are going to do a trial run on this Wednesday. So scary, hopefully teacher don't ask those difficult difficult qns if not it will bring our grade down. After one year of FYP, we have finally reach the last phase.

My hour of slp is getting lesser and lesser. Average I am only sleeping 3hr per day which include like weekend. Cause most of my weekend are pack with event already.

Going to sleep, got to wake up at 5.30am. My lesson later is all the way to 5pm. Needs lots and lots of energy.

2010-01-09T21:26:00.003+08:00

For the past 1 week, had been very busy that i got no time to breathe. Last Sunday, meet shi chang and we went to check the percussion price for YEC, later on alezec came. After that alezec company me to go and collect the drinks etc. So we took MRT there and meet my uncle there. After that went to jinguang house to collect newspaper then transport all the things to the cc. but really thank my uncle for the help he has been helping for 3 events already. After that we went to bedok 85 to eat cause 1 of our maple friend ask us go eat. Had a very full dinner cum supper and after that he send us home.

Monday to Wednesday have been going to work after school. Thursday went for SD study meeting, before that have dinner with chu zen at bt panjang plaza and is my 1st time entering in the shopping centre. After that we walk to Senja. The study meeting was quite fruitful and the kenshu is only few days away but I still got quite a number of material not study yet. I really hope I can pass the exam. Yesterday went to NTU straight after sch, to settle abit of our FYP stuff then came back to school to have our lunch at Pizza hut to celebrate Mui Hoon b'day. After that went for supernova meeting but in the end was cancelled last minute, cause only 2 turn up. I was also feeling quite tired at that time.

Today, went to buy Michele present cause she is going back Philippine already, really miss her, the time where we go out together and have fun at work. After that went for SYOG Audition, when we reach there then I realised that there is lots of people participating, is really alot of people. Well, now have to wait for the results, hopefully I got in and I realised that I am having interest in dance already and now I just have to chant that hopefully my leg does not give me any problems.

Tml morning going to meet shi chang to discuss about supernova stuff 1st then after that got to rush down to TSC for study meeting. Cause tml 3 other of my friend and me are going to share the study meeting, so we got to practice how are we going to share the topic. Quite nervous.

2010-01-03T00:02:00.000+08:00

Had lots of laughter today

Initially was suppose to meet shi chang early in the morning to go check the price for percussion but in e end he cant make it so we are meeting on sunday. Went to TSC in the afternoon but before that went to print out the study meeting material 1st. Went for leader meeting, had lots of fun, but i must admit that my drawing really suck and on the spot itself i seriously dunno what to draw also. Later on our youth chief, leonard koh which is also my kor gave a short speech and we were given a new t-shirt to wear.

it ended around 5.45pm, after that took cab with elaine and karen to ICA for youth leader meeting but me and karen had to reach earlier to practice the song. The youth leader meeting was good, i feel that there is still lots and lots of things to learn to become a district leader.

was sabo by leonard koh during his speech about our new t-shirt, so we actually stand up. Today i also sign up for the kenshu exam which will take place on the 30th-31st Jan (2 days 1 night). Beside that me and chu zen went to buy 8 SYM ticket for our friends to watch too.

Going to meet shi lei later 9am at city hall, so going to wake up early again. After that meeting shi chang to check the price den going to collect the drinks and back to cc.

last day of holiday.

2010-01-01T20:43:00.002+08:00

Wow, time really flies, so fast is 1st January 2010.

For the year 2009, i feel that I am much happier cause I have grown up alot alot, everybody say that to me that is why you can see some changes in people who treat me. Suddenly I feel that they are right beside me now just like last time.

Went for a countdown organized by Punggol East. Before that in the morning went swimming with yt, the weather was so cold suddenly so didn't stay long. After that went to Tampines 1 to have our lunch, but we spend like 30min waiting for our food etc and the service provided by them is really bad. After that went to meet belinda at Tampines inter, den walk over to the library to meet jinguang, desmond, alezec. Don't know what happened so many people take 27, we waited for 3 bus and none of them we can get up, so looking at the time we will be late if we continue waiting, so in e end we took a cab down.

Had a enjoyable day with them although they always bully me. Actually I was feeling so tired to go but looking at the number of people who can make it, i went and considering belinda is the only gal. Suddenly, all the active members are all the guys except me that why everyone ask me your YEC you are the only girl.

Was having block nose and can't stand the smoke of the otah, until now my nose is still pain and feeling like dry dry like that. So, i walk away for some time and went to the back to enjoy the breeze and at the same time reflect what I have done for 2009.

The event ended around 1.20am, so we help to load all the left over drinks and tidbits onto the car den we walk to punggol east cc. Guess their leg too long le, walk especially fast so during interval I will start to run and catch up with them. After that alezec and kelvin took a cab, den i took a cab with jinguang and desmond. I always tell them that I am old enough to go back myself but as a guy is their responsibility to ensure that I reach home too.

Anyway during normal days you all can treat me as a girl but when it come to event I can do a guy job. I know you can't carry all those things but nothing can stop me from doing all this things. I am also a person now who don't depend on people, i am not the person who I want people to drive me around. No mattar how long the distance is, I will walk. I know you care for me but there is something that I will always be different from you.

Sometime I really wish the timing could stop cause I really do not want to let go.

2010

1. Hope to pass my last year in school and graduate and able to find a good job

2. I want to help people out there who really need help

3. I want to spend more time and participate in SSA activities, district meeting, zone meeting etc.

4. Hope to get everyone back to YEC, the people are getting lesser and lesser

Still cant think of the rest yet.

2009-12-31T01:11:00.002+08:00

Working

During this Christmas period of time, our shop is the most busy one. Everyone of us is working so in the middle of the afternoon there will be like 8 people working. So this year do not need to do OT also. Was quite happy that the sales is really good but it was really very tiring. I guess this is going to be my last time working during Christmas period. But if I have the chance I really want to come back and help them during the Christmas period. Really enjoy working with them that I can't bear to leave them.

School

Lots and lots of things to do, but so sorry if i am not able to do much cause I was feeling very tired. The major one is FYP report and coming up will be the presentation.

YEC

Finally the last event of the year has come to and end with festive wishes 2009. I can say that this is really the 1st festive wishes that i didn't help at all except thinking of the program for the 2nd part. Was ask by kelvin to do emcee with alezec and I agreed, cause was feeling quite bad for not able to help out.

Also went to eat kuishinbo with belinda, desmond, jinguang, kelvin, alezec and kevin. The food is very nice and also after eating a few feel very full le. But i can say desmond is the best can eat so much. After that went to arcade. After that desmond send us home. Really want to thank him so much for sending us home and also using his car during event.

I must say I am happy now, cause everything is so different now. Maybe is because I have changed.

2009-12-22T01:14:00.003+08:00

Retreat at Surabaya (Indonesia)

Day 1

Our flight was 7.40am, but we were told to meet at the airport at 5.30am. Went to check-in first while waiting for verlyn to come. The flight is only like 2hr 15min. Meet the rest of the people who went there 1 day earlier at the Surabaya airport. Soon, we left for our place which is a temple. After that we went back to the hotel to put our luggage and rest for awhile before we went for our lunch. Share room with Judith. The timing there is 1hr slower than ours so abit not use to it. We proceed for our lunch at 1.30pm(their timing). The lunch was very very nice but it was sponsors by someone else. After that we went to some ware house where it sells clothing. But don't really like and so stuffy inside. So did not buy anything. Their initial plan was to stay there for 3-4hrs but the place is so small, 1hr can finish everything le. So, the tour guide drop all of us at 1 shopping centre, so went walk walk with verlyn, but we didn't like the place too, they like saving air-con like that. we went to the kids store and verlyn wanted to buy something for her neice, so we actually queue at the cashier for about 30mins just to pay $. Their service is really really very slow.

After that went back to the hotel to bath 1st before going down for our dinner. Chatted alot with people whom I don't know. All of us were discussing and prepare for the karaoke competition the next day. Their is 4 groups, CCC, CCMC, RC and branch. Each group has to come out with 3 songs to sing. I am under the CCMC side. After that went back hotel to rest and get prepared for the next day.

Day 2

Had breakfast at 7.30am(their timing), the breakfast was at the hotel. After that get ready at 8.30am for the seminar held at the conference hall. Siti ask for my help to be the table host for 1 of the table. My group has pple from all over the places, got TC, HDB, branch, RC etc. Before our seminar start we had a team building game held my NACLI people, they are really nice people. During the seminar we brainstorm on alot of things and I think i have learn alot from them.

After that went for our lunch and then went out for some shopping. so after a short discussion we decided to went for massage. Went with verlyn, emily, ken, allan, francise etc. After that we took cab back and had a bath, before proceeding for our dinner and karaoke. It was really very fun and they are going to have this for every year. I think is a good idea too. Mr Mah went round using his new phone to take video and take individual photos.

After that went back hotel to sleep.

Day 3

Wake up in the morning for breakfast again. Judith and hong lim went for massage so didnt join us. After that went out with verlyn, ken, allan and francise cause joyce friend bringing us out. All of them buy alot of thing especially francise. After that went back to hotel to rest for awhile before we check out from hotel.

Reach Singapore around 10pm and home sweet home

3 days 2 night can be very nice and short and i definitely enjoy my trip there and of course know glad to know all of them. Didnt take photos too cause got professional photographer there.

2009-12-11T23:02:00.002+08:00

MST Has Ended

Quite relieved that MST is over and I really think that I have put in lots and lots of time studying well for this exam with of course a good mood.

Although MST is over but there is lots of assignment need to hand up when sch reopen, which mean my holiday is gone. Going to spend my 1st week of holiday trying to finish what I can. I will be going Surbaya on the 18th-20th Dec for CCMC retreat, I am sure I have fun there with some of the fun people.

Actually I couldn't sleep well for the past 2 days due to some reason which I don't want to mention. I really want to see my friends having a happy life too like what I am now. I can say that I am very different from last time due to some reasons. Therefore I really want to see my good friends like me too. Currently there is 1 person i always see him he look quite sad so i will always try to make him happy or encourage him. But sometime when i see him laughing even it is not funny I will also laugh. Of course I really hope my other friend will be happy too.

Friends out there, if you all need someone to talk to, to vent anger on, look for me. No mattar how busy I am i will be there for you when you need me the most. I really hope I can help you to cheer you up although last time I need people to cheer me up.

The Ying Hui last time is really different from the Ying Hui now. And I am very happy that I have step out of all the unhappy things and lead a happy life so that I am able to live longer.

So, remember that there is me around.

2009-12-02T07:13:00.007+08:00

Sending Hyder & Su off (SSEAYP)

Picture will do all the talking, currently quite sick to blog so much.

After sending them off, I planned a mini celebration for verlyn since the following day is her b'day.
Our program organizer, alvin had to left, so the remaining of us rot at vivo city for very long.

In the evening, we decided to head over to alvin house. Jg went to the money changer, so we got nothing to do and we took photos in desmond car.

Famous Amos BBQ @ East Coast

Went for BBQ after work with feeqah. Following are all my friends whom I know in famous amos.

2009-11-23T23:49:00.003+08:00

Just realised that I have not been blogging for quite sometime already. I am getting busier and busier.

Seriously I really dunno where should I start to blog. For work, the Christmas period is here and I am so busy that my whole body is aching. More and more order to do and the time is quite tight now.

For studies, so far everything is ok, just that my exam is in a week time and I got to really study very hard. Is my last semester in school already.

For YEC, so far events and events is coming up, what I can help I will definitely help out. There will be a event co-organise with TPJC this sun and I am so called in charge for certain things, so hope everything will go on smoothly.

For Soka, I began to attend all my meeting regularly and began to learn as the time goes. In december I will be going for my district leader lesson and will be appointed as district 4 leader next year in the january. there is more things I need to learn and definitely I see changes in myself.

I managed to set my time properly for all this activities I had. Hope I can keep improving.

My next step is I am joining Soka volunteering grp.

2009-11-09T09:12:00.002+08:00

I am still very very tired right now, but I still have to go for school for lessons.

anyway was having headache cause I was thinking how should I help him? This few days I seen him is different from last time. I got the feeling that he has his own problem or perhaps something he is unhappy with. Sometime seeing him I like that I also heart pain as a friend. He started to think negatively. Last time he was 1 of the few who encourage me who ask me not to think negatively and think positive. But now I want to make him happy.

How should I help him?

2009-11-08T02:17:00.002+08:00

YEC Retreat (6 Nov - 8 Nov 09)

At this timing, i should be sleeping, however I am still awake. Was quite disappointed with this retreat, in e 1st place when belinda told me there is 19 pple who will be turning up, i told her the most 10 only. And on the 1st day itself, we should be having a YEC meeting and guess what, we just nice hit 10 pple and is able to conduct the meeting. Sometime i really dun like pple who do things in this way, where is their responsibility? Due to the fact that we order 20 pple share throughout the days, but it was wasted in the end.

Meeting went on quite smoothly and later some of them went back. So in e end I am the only girl that stay behind, even though there isnt any gal i still stay because I kept promise to belinda. She actually book 3 rooms and in the end 2 rooms was more than enough. It was so wasted although the $ does not come from me. After the meeting we went out to get some stuff to eat and drinks. Go through abit on my notes and was force by someone to slp at 3am.

woke up at 7 plus on sat morning, went to have breakfast and then team building game. I think we dun even need the team building game, but however we paid for you and looking at the price is not cheap at all, so we went. In the end I was so difficult to leave halfway so I was late for my preparation for institution meeting. There is always good and bad points of view. After that went for lunch and went off with shi chang. Luckily is quite near to tbsc.

After my SPSD institution meeting, rush back and had dinner before we start our meeting. Well, we covered quite a number of stuffs and my brain is really tired of thinking now. From morning all e way till night, I have been using my brain to think and brainstorm on lots of things. Like what rezal said, I should not keep quiet but voice out whatever I want to say. But sometime I dun way to say out is because I dun want to hurt anyone else.

Going to wake up early later to finish up our last part of brainstorming.

Anyway I find we have met the objective which is come out with our year planner, mission, vision, ways in which we should improve. Was quite happy that everyone did contribute their part in this brainstorming. However, what I was upset with is their responsibility and commitment towards YEC. They simply take everything for granted. To me, it seems like the guys are contributing more than the girls. But in the actual fact I thought was this kind of volunteering job usually mostly are girls, however I was wrong.

Anyway being alone as a girl for this retreat has not made me regret at all. Although all of them is like bullying me, disturbing me, I still had a happy time with them. All the laughter has never stop.

Shall get some rest cause in 3hr time got to wake up and use my brain again.

2009-11-03T07:14:00.002+08:00

2 November 2009

Happy 20th Birthday to myself. So scary, the number is getting bigger and bigger already.

My usual birthday I enjoyed the most is with friends. Don't really take my b'day as one of the most important thing. But I am so happy about 1 thing until I can't sleep.

Went out with my pig family on the 1st Nov, went to vivo city, is another time where all of us there. Rarely will have full family de. Went to eat subway(healthier choice). After that went to walk walk around and walk in this scenario shop (Hello Kitty), thinking verlyn b'day is round the corner what should I get for her. But can't think of anything to buy for her, so since she like chocolate, thinking of buying that for her to distress, since she is so stress at work now. Went to sasa shop, and test so much perfume, they brought me a "Babydoll" perfume. After that went to take pictures and walk walk awhile before we went back. Lay ting friend send us back. Had a enjoyable day with them.

As usual got to go sch, but quite relaxing, only go sch for 1 lesson and 1 practical. And the practical end so fast, 1 hr finish le. so janet say go library and do report and do some research, i really believe her. In e end they are doing something at the back. But anyway thanks for the celebration and my favourite mickey mouse legging.

Thanks to leos for the cake and the card.

thanks to my year 1 classmates for the Hello Kitty book and card. Really had a enjoyable b'day with you guys and gals.

Thanks all for their wishes through facebook and SMS, thanks for remembering.

2009-10-27T21:37:00.004+08:00

Missing my god mummy & daddy

They left this morning for their sseayp already and because of the medicine didnt manage to say "BYE" to them but I managed to give them a sms them yesterday. We met up last tue after their shopping at my house void deck. chatted for about an hr cause it is turning late and I want them to have a early slp too. Is a long time since i chat with them and I had alot of laughter. They are also getting closer to me as if they are my real parents. Although they are away for 53 days but they are worried for me still. They say they haven been checking what I have been doing but i know they are very busy in sseayp. I will only be able to see them next year. Tml is Suriani b'day wish her "Happy Birthday".

I am on MC for 2 days, had a serious sore throat, cough and running nose. But it is not turning any better but got no choice but I need to go back sch tml.

It is coming to 2 months yet i did not hear anything and I did not see anything. Maybe I should give up everything and carry on what I am now.

2009-10-20T18:45:00.003+08:00

Last week holiday

Well, the last week of holiday did not really spend it meaningful. As usual still working although is the last week of holidays. Manage to go out with yt and keni last wednesday. Was task to be the emcee for this month zone discussion meeting, so as a emcee there is a lot of things to do. Was so happy that it is over and I have more confident in myself now.

Last Friday manage to watch Suriani and Hyder pre departure SSEAYP concert. The concert was well done, it did make me laugh throughout the show and I was very impressed by them. Managed to take a photo with hyder but not Suriani cause they had to go back for a meeting. I am missing them right now. Anyway thanks to those who went down to support them too, si jie, desmond, jg, alvin and bernice.

This week sch reopen le, dun like my timetable cause i have 3 days ending with 6pm and I still have my FYP to do too. Hopefully my semester I can score very well cause my results is really very bad not due to I didnt study. Will be quite busy with a few stuff, YEC retreat is coming and its time for me to brainstorm for ideas. I am going for e CCMC retreat @ Indonesia. Going with a few people, going to enjoy myself there too.

Later going to accompany my god mother Suriani for shopping on her basic stuff that she need to buy. Later in the night meet my god father and will have a good chat. Going to see each other for the last time before they leave for their SSEAYP trip which took them 53days, going to miss them alot.

2009-10-11T23:35:00.002+08:00

1 week of post

Monday

Went down to school in the afternoon for preparation for Children Day. As usual went for work after that.

Tuesday

Went down for FYP and realise that we can slow down already, now waiting for that grp to do faster. Then they already so slow still don't want to come down and do so in the end we need to help them do because of the time constraint, and is like so many CMI de. Then the most funniest thing is that the room that we are sitting is going to be use by another people from other lab already. So my poor in-charge has to pack up all his stuff and he cant find a table to settle himself and my professor also cant sit there anymore got to go back to his own office. The whole lab is like turning upside down. After that went for work again.

Wednesday

Celebrate chu zen b'day. We went souel garden for lunch, had a enjoyable chatting and shopping. Image we can stuck at the arcade for so long, all of them know my favourite. So many nice things I like, got mickey&minnie mouse, got hello kitty. all are so nice. After that went down to tsc for a short meeting. I am going to be the emcee for the discussion meeting on 18th oct, so scary, infront of maybe 200 plus people.

thursday

Went swimming early in the morning, so nice. Children Day at CSSC. Went down to cc in the afternoon to pass belinda the cookie cause she say she want to eat. Then after that went down to sch to help bring all the stuff to CSSC. Reach there earlier to do some preparation and the children there are so naughty, they ask us math qns, so we kind of 4get how to use model to do it and we do it our way, they keep scolding us de. When the celebration start, they are still very naughty need to shout at all of them, was so tired after the whole event, cause i am like running up and down.

Friday

Went swimming early in the morning, so nice. Finally there is a day where I can slack at home. So nice.

Saturday

Slack at home in the morning than went to work in the afternoon. Before that went to tampines 1 to do suriani present. so sad, they are leaving soon, is really a long time since I last saw them, really miss them alot.

When I reach work, michele suddenly came up to me and talk about what happened in Philippine now, she almost cry infront of me and when I heard that I almost cry too but I control myself. So throughout the work was trying to comfort her make her happy. And at the same time I am thinking of ways how to help her. No matter how, I am going to help her in terms of $, food etc. they are so poor thing.

Sunday

Yeah, last day of newspaper collection and is at yishun, don't really feel like waking up in the morning. Was so tiring, but I am happy still. Like what judith say, i should always bring sweet out, so when i feel abit giddy I will start eating sweets. My hand now is all so painful.

after that went to tsc to chant with xue yun, after that went to tampines 1 teadot to discuss on my script. Thanks xue yun for helping me alot of my script and explaining in details. I really need to go study lots of thing cause i am going to be appointed as a leader for Paya Lebar East District 1 next year january.

Was so happy to hear that leonard koh wife is pregnant and is twins. 1 days I must be as successful as him. In a very short term he can become a principal and led the school very well.

2009-10-04T22:25:00.002+08:00

Wednesday

Finally went to watch movie with yan teng, "The ugly truth". The show was quite funny. After the show went to walk walk around and pass back famous amos to chat with su wei and steven cause is a long time since I last chat with her.

Thursday

As usual went down for FYP and than work.

Friday

Went out in the afternoon with my poly friends to hunt for something. Secret for now. After that walk walk awhile before I left. It is our monthly YEC meeting, as usual the same few pple came and we are going to have our retreat in november and we are suppose to start thinking of what we want to do for the year. I am no longer staying in community service sec, I am moving on to a more challenge one which is service-learning sec. Not a bad thing cause i can work with vincent lee which at least I know him. Someone told me this, although you are in another post now, but you still shouldn't go round and do everything yourself. During the meeting I told them that I will be quite busy and all of them laugh and make sure is minute down. True also, although I same I am busy but it ended up that I am doing everything still. But this time I really meant it. My roles have been increasing.

Saturday

Went yishun early in the morning to give out flyers for recycle project than after that went for lunch and back to work again. work was quite busy suddenly more pple came to buy. and was all the way busy until closing and didnt have much things to play.

Sunday

our 3rd recycle project went on smoothly, thanks everyone single one for their help. We manage to complete 36blks. after that went with han hong and his cousin to tampines, than they brought things from levi and after that went for present hunting for someone. Had lots of fun still although i am really very tired.

after that went down to tsc to meet elaine and li ping. They was encouraging me to become the leader for YWD for my own district. I agreed to it and i will be attending a basic training on December follow by a few more training for the following months. finally i agreed to it, i really hope i can be a good leader. I was task to be the emcee for the next zone discussion meeting, so scared.

going down for CCA tml for the preparation of children day.

2009-10-01T00:39:00.002+08:00

I think i am getting more and more tired of blogging. Its seems like like my body system is really weak now.

Anyway this few days i am going down to NTU for FYP after that left for work all the way till 11pm. Sometime they will ask me why i so tired today. I think i really dunno how to plan my schedule well. Sometime i wonder if one day can have more than 24hr anot, I really need more time.

Anyway i am glad that some friends around me actually bring some joy to me.

2009-09-26T00:46:00.003+08:00

Mid-autumn festival

Once again YEC is involve with the kheng chiu, and every now and then the event i get very disappointed. Today only turn out to have 4 YEC pple helping which include me, where has the rest gone too? Really thanks choon kim for helping out today and he only just join YEC. But really thanks shi chang for helping me to find most of the helpers. I had a happy time with them and of course their help is of a great help.

But on the other hand i am so angry with the food vendor. Guess this is the 2nd time that i am so angry. the 1st time was last last yr national day and today history repeat again. this time round we brought 80 elderly there, so while they are watching the performance we went to take some food for them, so we went 1 vendor and tell them tat we need 82 for the elderly, they say they will help us keep and we go collect later, in the end they run away. so we went to the other shop and tell them that we need 82 also, so they chop all the tickets and we tell them that we take 20 1st, if we need than we come back, so they say ok, so when i went back to collect more, they say only 1 person can collect 1 at a time and i told them you all already chop and agreed to what we say. so i quarrel with them and they say they call their boss so i say go ahead, i am not the one at fault why should i be scared. i told them the elderly cant walk how am i suppose to bring them here and ask them to collect 1 by 1 and they ask me to drag them there. Was so angry that i immediately walk away for awhile to cool down 1st. After that i walk back there and give them a big scolding. I told them "I don't want anymore, if this thing continue the elderly sure starve to death".

Later on i told jg about this and he help me back. Sometime i seriously dont wish to help out in all this thing anymore, there is always some inconsiderate pple. Sometime i really don't know how their parents teach them. they treat this to the elderly, i am sure they will be treated this way next time too. When the overall in-charge told them and ask them to give us, i told them i don't want anymore already and just walk away. Even people who has ticket also they dont want to give.

I am seriously so angry just now, when i am walking i drop tears, i told myself i shouldn't cry because of this stupid person who are not human at all.

2009-09-21T11:41:00.002+08:00

Although is holiday now but i do not have much rest too.

During this holiday got to do FYP, work and Leo club Recycle project.

Yesterday was my 2nd recycle project and everything went quite smoothly.

Manage to complete all the blk that we should covered

But the manpower wise turn out to be only about 42 pple helping.

Everything ended quite early with everyone help.

After that rush for my work cause was suppose to work at 3pm but i push to 4pm

but i am still late for 20min.

After work on my way back my leg muscle pulls.

Damm pain, so went back to bath, check something den quickly went to slp

cause cant take it anymore.

but until now my leg is still quite pain.

But i still have to work later.

Going to work everyday except thurs and friday my off day.

Cant wait to go out with my friends going to take leave from work.

2009-09-15T22:01:00.002+08:00

Picture with Charmaine and Ericz

Was happy that i am going for the retreat in December to taiwan. But was deciding whether i should go on the actual day which is 18 or 2 days earlier. Cause judith ask me to join her and chris cause they are going 2 days earlier. actually have been thinking quite awhile whether to go or work but many pple encouraged me to put down sometime and go for a holiday. I agreed to it.

I dunno if i ever had regretted continue another term in YEC cause i feel that this is no longer a place where i am happy in maybe due to some pple. we are like 2 different world. for next week i still couldnt get anybody, joanna order the food and i dun even dare to tell her yet. Sometime i am really feeling very tired for such things.

Sometime i was thinking why do pple do things when they got cca points. cant you all just contribute something to the society.

i might be joining zone 4 RC as a AM very soon. I really felt much more happier there, the unity, the laughter i see in them i will nv see in YEC.

Someone told me yesterday when i die i will go to the heaven they will go to the hell. this person even tell me i should quit sch and join community chest. Although is my holiday now but i have no ending of work to do.

I am really very tired for some things around me now, wish all of them can leave me now. Sometime being 1 person can be quite good, at least i am peace, i can do my own things.

got a checkpoint this friday, dunno if i want to go anot.

2009-09-12T00:03:00.000+08:00

"Night of a thousand stars" Campfire

Been quite busy with a few things that why didnt have the time to update.

Finally 2 of the major events is over already. Quite glad. Is always tired when all the events are 1 after another. Do not know why i am always the suay one, every of my events seem to be one after another.

Could not work up on sat, 5th september. Luckily my uncle woke me up, so quickly bath and rush down and luckily i am able to reach East Spring by 7am. So help to transport all the pole into my uncle van and unload at festival park. So accompany sze ying to get some breakfast and at the same time order chicken rice for the scouts lunch.

After that rush back to cc and manage to reach at 8.45am, start to print all my song sheet and prepare all the stuff while waiting for the town council to come. when they came, help to load all the stuff and went to festival park. Omg, didnt know that i can walk as fast as the the driver. Manage to reach the same time. So help to load all the things to RC centre and went to get the lunch for the scouts.

After that go through the program with alvin and daniel (Emcee). Really got to thank them for the last minute Emcee, they were told only 2 days before the event. Later on got help from YEC people. And later on found out that the song sheet is not enough, thanks desmond for driving me to the cc and started to print more.

After that rush back to festival park to finish up all the touch up. Everything manage to go on smoothly except the last part which is to break Singapore book record. The emcee told them so many time not to break the light stick yet the residents actually broke it. So,the singapore book record guy told us, we cannot break it. So had no choice and thanks jg for the suggestion to ask desmond to get another 600 light stick. So on my part, i actually change the program due to no choice. Luckily desmond are able to come back in time and soon everything go on smoothly, have to thanks jg for helping me in this planning while i continue with my flow for my program.

Maybe due to i didnt eat much for dinner and i am running up and down without drinking any water, i almost fainted. But i am really glad that there are pple beside me. They decided to send me to hospital and desmond actually send me there and verlyn actually accompany me in while they wait outside. Was found that my gulcose lvl is very low, so had to go for drip and they went to buy food for me.

Later on desmond send me home and i slept when i reach home.

I am so sorry that i actually made so many pple worried for me, when i woke up i received lots of unknown number, pple like adeline, lydia, zone 4 pple. Cause of this project i have been with them quite often too. Made the office staff worried for me, got scolded from joanna too. Really want to thanks everyone of you for your care and concern and your help.

Thanks kelvin for helping me to settle leo stuff too which i need it for the next day.

2009-09-06T08:53:00.000+08:00

Finally all the events are over.

I am really feeling very tired too.

Anyway was happy that we got into the Singapore book record

must thanks desmond to go and buy more that and jg for helping me to co-ordinate.

But good things always doesn't let me last to the end

nearly last part of the event le but i couldn't make it.

got to thanks desmond for sending me to the hospital.

thanks verlyn for keeping me accompany

and thanks the rest for the concern which i am so blur now who is it.

Was on drip and after that i can go home le.

i am feeling better now le.

2009-09-04T09:21:00.002+08:00

Our Campfire hand made banner, isnt it nice?

Very tired

After exam on wednesday rush down to cc, just nice manage to reach by 7.30pm. went back around 9plus and did not join them for the celebration cause i am seriously very tired and not in the mood too due to some reason.

woke up early on thursday to finish my recycle project stuff den went sch for meeting den went to buy kerosene. until now my hand hurts cause was carrying the kerosene all the way to cc den seriously i dunno how many litre was that. went to have dinner with belinda at 264 den go to festival park for all the rehearsal and go through the program. den we went for a short drinks and it ended around 11pm. So after that me and daniel went back to cc mac to do out all the emcee script till about 12 plus. i reach home was so dead tired. But still got do some necessary stuff so slept around 3am.

woke up early again to do some preparation, going cc later. lots of things still not done yet. Got to do my emcee script, readjust the program, get some more logistics, go collect sand, go collect plague. I need to get everything done by today and at night i still got NAS Alumni anniversary dinner dun even know whether i can make it down anot.

tml going to reach east spring around 6.30am to help to transport the logistics to festival park, cause i am asking my uncle to help. so i will be there from that time till the whole event end. Another tired day for me.

On sunday early in the morning need to travel till pioneer to give out flyers.

2009-09-01T00:22:00.002+08:00

Shall not update on how my exam but i am going to blog about BGM and HBO.

29th August 2009 [9th Biennial General meeting and Hullabaloo Blast Off]

Was so relieved that finally it has ended,

really had a hard time walking till this date.

lots and lots of unhappiness and conflicts occur.

Until now, my heart is still full of anger,

I am so angry with some of the people right now.

I really don't know how to 4give you all,

do you all know that you have made my life so miserable.

I cried infront of so many pple again on friday.

Do you know that on that day i really breakdown.

was having lunch with belinda and min min and i did not talk

they ask if i am feeling sick but i just keep quiet.

Thanks verlyn for sending me to the airport to study overnight

went back at 5 plus to my aunt place, bath and left the hse.

Reach cc at 6.45am to finish up my program stuff.

Do you know that i am tired?

You are the one who is free and not me who have to study for exam

since you are so free, have you ever really help me b4 to lessen my burden?

you only know how to say.

Anyway i am really glad with a few people, thanks for cheering me up espically alvin.

I got scolded by a few people again and is all because i am taking up the job.

I explained to this grp of people and i tried to control myself by not crying.

thanks desmond for sending me home

thanks to des and jg for buying porridge for me.

Anyway i told some of them that i am really getting very tired in YEC.

I really feel like leaving YEC but i got no choice but to stay because of some of you.

And i really going to cry when i heard something not so gd

I know it have been hard for you, but as you go along, i am sure you are able to adapt well.

Dun want to continue already, it will only make me even more angry.

2009-08-26T23:50:00.004+08:00

"I am getting so tired"

Monday

Went to airport to study early early in the morning

Went to meet jg in the afternoon to go and do some HBO stuff

Stay at the printing shop the whole day and manage to finish around 8pm

Tuesday

1st paper, AIA

the paper totally screwed up

stupid teacher giving such a difficult qns

Cause is her last time to set paper le, then give the qns all i dunno how to do de

I am going to like failed the paper and is like 50% of my whole module

Everyone is cursing her man.

Wednesday

Went to study in the morning again

Then went to east point popular in the evening to get some HBO stuff

then went to cc to pass Belinda things and went to reading room to study again

Before going back chatted with Belinda for awhile

Well, alot pple have been saying me, saying why i do so much, saying why everything i also do. Sometime i am so tired of answering this qns. Not that i want to do everything, but anyone can just step out and tell me who will be doing it. Ask them to do a simple task, keep telling me got exam, by tonight send you etc. But when did i ever received it. Sometime i am so sick and tired of staying in YEC. Some of them think that i got no exam, nv go school, got nothing to do is it. Everyday just sit down to do YEC stuff. Although i have only join YEC for 2 years, but i have nv been happy at all, have been crying. my close YEC friends, have been asking them whether they can cope with the things they supposed to do anot and yet they tell me the same things too, no one want to help them. I am really feeling so sad when i heard this and i volunteer myself again. And pple start to scold me. I really cant bear to see people who need help yet no one can help them. As long as i am around 1 day, i don't care how tired, how busy i am, i still want to help. I am human, i cant bear to see all this things.

But recently i really found a place where i can be happy, which is zone 4 RC. I think i am going to join as a associate member. They are all very nice pple, need help they will just come over. Is a 1st time being a volunteer i had so much fun. I dont care if they are all auntie, at least they are better than e YEC pple, they do things.

Have been complaining too much, should go back to study. Long day tml again.

2009-08-22T01:13:00.001+08:00

I am seriously very upset now,

crying non-stop.

I really HATE you.

Still i want to wish you ALL THE BEST

2009-08-22T00:11:00.002+08:00

Some of the I&I 2009 Picture

Is a long long time since i blog

My life now is pack of volunteer stuff

Pack with YEC, Campfire and exams

Was telling someone the other day that dunno why i am always so suay,

all my events (important role) sure clash with my exams de.

Having a very bad headache this few days,

cause lots of things to do and i am rushing.

Attending meeting almost everyday.

I really need more days and more hours a day,

if not i really cant finish everything that i should complete.

But really thanks some pple who really encourage me during this time,

and help me quite abit.

recently there is some conflict between 2 persons which i don't really want to see that,

cause they are very good friend b4 that.

I really hope that they can be very good friends back.

Maybe after this events?

Anyway i shall go back and finish my HBO stuff and if i am still awake,

will look through my notes for awhile.

Full day for me again.

That goes my day.

2009-08-13T00:53:00.002+08:00

Singapore Polytechnic Leo Club Induction & Installation 2009

Went to Queensway shopping centre to collect the plague

Went to club hse to put down the plague 1st.

After that went to discuss abit on gems 1st

Went to LT18 for our rehearsal

had alot of fun playing, chatting and taking picture.

After the rehearsal we went to fc 4 to have our lunch together

After lunch went to get ourself prepared for the I&I to start.

See alot of faces which i have not seen them for long.

Really had alot of fun chatting and taking picture.

After I&I, had a surprise birthday celebration for say kiat and tsai ting whose b'day falls on august.

will upload the photos some other day

2009-08-12T09:23:00.000+08:00

Its a long time since i put up those pictures,
Upload the National Day Dinner pic held on the 1st Aug and
Poly 50 pic held on 29 july.

was not feeling very well on Monday during work,
feeling so cold that i even wear a long sleeve shirt plus my working shirt.
Drank lots of hot water.
At tat moment i really feel like giving up studying nano le
But i manage to made it through

Had nanoscience test yesterday,
not sure if i am able to score better than e 1st one anot
my memory is really really very bad
But was glad that 1 module is down.
More to go.

No school today but need to discuss with my grp mates on gems later
going to collect the plauge for today Induction & Installation.
Time really flies,
Is the last year i am going for Indcution & Installation.
Got a special post from my club,
I will be the Student Advisor of Leo Club.

A change in committee every year has made my stay in Leo a meaningful one.
I really like the new committee I am having now,
the joy, the laughter, never end.

I am sure we all will be able to make it through,
and will start to find someone who can take over us the next year.

2009-08-12T01:04:00.004+08:00

Singapore Polytechnic Poly 50 2009 [290709]

SPSD!!!

2009-08-10T00:39:00.006+08:00

National Day Dinner 2009 @ Pasir Ris Secondary School [010809]

BIG Cake

My good sister Verlyn
Kelvin Ong
I am still young
Bernice is young too

YEC Group photo

2009-08-08T22:29:00.000+08:00

Well, our steamboat is cancelled today cause some of them could not make it. Went out in the afternoon for a walk and spend sometime studying nanoscience.

Received a news from someone don't know if i should be happy or i should be sad. But definitely i am happy for him. although it have been 1 year plus but there is something that i still cant forget still. Maybe i just need that time to heal. Anyway i should be happy for that.

Going back to study, having a very bad headache although.

2009-08-08T10:24:00.000+08:00

Not really in the mood to blog frequently maybe due to the fact that i am very tired now. Anyway have been spending my time working, studying, Leo and YEC stuff, no ending of work.

recently burnt my hand, think i must be thinking of something then did not notice that my hand was there. But nothing serious la, just that the scar will remain there for another year, is the 2nd time since i burnt myself when i start work.

Cant wait for holiday to come but then i have to face the semester exam 1st which i hated it alot. I want some REST.

Going for steamboat with my fellow dancers later.

2009-08-05T09:35:00.002+08:00

Opps, i am getting lazy to blog already.
Lots of assignment not handed in yet,
maybe after this semester exam i will start to blog more often.

Time is getting faster and faster and i am getting more and more tired
Semester exam is like in 2 weeks time,
yet i do not have time for much revision.
Next week is nanoscience exam and it weightage is 35%,
going to study very very hard now.

Just manage to finish 1 formal report, 1 more to go
I am going to finish up my nano case study hopefully by today too.

I think somehow I have changed abit too, but i dunno how have I changed
Maybe people who don't see me often can tell me if I have really changed into another person.

Going to continue to finish what i have to do in school now.
Working tonight AGAIN.

2009-08-02T10:37:00.002+08:00

Its a long time since I last blog.

It has been rather a busy day, busy weeks till the end of this semester.
Lots and Lots of uncompleted task
This one week have been working and going for meeting.
Have been reaching home almost 12am everyday.
sleep at 3am.
Less than 4hr of sleep everyday.

Finally had some fun on the Friday and Saturday.
Went out with Faizah to Jurong Point to get some stuff and walk walk

On Saturday went for a dry run for HBO in the morning.
After going from station to station,
we find a place to eat and drink.
After the dry run went to mac to further discuss on things that we have to change or amend.
Poor desmond

After that went to NDD Garden Party @ Pasir Ris sec.
Had lots of fun taking pic, playing and talking.
Was so surprise to see Kai Jing there and got a hug from her.
Cause she is performing under Soka.
I also received a big hug from Judith.
Anyway i had lots of fun yesterday.

Going to work later.

2009-07-25T07:44:00.002+08:00

Thursday

Went to NTU for FYP again,

After that went back to school for PP Chem last practical

After practical went to work

work on that day was so boring cause the pple i am working with,

i dun like them.

Luckily got shirley and her mother come down,

brought some laughter

Friday

Went school as usual, cause we are the 1st bath for the EIC test

Omg, this test really test me on something,

and i have proven something through this EIC

Anyway it is not something easy to lend your listening ear.

After we re done for EIC, went to discuss on AIA case study,

after that went back for p&f tutorial,

after that went to eat mac for lunch.

then got to go to the cc for a meeting with belinda,

there is lots and lots of things to discuss that I really don't know what to do.

After discussion, help to finish up putting the HBO stuff into the envelope which have to send out to all the passion card members. Really got to thanks carol and madam yeo for helping. I really feel so bad asking them to do yec stuff. I also feel bad if we had to actually ask belinda to do it too. So, i told belinda yesterday if she really need help she can just give me a call and i will definetely go down although i am really really very busy.

I told belinda that i had a very bad dreams this few days,

dreaming of pple rushing me out for something,

dreaming how should i plan the meetings date etc,

dreaming of how should i make it a more interesting one,

so that the new guy wont have the chance of keep saying.

dreaming lots and lots of things

Later going to work from 12pm-11pm,

really very tiring and tml 9am-5pm.

Really got no time to slp this coming 2 days,

cause i got lots and lots of unfinished stuff

that i really need to get all of them done by next week.

Guess, my espresso is waiting for me once again.

2009-07-22T08:03:00.002+08:00

N.U.S Can Group pic (A1)

Tuesday

Did not went to sch,

went to see doc on my leg and get a MC.

Is abit swollen now.

work at 5pm,

everything seems different cause daphne, anqi and wei li all left already

but still have fun playing with tasha

got 1 new gal,

so teach her everything.

Cant stand the china girl, don't know everything yet,

say me slow, when i was teaching the new girl

After work went home, was so tired that i went to slp.

No school today cause tutorial cancelled,

but going to NTU to do FYP.

After that going cc for 2 meetings,

i have got no choice but to attend both meetings.

Going to have BGM program meeting at 7pm,

after that attend the campfire meeting at 8.15pm

I am totally so tired now.

with increasing of working hours and days

with increasing number of works to be done for BGM and Campfire

with increasing number of work to be done for leo and recycle project

with nearer and nearer dates for end semester exam

Things are never finished.